OK I was firmly on the Wyatt and Lucy train, HOWEVER I hate that he could just walk away. No matter what they do now... Lucy will always be his second choice!
So I am starting a new couple! This might be a stand alone, unless enough people want me to continue it. Then I will turn it into a story!
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Flynn walked in to see Lucy sitting by herself on the couch, watching an old black and white movie. She looked so small and alone, like she was broken. Flynn felt something he had not felt in so long that he could barely remember …. pity, sadness but more importantly caring…... the need to make her feel better.
He reached in the fridge and grabbed two beers, before walking over to sit next to her. He handed her one, not saying anything. Just being there so she knew that she wasn't alone. Lucy sat sipping her beer, she said nothing. They just sat there in silence. Contemplating life and how they got to where they were. The black and white movie still rolling but not really being watched. They just sat there with each other, because It was better than being alone.
After Lucy finished her beer and set it in front of her on the table, Flynn got up and got two more. Opening one and handing it to her. There was normally a one beer rule but right now neither one cared about the rules. Lucy finally broke the silence when she when she whispered, "Do you ever regret anything?"
Flynn sat and thought for a moment wanting to be honest. He had a lot of things he did wrong, but the one thing he had never done with Lucy was lie. "Yes." He said softly.
"What?" Lucy said still looking at the tv, but only listening to Flynn.
"Not killing that boy. Not stopping Rittenhouse before they got even more powerful. Not breaking the time machine before I gave it back." He paused and looked down at her with a grin, "and there was this one time in band camp…." He trailed off knowing it had his desired effect when she glanced at him with a grin. "What about you?" he asked.
She shrugged and took another swing of beer, "Sure." She paused for a moment setting her head back on the couch. "Not letting you stop Rittenhouse…. Not taking my own path in collage…." she paused and grinned at him, "and there was that one time in band camp."
He barked out a laugh, the first one that he done in a while. "What is the real question?" He asked turning to look at her.
Lucy closed her eyes and took a deep breath, "Wyatt." She turned into him, "Do you remember when you said that when you got your family back, you would leave them?" She waited for him to nod at her, "Did you mean it? You would be able to just walk away?"
He closed his eyes for a moment before he whispered back, "Yes." Her looked down at her, "Not because I didn't care anymore. But because it is different." His voice became stronger as he relieved the things he had shared with no one else. "I loved my wife and my daughter, they were my world. But if they came back now… we would not be the same... I am not the same. She wouldn't know me…. the things that I have done." He looked past Lucy's shoulder taking a deep breath, "Our marriage was not perfect, but I loved her… more then anything else… at least until my daughter was born. And she loved me…... the me I was…. Not this me. Before this started I had never even looked at a gun, let alone held one and killed people. I had never hit anyone. I had never done anything like I have done the last few years. She loved the man I was, not the man that I am. And to be honest, I am not sure that I would love her. Who knows what would change with all of the changes we have made. It is like trying to take what was and make it the same now. That will never happen."
He looked down to see tear streaks falling down her face, "Plus I have mourned them. They have been gone for so long… that sometimes I forget what they even look like. Like a memory that is beginning to fade. I try to pull their faces up in my mind and where it used to be so clear and vivid, its blurry and fading." He took a deep breath, "They deserve to be alive… they deserve to be happy and loved. But we can change history, but we can't put it back exactly what it was."
Lucy reached her hand out and lay it on top of his, her fingers curling around his hand. "I have made a lot of mistakes in my life. But I can't regret to many of them because regret doesn't do anything. I can be sorry, I can try to right some wrongs." He looked at her with a grin, "But you can't change the past." He said
Lucy started laughing; big, high, loud peels of laughter, "We sure can't change the past." She gasped through her laughter. Flynn grinned down at her before he got serious again, "Don't try and worry about the past anymore Lucy, let's just worry about stopping Rittenhouse. We can only go forward right now… unless we are going back to stop them…. You know what I mean."
"I am not worth it anymore." She whispered, laughter fading away to sadness. "If everything that you say is true…... I wasn't worth it. He chooses her, even after she had been gone for 6 years. I was just a momentary replacement. As soon as she came back, I didn't exist anymore." She paused as tears streaked down her face, "I wasn't worth it."
"Ohh Lucy." Flynn said breaking the distance and pulling her into his arms, letting her tears soak his shirt. "You are worth it, don't let him make you feel like this. You are worth everything." He whispered into her hair. He looked over her shoulder to see Rufus standing at the door. "I have made a lot of mistakes Lucy. Shooting Rufus was one of the biggest, making you guys not trust me is another. I should have come to you, worked with you to stop Rittenhouse, your way. Maybe we wouldn't be where we are now, if I had. But the one thing I wouldn't mess up, is to choose you, then walk away." Rufus looked at him with narrowed eyes, then gave him a sharp nod before walking away. Seemed like he at least had a truce with the pilot.
Lucy slid her arms around Flynn waist, pushing her face deeper into his chest. He rubbed his large hand up and down her back trying to calm her, to comfort her. He felt her slowly relax against him, her body starting to sag against him. Her breathing slowed down until her head slid back into the pocket of his shoulder. Her eyes flittering closed as she finally fell asleep. Flynn slid down in his seat and tilted his head back against the couch that was not made for someone Lucy's size, let alone his 6' 4 frame. But he wouldn't risk moving any more and her waking up when she finally dozed off. He closed his eyes taking a deep breath inhaling the soft feminine scent of Lucy. It had been so long since he had felt soft curves against him. So long since anyone had trusted him enough to lay this close, to be so vulnerable with him. Lucy trusted him, to keep her safe…. To comfort her. He knew that he would not do anything to jeopardize that and his eyes snapped open when he heard the footsteps walking into the room. He looked over to see Rufus walking in with blankets. Rufus nodded over at Lucy holding up one of the blankets. Flynn nodded and watched as Rufus draped it over Lucy carefully. Then he handed the other one to Flynn.
Flynn watched as Rufus turned off the tv and sat on a chair, leaning forward and clasping his hands together. Flynn watched him through hooded eyes, waiting, knowing Rufus was there to say something. After a moment Rufus looked up and watched Lucy sleep, the peace on her face a relief. Then he looked at Flynn and finally broke the silence.
"Why are you here?" Rufus asked him softly.
Flynn raised an eyebrow, "Stop Rittenhouse, always been my number one goal." Flynn said quietly.
Rufus nodded looking down at his hands, "You have always been honest. I will give you that. What about Lucy and I?" Rufus asked him looking him in the eye now.
Flynn just started at him, but for once Rufus didn't break, he kept starting at Flynn until Flynn grinned at him. "Lucy is a priority now." He paused for a moment looking down at Lucy, "Maybe even more important than Rittenhouse." Flynn looked back up at Rufus, "You are important to her, so therefore you are important to me."
"So, we are best buds now?" Rufus asked with a sarcastic grin.
"No." Said Flynn, "But you have my word that I will protect both you and Lucy with my life."
Rufus nodded again, "I can live with that…... I still don't like you."
Flynn grinned at him, "I don't really like you."
"I don't trust you." Rufus said frowning, but he looked up in shock when Flynn said, "I trust you."
"No, you don't." Rufus said shaking his head.
Flynn shrugged carefully and paused when Lucy moaned and shifted. He waited for her to settle before he turned back to Rufus, "I trust you to get us to the past and back as safely as you can. I trust you to make sure you can keep Lucy as safe as you can. I trust you to do everything you can to stop Rittenhouse." Flynn paused for a moment before taking a deep breath and closing his eyes, "I haven't trusted anyone in a long time. Lucy is the first. And she trusts you." Flynn opened his eyes to look at him, "So I will trust you…. So please try not to shoot me in the back…... literally. And you have my word that I will keep you safe and won't hurt you."
Rufus nodded, "I can do that. I promise to tell you well before I try to kill you." He finished with a grin.
Flynn nodded at him, "Who knows… maybe one day we will be friends."
Rufus grinned, "Let's not push our luck… I don't hate you right now…... but friends is a bit of a stretch." He said standing up and walking over to the door, but he paused when he heard Flynn call out.
"I am truly sorry for shooting you…. It was a low point for me… I felt like I was losing everything that I had left…... I felt like there was no hope anymore." Flynn looked over at Rufus, looking him in the eyes. "I was wrong, I would take it back if I could."
Rufus stood there in shock, realizing that Flynn was being honest in a way that he had never been before. Rufus slowly gave Flynn a nod, closing his eyes thinking for a moment. He looked back at Flynn giving him a verbal olive branch, "We have all done things that we wish we could take back…. Admitting that we are wrong... asking forgiveness. That is what matters in the end." He gave Flynn one more nod before walking out of the door.
Flynn closed his eyes again, he knew that he and Rufus were not friends. They may never be friends. But they had at least come to an understanding, that they were on the same team and that they could trust each other, at least trust each other enough for now. He pulled Lucy slightly closer, tightening his grip slightly. He felt her relax a little more against him taking a deep breath shifting her head, so her nose touched his neck. Her hand sliding across his stomach as she tried to find his warmth. Flynn pulled the second blanket and covered Lucy with it, so she was double protected from the bunkers cold air. Then he closed his eyes and let himself drift off to sleep.
Behind them Rufus watched as Flynn gave up more comfort to make sure that Lucy was taken care of. He knew that he still didn't trust Flynn fully, but he knew in his gut that Flynn would give his life to protect Lucy. Right now, that was one of the only things that mattered. For some reason he also trusted Flynn's word that he would protect him. Flynn was an asshole and manipulative, but he had never lied to them before, Rufus didn't think he was going to start now. It was a start.