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The Exception to the Rule
Chapter Eight: Convert Some Heartless
"I'm so glad you decided to come this time." Xemnas looked at me with annoyance. He had summoned my presence at least ten times before I decided to grace him with my presence. I was angry. I was so close to getting Kairi out of here, but Xaldin found me in the dungeon and stopped any chances for me getting her out in secret. I would have to wait another month at least to help her escape, if I was going to use caution.
"I was, preoccupied with something else at the moment and figured that you could wait a few minutes for me to arrive."
"Xaldin said he found you in the dungeons."
"Xaldin says many things but are all of them true? Besides I had important business to attend to that you gave me." Xemnas looks at me for a second, and then nodded.
"Have a seat." I look at him then slowly lower myself into the seat directly across from him. Xemnas leans back in his chair for a moment as if he were pondering something. I began to drum my fingers on the desk.
Click..click.click click…click.
"Will you stop that, it's infuriating to listen to." I just look at him. He finally looks at me and stands up.
"As you know, there are very few members left in the Organization, and even as we speak it seems that the number decreases still."
"Oh no, I didn't notice that at all!" I tell him sarcastically.
"So, I have decided to stop the missions for awhile, we must rethink some things and maybe you can pry some knowledge from that girl." I look at him in shock.
"Why don't we just find more members?" I ask.
"Its to late for that, now leave." I glare at him and walk out of the room, and for the thousandth time, wondered if Xemnas knew about me.
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"Just where are your loyalties Helena?" Axel demanded.
"I am my own person."
"I know that but where do you place your trust, where do your loyalties lie?"
I stare at him for a moment. "I am loyal to myself. I can trust no one."
Axel looked startled. "I thought you weren't going to help Kairi?"
"I wasn't, but I changed my mind, that is allowed you know. Now because Xaldin almost caught me, if I want to succeed I will have to wait another month."
"If? If you use caution. What are you planning? Tell me Helena." I look at him.
"Xemnas is rethinking things, I think that he's worried or something has changed."
"Like what? What could have changed? For better or worse?"
"I don't know, he won't tell me, but I'll find out."
Axel sits down by me on my bed. He grabs one of my gloved hands.
"You were never like the rest of us, you know? Maybe like Roxas," he pauses for a second, "no not even like Roxas even; but not like any of us 'normal' nobodies."
"Define normal."
He looks at me for a second before answering.
"Being whole; but in the case of nobodies wanting to be whole so badly you would do anything to be whole without giving up yourself to your creator."
"I want to be whole also it just seems that one little thing is holding me back, just like the rest of you are held back."
"What?"
"I don't have-" I pause and keep myself from saying 'whole', then continue, "-heart." Axel lets go of my hand disappears through one of the portals. About a minute later Xigbar walks in.
"The Superior wants to see you. How you feeling your looking a little weird.."
"Nobodies can't feel, and even if I could, it would feel no different then it was before."
"Dude aren't you just depressing."
"It's what I live for, being depressing, not that it matters because I can feel nothing." I look at him.
"I keep sensing another presence in your room, any idea who it is?"
I look mockingly at him.
"I don't even allow you in here, why would I let another in my room?" He nods, then turns and leaves my room. I stare at my closed door before I summon a portal and step though it.
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"You wanted me?"
"I have decided that we must bring the Keyblader here soon. But first you must let loose some more heartless on the different worlds."
"And do you propose that I do that?" I ask with annoyance.
"Convert some from that idiots side, the one who had that large army." He replies with a dismissing wave, as if what I asked was so unimportant and so obvious.
Oh just wonderful. This isn't only going to be difficult, it just might get me killed, and that wench most likely has been plotting her revenge on me. I glower at the thought then nod.
"Yeah, sure whatever." I say with a shrug and leave the room.