Disclaimer: I don't own Supernatural but I'd really really love to own Dean. lol...
AN: Erm...Dean thinking about Sam late at night. NOT slash.
...Sleeping...
Sam sleeps and Dean
watches.
His eyes are dry and a headache slowly building but he
ignores the pain
ignores the pillow next to him
the bed he's sitting on
ignores everything but the sight of his brother
asleep.
It was close today.
So very very close.
If searching flesh hadn't closed around willing metal...
If the aim hadn't been true...
Today they have survived.
Tomorrow they will start once more
Death at their heels
waiting for that one mistake.
And Dean watches Sam breathing deeply
eyes closed
and knows that one time his hand won't reach
fast or
far or
quick enough
and he won't be able to protect him.
Won't be able to save him
won't be able to do enough.
So he contemplates and ponders and decides.
He knows that he dragged his brother back into the game and is so
very very desperate not to be alone...
but he has been to so very very many funerals
lost so very many people in his life
and he can't let the inevitable happen
won't let the inevitable happen
he's cheated death too many times to lose when it
really counts.
So Sam sleeps and Dean watches him.
A note scribbled on worn paper folded in his pocket.
"Bitch, get your sorry ass back to school. We found dad, didn't we? Go
learn good, man. and keep in touch this time!"
It won't stop him and Dean knows it.
He's taken it out and turned it over too many times with the same answer.
And he knows Sam will only stop when
The Demon's killed.
So Dean will kill it.
Not for his mother or his father,
but for Sam
asleep on the pillow,
clever Sam that for all his brilliance doesn't realize the
inevitable
will happen sooner or later
And death has let them go too many times before.