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They finished dinner and Nick drove her to the Excalibur, he again offered her to stay at his place. She could have the extra guest room. He then asked if she regretted what happen last night?

"Nick, no, I just do not want this to be about sex or Andy. Nick I need to go, I will see you in the PICU in the morning." Sara then quickly got out of the truck and headed into the Excalibur.

When Sara got to the room, she started to cry. Andy should have been there with her and excited that they were in castle. She wanted to know how Nick could forgive her so easily when she could not forgive herself.

Sara called the hospital and talked to Andy's nurse and was told he would be removed off the vent at 7am. She let the nurse know she would be there and call her at Excalibur room 650 if there was a problem. Sara's next call was to Grissom.

Nick left the hotel, he was kicking himself for bringing up last night like he did. Nick arrived home and called the PICU and was informed Andy was fine and would come off the vent at 7am. He let the nurse know he would be there.

Nick then went into Andy's room and looked at it. Just a few days before this was his study, he hoped that Andy enjoyed the room. Now he just had to convince Sara that he still loved her and he had no hard feelings.

Nick then grabbed the phone and called Jo maybe she could help him with Sara.

"Hi Jo, yeah this is Nick Stokes. I wanted to see if we could chat about Sara?"

Jo had been wondering when he was going to call.

"I am not sure if I can help you? How much do you know about Sara's childhood?"

Jo was between a rock and a hard place. She did not want to break Sara's trust it was something that was very hard to obtain.

"Well, Sara told me that her mother killed her father when she was ten and that she does not remember much that happen. She was in foster care for eight years of her life and has an older brother that she has not seen since she was about tweleve. I know her father was physically abusive."

"Well, Nick what I am going to tell you may surprise you some. However I think we need to talk in person, can you come over to the suite at the Tangiers?"

"Yeah, I can be there in twenty minutes."

Nick drove to the Tangiers. It made him wonder what Jo wanted to tell him that he needed to be there in person. Did he want to know? However if it helped him get Sara back then he would deal with whatever she told him.

Nick arrived at the Tangiers and went to the penthouse suite. He had not been there in years, the last time he was there was for the reception for Warrick and Catherine's wedding.

He knocked on the door and Jo answered.

"Hi Nick."

"Hey Jo"

"Well, come in and sit down we need to have a long talk." Jo grabbed a couple bottles of water and sat in the chair as Nick sat on the couch.

"Well, I bet Sara never told you how we met?"

"Uhhh, No." Nick wondered how this dealt with him getting Sara back, however he went along and listened.

"Well, I was on one of my first CSI cases and was very young and green. Actually this was my first domestic violence case where the women had killed the husband. I arrived and CPS was already there taking away the young girl. She had seen everything, and was extremely traumatized. To this day I do not think Sara recalls her and I talking in the car before being taken to the emergency foster home." Jo then walked over and grabbed a small picture ablum from her purse.

"This was a photo taken of me talking to Sara I have kept it all these years. It was the moment I met her." She smiled as she looked at it.

"Sara was in several foster homes in the first six months. Some of the families were afraid to have a child with her history. My husband and I finally got our license to foster and requested Sara. We finally got her as a foster child a year after I met her. Sara got to stay with us for four year until she was almost 16. Then they decided that she needed to be with a family of her own race and removed her from us. Black parents raising a white child all of sudden was unpopular as was it in the reverse. However I kept in touch with Sara. I helped her get into Harvard and encouraged her to look into CSI work." Jo, took a long drink of water.

"Now for the difficult part of this story. The day Sara was removed from the house; her brother was found with multiple injuries. Later it was discovered he had been trying to keep his drunk father from hitting his Mom and hurting Sara. Sara's mom lost it and murdered him when she realized the violence was not going to stop with just him beating her. However back in 1984 we did not do sexual assault exams on children unless they spoke up. Sara and her brother were both terribly physically and mentally abused. I have always had concerns Sara had been sexually assaulted by her father, based on testimony from her brother. Sara, has changed a lot. She is fantastic with Andy and you would never guess she was raised in a violent home. However I think this is why she is afraid to return to you." Jo could see he was taking this information in, however was he understanding?

"Sara, has told me she is scared you would be mad at her for keeping you out of Andy's life. She is even more scared you may want him and take him away and leave her all alone. Sara has searched for love all her life and many times reached out to the wrong people not understanding what love was about. I believe with you she was so madly in love that she did not want to risk having you hurt that she left before you and her both lost a job you loved." Jo could see the light turning on in the young man before her.

"When Sara had told you goodbye then found out she was pregnant, she wanted to call you. However she was scared you would think she just wanted you because of the baby. She was scared you would reject her. If you want Sara back I think you need to prove to her your not mad and that you want both of them in your life. I know she still loves you. Andy knows she loves you. Actually the entire San Francisco crime lab knows it."

Jo laughed thinking about how many times several young men in the lab had tried to ask her to find out her heart belonged to a man in Nevada.

"Now what else can I help you with?"

"Well, I see my work is going to be cut out for me. However I think I can come up with a improved plan. Maybe if I let her know how I felt when she did leave and all I did to overcome my anger and realizing that above all else I love her Andy or no Andy. I just hope she listens." Nick smiled as he said this.

"You know what I think you have a good plan, however I think it may take awhile before Sara gives into her own fears. Now you best be getting home and get some sleep, my grandson is off the vent at 7am and we all need to be there." Jo grinned.

"Thanks, Jo, and thanks for the more details on Sara's youth."

Nick then left and went home to get some sleep.

Nick awoke at 5:30 am got showered and then headed to the hospital. On the way he stopped and picked up a balloon for Andy and flowers for Sara.

Nick arrived to the hospital at 6:30 am. He saw went and talked to the nurse who had Andy and she informed him he was doing wonderful and actually had been removed off the vent an hour ago and was sleeping.

"Did you call Sara and let her know?" Nick worried that she would be upset if she had not been there when he came off the vent.

"Yes, we called her a few hours ago she has been here since 4am and is now lying in the bed asleep with Andy. We will move him to the regular pediatric floor at 8am. You can go inside if you want and go see them."

"Thanks."

Nick walked into the PICU and into Andy's room. He could see Andy and Sara lying in the bed. Sara was sound asleep, Andy was lying there looking at his mommy. Then he saw Nick and smiled.

"Hey buddy." Nick whispered.

"My name is Nick, do you remember me?"

Andy nodded his head yes.

Sara, felt her son move, and stirred awake.

She opened her eyes and saw Nick sitting in the chair looking at Andy and her.

"Nick, I am sorry I did not call however they said Andy was restless so I came in and then they took him off then vent cause he was fighting it." Sara rambeled.

"It is ok your not use to having me around I understand." Nick said, though she could hear the disappointment in his voice that she did not call him.

"Andy, can you say Hi?"

"Hi, Daddy." He said with a true Sara Sidle grin, he may look like Nick but had Sara's grin.

Nick did not know what to say, he was not expecting this though.

Sara sat up in the bed and held Andy on her lap and motioned Nick to come over.

Andy held tight to Sara, he knew this man was his Daddy, and he knew the man loved him however Andy was not sure just yet, he knew his Mommy and right now that is where he felt most comfortable.

"Nick, do you want to hold him?"

"I think that is up to Andy. Would you like to sit on my lap buddy?"

Andy looked at Nick with his large brown eyes and grabbed hold of Sara tighter, shaking his slightly no.

"It's ok, you know what I think you have the right idea buddy, we both need to hold on to mommy so she can not go anywhere." Nick spoke softly to Andy as he clung to Sara.

"Sara, I want you to know I am here and I will go wherever or do whatever you want. I just want to show you I am here forever for you and Andy." Nick said as he reached around to hug her gently and touched his young son's hair."

Sara started to get tears in her eyes. She never felt so good, it was wonderful to have the two favorite men in her life both holding and loving her.

"Nick is the offer to have Andy and I stay with you still open?"

"Only if you want to Sara, and if you would allow me to make this permanent, I want you and Andy to be with me forever." Nick wanted to make sure she knew he wanted them both forever.

Sara was not sure how to answer this. At this time she was not ready for permanent move in the relationship. They needed to make sure they could still have what they did five years ago. However the first night sure did remind her that the physical relationship was still there.

Nick and Sara sat at the PICU all three just holding to each other.

At 0745 Nick gathered up Andy's belongings and they got escorted to the pediatric floor for 2-8 year olds.

Nick was amazed how Andy was looking so good, and was up and walking some, so soon after a major incident.

The doctors came in and talked to Sara and Nick about Andy's activity level and were informed if he had no problems he would be discharged tomorrow.

Just as they were all talking Andy climbed unto Nick's lap, gave his daddy a hug and then went limp and started to have a grand mal seizure.