Ow. Severe pain caused by just deciding to type this all in one sitting, oh well it was worth it. These are journal entries from Chelseas father, Lucas, I thought I was just going to do a few short ones, but then I got into it. I think it will REALLY give you a background to the family though, which is important. No mention of Sam or Dean in this chapter, but in the next you will find they both read it, so pay attention to details so ya don't miss anything!

Thank you greatly to all the awesome people who took the time, and who take the time, to read and review. You guys are great, thanks!

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June 13th, 1993

It's the day after graduation and I ran away from home, I couldn't take it anymore. My parents were always questioning, always concerned, always afraid I was doing drugs. I wish it was that simple. They knew I was different after my sixteenth birthday, they just didn't know how different.

At first I thought one of them must be what I am, but they aren't. I don't know how this happened, hell how it's even possible, but I need answers.

Right now I'm living off the money I had saved up for college, looking for answers as to what I am. I don't even know how to start though, can't just go up to people in the street and ask if they turn into a wolf. I'll just have to keep searching…

October 20th, 1993

I found another like me today in Wisconsin. I was walking down the street when I caught a scent that sent my mind into overdrive and just registered right away. It's so odd how my mind works now, I smell things and information just comes!

I was on my way home from work when I saw him, a tall man with long hair and a bearded face, dark brown eyes against tanned skin. He had to be in his thirties, a handsome man with much charisma and a sparking personality. I didn't know how to approach him really, but finally gathered up enough nerve to speak to him. I couldn't think of anything to say as I stopped him, my mouth went dry and I couldn't breath. But he knew, he knew and all he wanted to do was help. He gave me a warm smile and put a heavy hand on my shoulder and said "It's ok son, I know what answers you seek and I can help you find them, I can help you love what you are."

He had such a glorious warmth in his voice that all I could do was nod. I followed him back to his home, in which I was immediately welcomed by a large family. Or should I say, pack. They said I could stay with them, become one of them. I trusted them right away, since I changed I now seem to be able to pick up a "vibe" on people, William says that's normal for our kind though.

I can't wait to learn about us, about what I am and come to love it. I know it's possible, I just need the guidance and love that only a pack could give me.

February 2nd, 1994

My months at the Richards household have been the best in my life. Never have I felt so at home, so loved.

My parents loved me, but I am something else now. I call them, let them know I'm ok. I hear the worry in their voice, but they just wouldn't understand. I have a new family now, a family who would die for one another.

William has taught me so much. He has told me all kinds of stories of our heritage, of what we came from, of who we are. I found out that I'm a throwback to a pack thought to be extinct. It appears to have skipped my father and grandfather, but reappeared in myself. Even though I'm only half, I carry all the characteristics of a full blooded Loup Garou. That's what we call ourselves, werewolf just sounds so horrible.

Nancy, Williams wife, is such a wonderful woman. She is caring and loving, yet has a sassy attitude that always gets William into trouble. The two are such great friends, I just can't imagine life without them.

And I can't leave out their two children, Nicholas and Sherri. Nicholas is a curious, bull headed six year old with more determination then most adults. He changed into his wolf form for the first time a few weeks ago, probably the most hilarious thing I have ever seen. One minute he's on the floor playing with some legos, I look over the next and a fluffy blonde puppy is sitting there with it's head cocked and a "what the hell" expression on his face. William was quiet proud, he and I shifted and took Nicholas out on his first run. The night was glorious, only the moons on our backs and the wind in our fur. A memory I will always cherish and love.

I can't forget about my precious Sherri, she and I are incredibly close. She is only the age of four, but so insightful and wise some days it almost brings me to my knees. She had her first shift as well the other night, apparently girls change earlier then boys. However, unlike her brother she knew it was coming. She said, "Uncle Lucas, my other self wants out." I was confused at what she meant, but when I got it I simply said, "Well then let it out!" She giggled and changed more beautifully then I'd ever seen. Her mother and Aunt Mary, who I've also grown very fond of(hence my sarcasm), took her on her first run. I badly wanted to go, but a quick nip to the muzzle told me that the first run for a daughter was to be taken by the mother and other female members.

Mary is Nancys sister, she, her husband and three kids are our neighbors. She's a quick witted woman with much attitude, like her sister. Her husband Tom is the opposite, a big softy who loves and cares for the pack, who would die for his pack.

Things are great here, I have a whole new life and am trying to remember to love and appreciate every moment of it.

May 24th, 1994

Tragedy struck today. Tom was killed last night and Mary is in the hospital, thank god the kids were being mischevious and had decided to take a hike in the woods at the time. They were attacked by something supernatural, something horrible and unimaginable. William says he has seen them before, once. That one time was when they fought and killed his father, they are Huntators.

They used to be men in South America, so involved in hunting, so hungry for it that they became creatures that were no longer human. Reptilian like with lighting quick reflexes, they're a pain in the ass to kill I guess.

I don't care if they are the strongest thing in this world. I will kill them.

Tom died defending his pack, and in his honor, love and memory I will kill every last on of them. They hunt us because long ago a feud began when they began moving north into our territory, our kind chased them back down south after they began slaughtering our kind. Why? Because apparently we were the abomination, we were the enemy.

It doesn't matter, they have started killing our kind again. I will stand by my pack and fight till the end.

Whether it be the end for them or me, only God knows…

October 16th, 1995

It's done. We have killed the entire Huntator clan. It has taken over a year and a half, but we've done it. We have had to face deaths of our kind, sorrow and hurt tearing at the pack endlessly. It required William calling in many packs from all over the nation for help and support, every member was amazingly willing and brave. The Huntators were strong, brutally strong with poisonous stingers that would kill us within' minutes. It has been a physically and emotionally exhausting battle, but everything happens for a reason, and I think I met that reason today.

The Naomi pack from Colorado came to aid us in our battle, Williams very own brother is the alpha. They get along great, but Viktor said Colorado just always called to him, and with great regrets he moved there to start his own family long ago. He is older then William by ten years, and has a wonderful daughter named Olivia.

Of course in my own way, our first meeting wasn't the smoothest. We were celebrating our victory with a pack run through the woods when I saw the most beautiful white wolf running before me. Her paws barley seemed to touch the ground, her fur flashed in the bright moonlight and her startling blue eyes made me stand dumbfounded as I watched. Finally gathering myself I ran up to her, she gave me a look that said "what the hell do you want buddy" and I simply wagged my tail like and idiot. She huffed, shook her head and walked away. What was with all the women William knew and having such attitude?

So I got brave. Stupid me.

I playfully pounced on her and nipped her tail, she didn't think it was as funny as I did. Turning around she pinned me with a snarl, and after a few moments of whimpering in fear like a pup, she grinned and released me. Obviously having a good laugh.

Girls these days.

After that we seemed to really click, so for the past few days I've really been enjoying her company, nobody has ever made me feel like the way she does…I don't know what I'm going to do when she leaves…

July 12th, 1996

As you know, I've been in contact with Olivia daily since our meeting last year, and I have to admit it…

We've fallen in love.

I've never been so happy in my life, I drive out to visit her as often as I can, but it gets hard. So, with that being said, I've decided to move out to Colorado. The Richards couldn't be more happy for me, even through we are all going to miss one another tremendously, we all know it's for the best.

Olivia makes my heart skip a beat, my gut get all nervous and excited and all I can think is "I can't spend the rest of my life with someone else, it's just not possible!"

So another road in my life has appeared before me like it did three years ago when I ran away from home, only this time much happier. As I gather up my things and box them away I can't help but be a little sad at the piece of me I'm leaving behind. Yet, the place I'm going makes me so happy, so full of joy that it is well worth it.

William will always be here for me, like he was those years ago. And I will always be here for him, he is my alpha, my pack mate, my friend.

So tomorrow I begin a new part of my life, and I couldn't be more happy about it.

September 28th, 1997

I have been living with Olivia for over a year, and all I can say is…what a woman! I have to laugh at our relationship so far, it's mostly constant teasing and joking, we aren't the warm cuddly type.

Ok, occasionally we are, but we usually prefer the good ole chase, tackle, make the other cry for mercy then run away type.

How I love her though, one of these days I'm gonna marry that girl.

June 4th, 1999

Well we did it, we got married! Took long enough, right? What can I say, I like to be sure of things. That's a lie, I was sure the day I met her she was the one. Actually I like to please the alpha, her father Viktor, and make sure I have approval of his daughters hand.

It was a wonderful day, we had a ceremony in woods with our whole pack there. I was ecstatic to see William, Nancy, Mary, Nicholas and Sherri all able to make it. They said coming had never been a question, never was for a pack member.

In our wolf ways we didn't celebrate with dancing, but the ancient ritual of Olivia and I having to hunt down a buck by ourselves. Proving we could support our own pack someday. We achieved it well, finding a large eight point, we gave our thanks to it as the life faded from its eyes. The pack howled around us, a song of union, beauty and love.

Viktor and his wife Luna came before us, along with William and Nancy. I was expecting them to eat, so I backed away as I was used to, but to my shock they shook their heads no…and bowed down. If I had been in human form, I surely would have been crying.

They had just passed on the right of leadership to us. We now had the right to be alphas of our own pack.

The rest of the night was full of joy and celebration. Olivia snuggled beside me beneath the stars in a meadow surrounded by forest, I wish the moment could have lasted forever…

November 20th, 2000

Olivia miscarried our first attempt at a child. My heart is broken and torn at the thought of a childless future, I pain for Olivia most though. She seems distraught and stressed, so unlike her usual loving and spunky attitude. I try all I can to cheer her up, but nothing seems to work…

September 20th, 2001

We're having a baby! I've never been so excited in my life! Olivia is just absolutely glowing, the joy that radiates from her spreads to anyone in a mile radius, no joke. We don't want to find out the sex, but secretly I'm hoping for a little girl, something about that puts me at complete peace. However, I will be happy as long as it's healthy.

I find I have become extra protective of Olivia since finding out this grand news, I'm told it's what happens when us alphas start havinf children. We become the protectors of more then just our mate but our new pack. Babies are fragile and helpless, they need our protection, care and love. I plan on doing each and every one of those two hundred percent.

April 13th, 2002

The time of birth is quickly approaching us, and Olivia can't wait to "spit the kid out" as she puts it. My mate has become quiet large, but instead of worrying about it, she's using it to her every advantage. Actually, I love doing everything for her, don't tell her hat though.

Her belly is round and smooth, and when I place my hand in a certain spot I feel our childs heartbeat, hard and strong. I talk to our pup every night, Olivia thinks is funny but I think its important.

When we shift I become quiet nervous though, Olivia is no longer fast and swift on her paws, but slow and awkward with the weight of her belly. I watch her every step, which she gets immensely annoyed at and sends me growls, but I ignore them and keep on protecting. It is my job after all.

This next moth is going to be quiet the rollercoaster, and I can't wait.

May24th, 2002

Chelsea Naomi Blue was born at eight o' two this evening, my baby girl was born today. I held my wifes hand in our house as Nancy and Mary helped her through the birth, and when I heard those cries from my child I kissed my mate in joy. We had a child.

Olivia did wonderfully, I saw the pain but determination on her face. And when it was done I expected her to fall asleep, but instead she held Chelsea for hours making sure her baby was safe and secure.

Finally the time came in which I got to hold my beautiful girl, her bright blue green eyes were closed as she slept easily in my arms, her blanket was wrapped snuggly around her small form. I cried in joy as I stood by the window cradling Chelsea, a light spring rain came down and the scent of fresh spring air lingered with the scent of new life.

An amazing future had just started, and I couldn't wait to experience life with my own wonderful pack.

March 30th, 2003

Chelsea is by far the most amazing child I have ever met. Ok, every parent probably says that, but it's true! She watches me with such intelligent eyes, blonde hairs beginning to fall in her face and she laughs with such joy as I blow her kisses. Olivia and her have a great relationship, but she's definitely a daddy's girl. Well, she has had me wrapped around that little finger since day one.

She finds it amazingly fascinating when Olivia or I shift, she gets a look on her face of annoyance, like she's supposed be doing that. I simply lick her face and she sighs in defeat, deciding she can wait a few more years…she guesses.

She enjoys babbling and talking to us, crawling and attempting to walk. Every time she does something new, I cheer in excitement, and every time falls or makes a mistake I catch her. And if I don't, I tend to get very angry at myself. Olivia yells at me for this of course, saying she'll learn and we have a baby proofed house so stop worrying.

Whatever…I'll be overprotective if I'd like.

December 24th, 2005

Chelsea is enjoying her third Christmas, especially the whole cookie part, her and I enjoy stealing them as mom attempts to bake them. Least to say I have a spatula wound from the whole ordeal.

William, Nancy, Mary and the children all came to visit this year. Although the children are now teens, when did this happen? Nicholas is a strong young man of seventeen, still bullheaded and determined, but a wonderful kid with a bright future. Sherri and I still are close, I talk to her through email and on the phone and her sweet personality has stuck all the way through.

Chelsea immediately fell in love with all of them, and they all spoiled her to death with presents, hugs and kisses.

I was pleasantly informed that my daughter is highly gifted with something we call The Sight. Our kind is naturally empathetic, but Chelsea is extra sensitive. We know this because Sherri is gifted with the Sight as well, they immediately picked up on one another and can't be separated now.

William, Nancy and Mary are all well, all enjoying the wonderful time of year. They plan on staying for a few weeks and I am more then happy to have them.

Viktor and Luna were here as well, they just adored their grandchild and couldn't get enough of her. I don't think there is a more loving pack out there then out own.

The new year is quickly approaching, it will be interesting to see what it brings.

October 9th, 2006

My baby girl had her first shift today! I can't tell you how excited I was, my girl changed at only four! It reminded me a lot of Sherris first time, she was sitting on the couch watching TV when she said "Daddy, my other self is barking." I gave her a funny look that she laughed at, and the laughing changed to barking and there was a little blonde puppy!

I shifted right away to be with her and we tussled and played the night away, we had our first run as a family. Chelseas howling was adorable, the little high pitch yips and barks with a wagging tail just made my heart melt. Olivia thought the two of us were ridiculous as we sat on a rock howling at the moon, she said we'd wake the next state. We didn't care! All that matter was that we were together, we were family, pack and we loved each other.

January 4th 2007,

For the first time in many years, tragedy has once again struck our pack. William has called me with grave news that the Huntators are back, he has asked for my aid and help. I can't deny him that, I owe it to him a thousand times over. But the pain in my heart to have to leave my beautiful mate and baby girl pains me more then I thought possible. Viktor has promised to watch over them, take good care of them. I trust him, it is his daughter and granddaughter, his family.

So now I am off to Wisconsin, I hope we can settle the matter quickly and I can return home to my pack. Chelsea doesn't understand why I have to go, but she accepts it with tears in her eyes. It makes my heart break, but an alpha has his duty, and I must fulfill it.

I must protect my pack, and that I will.

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