"What is it Jasper" I asked "Did you want to talk to Edward?"
"No Bella" he said "I wanted to talk to you, if that's ok"
"Of course… umm, what is it?" I stumbled. Edward read what Jasper wanted to say and turned away, giving Jasper and I some privacy. I was very curious, what could Jasper want? I was a little nervous.
"I don't know how to say this" he stumbled "But I want to apologise Bella. For attacking you on your birthday. I made us all leave. I made Edward leave you. I put you both through so much pain. I'm so sorry." Jasper's face was full of remorse and self loathing. My mouth hung slightly open. I shut it.
"Jasper…Jasper its ok. That wasn't your fault. If it was anyone's fault it was mine, I am so clumsy. Anyway, that won't happen again because I'll be as strong as you"
"That's just it Bella, if I hadn't hurt you then maybe you would never have needed to change" Jasper's blonde head hung down.
"Jasper, no. No no, I want to do this, I want to be with Edward forever. It had nothing to do with that". He looked up at me; his gold eyes pierced mine as though he was trying to read them, searching them cautiously trying to decide whether to believe me or not.
"So… so you don't hate me"
"Jasper!" I cried, "Of course I do not hate you. You must know that. " I laughed out of surprise. The corners of his mouth crept up into a smile.
"I couldn't hate you if I tried. I know you would never hurt me intentionally. It was your nature, your subconsciousness, not you" I said.
"Do you give your word" he asked "Am I forgiven?" I took his hand gravely.
"There's nothing to forgive" I replied. "I admire you all so much, having so much self control all the time. It is the least I can ask for, to be as good as you." He smiled. Now his gold eyes held warmth and gratitude.
"Thank you" he said simply. Jasper hugged me softly and then stood up without a sound and left.
The door creaked forbiddingly as he shut it.