Me Untitled
By TiffanY
Sometimes I just wish I can take this suit of skin off.
I want to be invisible.
I want to be visible, no more.
I want to be able to reach the top of the heavens.
I want to be able to reach the depths of hell.
I want to be able to have the breath of God.
I want to use that breath to blow away the gray clouds hanging over my head.
Blow them away so that I can be able to see the sun shine.
Take all that gray away.
Take all those tears away.
Take all that hurt away.
Take all that pain away.
Take all that abuse away.
Take all those memories away.
But they just won't go no matter what I do.
But I still wish, the most, I were able to
Take all that gray away.
So that those different shades of gray don't cloud my life.
So that those things clouding my life can no longer intervene with me living my life.
Living my life being happy.
But will I be happy as I am now?
Living my life with my Dad.
But will he love me as much as he don't now?
Living my life without resenting my Mom.
But will I still love her like I do now?
Living my life without fist fighting my sister.
But would we have a relationship just like now?
Living my life without being deceived by those vicious so-called friends.
But would I choose my friends as wisely as I do now?
Living my life without this and that and that and this.
But would I be naïve?
Just so, I can live my life and be free.
Just so, I can live my life being me.
I wish all this, but if these wishes came true, would I still be me?
Not that sad me.
Not that mad me.
Not that me who thought about killing me.
But that me who thought about a world full of peace.
That me who thought about a world where not just me but everyone is loved.
That world where me could be loved just like he, she, us, we, and they could be.
That world where you and me could be the same.
Not so much the same in looks or brains.
I think you know what I mean.
When I say I want to be free.
I wrote this...I just thought about some things that happened in the past and I wanted to get some things out. I didn't change any of this but I will say that it has a lot of flaws once I read over it. But I won't change a thing because for me, this is total sincerity. It's from the heart and I hope you appreciate it.