A/N Hello fellow FF members and visitors alike, this is 9tailsfox2 with the first chapter of my third fic, Memories of the Past. This is another depressing fiction and I could not decide between rating it Mature or Teen, I decided to go with Mature just in case. Based this off a fic I cannot for the life of me remember the name of, but it was in a different language (Google Chrome is good for that :P) and I decided to write my own version. Italics means thought and is the note... you will understand when you read it.

Disclaimer: I have to do one of these for every single story I write just in case... Kishi owns Naruto and its characters

WARNING: Tearjerker. (Yup another one, jeez, at this rate, I'm really making you go through tissue paper like paper XD

There are very few things that happen to people that is not the fault to anyone at all. This is what I would call an accident. By that definition, 99.9% of car collisions are not accident. Even when something breaks in the car, it was the owner's fault in not maintaining the car. The only excuse to call a collision an accident is that the cause is of a medical emergency, such as a sudden seizure while driving. Why am I talking about this? Well I lost a loved one recently in a car collision and it was certainly not pretty. Before I follow through on this though, I need to meet up with the man responsible face to face, just to see what I would do. After that meeting I will be joining her.

For those of you who want to hear out my story please continue reading, but by the time you are done, I will be already gone by my own hand. But before you jump up and become the hero, I will just say one thing. This note will probably be gone as I have requested it to be destroyed by a very close friend as soon as the deed is done, you will be unable to hear my side of the story and my reasons.

In this story I write, I will pour my heart and soul into this, all my darkest secrets shall be revealed including my thoughts in certain situations. As such, if you do read my story, you will gain not only another insight on life, but also an appreciation for not only yours, but your loved ones as well. My story will include things from what I do as a living, to a secret forbidden and double taboo love, and you will soon learn why it was double taboo. If you do choose to try to save me, then go to the corner of Shuriken Avenue and Shinobi Street, where it happened. There, you shall find me in my final moments and if you go now, you might be able to make it in time as I'm probably heading there right now, but you will have to be fast. So, what are going to choose now?

Are you still here? Well then you have made your choice. Please do not let this story and its lessons waste away and take them with you in earnest. This is my story.

Naruto looked around at the crowd of middle schoolers to spot the one he was picking up. "Naruto!"

Naruto turned towards the voice and smiled as he saw her. "Hey Hanabi, how are you doing?"

Hanabi smiled. "Great, now that you're here."

Naruto then go into his car, and Hanabi jumped into the passenger seat. "Cool." Naruto then took out a present and gave it to Hanabi. "Happy 12th birthday Hanabi."

Hanabi smiled and opened it and it revealed a necklace. The necklace gleamed in the sunlight as the small crystals attached to each chain link captured it. The main piece was an intricate sphere with waving through each other and wrapping around a lilac colored crystal, which produced the prettiest of colors when caught in the light. Hanabi's jaw dropped when she saw what the necklace was. "Naruto, isn't this?"

Naruto smiled "Yup, that was the necklace you were looking at, I believe it was called the lilac crystal.

Hanabi shook her head. "How much was this again? 3000 dollars?"

Naruto shrugged. "I had some money in the bank I did not need."

Hanabi then launched herself across the seats and kissed Naruto, who held Hanabi close tightly during that kiss. After they needed air they separated and Hanabi's eyes glimmered with love and joy. "Thank you Naruto, I love you so much. Although, it will be tough to beat that present on you next birthday, I wonder what I should get for my boyfriend for his 18th birthday."

Naruto smiled as he held Hanabi to him. "I love you too Hanabi, and no problem." Naruto smirked. "As for my 18th birthday present, I already have all I want, you."

Hanabi smiled as they kissed again. "You're so sweet Naruto, but I do have to think of something to get you, something big…"

Naruto placed Hanabi back in her seat, much to her disappointment. "You'll figure it out, but we need to get home, dinner was cooking when I left and you don't want it cold when we get back don't you?"

Hanabi looked down at her stomach as it growled. "Alright."

Naruto laughed at that. "Alright buckle in, we're going."

Hanabi quickly buckled herself in as the car drove off. The ride was mostly uneventful until Hanabi started fidgeting. "Naruto, I have a feeling something bad will happen."

Naruto stopped at the red light and looked at Hanabi. "It's ok; nothing bad is going to happen while I'm around."

Hanabi shook her head. "You know how I have a sixth sense for these things. Like about a year ago when we were at that zoo and I had the same feeling and a tiger escaped."

Naruto shook his head at the memory. It was one of his scariest moments in life as the lion headed straight towards Hanabi, fortunately, the zoo keepers shot it with tranquilizer before he got to her, or otherwise he would have been the lion's next dinner as he was protecting her with his body. "Well I'll be on the lookout for any potential disasters."

Hanabi nodded, but wasn't convinced that would be enough to stop what she would feel is that this would be the last time she would see Naruto. Hanabi tightly held Naruto's leg as he slowly drove out from the green light, seeing that there was nobody coming, he sped up and all of a sudden several cars skidded out one of the side streets on his right side and raced through the intersection that Naruto was driving through. Hanabi's eyes widened in fear. "Naruto!"

Naruto tried to speed out the way in time and grabbed Hanabi out of the seat and held tightly onto her, unfortunately he did not grab her in time as one of the cars slammed into the front passenger door and from there all Naruto knew was that the car was flipping and flying somewhere and it felt like forever as he tried to grab Hanabi, so she would not get damaged as much but the crash was too violent to control his own limbs.

The car finally stopped to a halt upside down and Naruto slid out of his seat belt and called out Hanabi's name. "Hanabi. A-are y-you ok?"

Hanabi moaned as she was in intense pain and crawled over to Naruto, who held her and they kissed. Hanabi began crying, "Na-Naruto, I'm so-sorry."

Naruto shook his head. "What are you talking about, the ambulance will be here in no time and we will be fine and alive."

Hanabi sadly smiled. "Naruto, I love you so much, you can keep the necklace."

Naruto began tearing up as well. "I love you too Hanabi, but the necklace was a gift!"

Hanabi felt herself slip away. "How can I keep a necklace if I'm dead?"

Naruto's heart started tightening up. "Stop saying that! You will survive!"

Hanabi stroked the sun-kissed tan cheek of Naruto and kissed him. "I love you Naruto."

Naruto held Hanabi. "I love you too Hanabi and you will survive."

With that, Naruto got light headed and fainted and in the fading light, Naruto saw that Hanabi put her necklace on him and was fainting as well.

Naruto heard a beep echo within the darkness. What the hell happened? Oh yeah… the crash. Another beep sounded in the air. Ok I'm probably in the hospital if I'm correct that is a heart monitor. Beep. I sure hope Hanabi is ok. Beep. I should probably try to open my eyes now. With effort that is what Naruto did.

Hinata was crying. As soon as her father got the call from the hospital, he got Neji and Hinata into the car immediately. When Hinata asked why, Hiashi could only say that Hanabi and Naruto got into an accident.

Hinata asked if they were ok. Hiashi was silent on the matter which made her heart drop. When they arrived, it was then that she heard the news. Hinata immediately rushed into Naruto's room and she noticed the necklace around Naruto's neck, she was going to ask him about that after Naruto wakes up.

Hinata looked up and saw her crush's eye open up slowly and called everyone. "Guys! Naruto is waking up!"

Naruto groaned in pain. "Ugh, I can barely move."

Tsunade, the hospital head walked into the room. "Stay down Naruto, we don't need you hurting yourself."

Naruto groaned. "Where's Hanabi?"

The entire room was silent and the temperature dropped instantly. Hinata's voice faltered. "Y-You sh-should li-listen to Tsu-Tsunade, y-you re-really n-need to r-rest Na-Naruto."

Naruto shook his head. "Where is Hanabi, I want to see her now."

Hiashi's head lowered as Neji's turned away. Hinata tried desperately to fight her tears away and was successful… barely. Tsunade grit her teeth. Naruto did not notice any of this as he needed to see Hanabi right now. Tsunade was about to open her mouth but Hinata spoke up first. "I'll t-tell him."

Naruto was confused "Tell me what? What is happening? Where is Hanabi!"

Everyone began tearing up at that. Hinata sadly sighed and put a hand on his shoulder and put her face right up to his face. "Naruto, Hanabi is… Hanabi is…"

Naruto's heart tightened at the look in her eyes. "Hinata, tell me where is Hanabi."

Hinata swallowed past the lump in her throat. "Hanabi is dead. She died bleeding out in the crash." Hinata could not hold back any more as she cried out as did everyone else.

From that very statement, Naruto's heart was crushed, not crushed, disintegrated and was torn apart at the atomic level as the world around him went deaf. "She's what?" Naruto's tears began falling. "Please tell me that this is some cruel joke."

At this point, no one knew that Naruto and Hanabi were secretly a couple, all they knew that the two formed a tight bond as Naruto tutored Hanabi, so they had no idea of how much the news would crush Naruto. Hiashi, try as he might to fight them, had tears of his own falling. "I'll take my leave, Neji, Hinata come, let Naruto be and grieve."

Hinata eyes widened. "B-But what if he needs a shoulder to cry on."

Naruto blankly stared at Hinata. "Leave. Now… Well? What are you waiting for? Leave! GET THE FUCK OUT THIS ROOM!"

Hinata's heart tightened as she was the last one to leave. "I'm sorry Naruto…" With that she shut the door behind her.

Naruto then curled up into fetal position and let the tears fall. "My heart, it hurts so badly. Hanabi, why did you have to die?"

Naruto wrapped the blanket around him as he stared at the necklace, which miraculously survived the accident; he got Hanabi for her birthday. Tears fell onto the Lilac Crystal as Naruto clutched it to his heart. "Oh Kami, why did you do this to me? Why did you take her away from me?" With every beat of his heart, he felt a thousand ice cold spikes pierce it. The lump in Naruto's throat was so big; it was difficult from him to take a breath in without instantly sobbing really hard.

When Naruto closed his eyes he began seeing images of Hanabi flash before his eyes. Her smiling face lit his world so much, but now it only makes it that much worse. Naruto cried harder than before as he saw her lilac colored eyes, staring at him with love and happiness. "I love her so much, it hurts. Hanab-a-a-abi-i-i-i-i-i! I'm so sor-r-r-r-r-ry I cou-couldn't pro-pro-pro-protect y-y-you!"

Hinata stared through the window in sadness as she watched her crush suffer from the loss of one of few friends he had. Neji put a hand on Hinata's shoulder. "I think you should leave him be Hanabi was the only one who hung out with him on a constant basis."

Hinata lowered her head. "Of course, he was not only her tutor, but her only friend. Because of you and you rep, she got targeted by all the kids."

Neji shook his head. "I'm a changed man now, Naruto saw to that. Still, we should leave now; your father is waiting for us."

Hinata looked up. "Yeah…"

With that, the two cousins left.

It was hours before Naruto could fall asleep and when he did, his nightmares were terrible. Over and over again, he would hear Hanabi's beautiful laugh, see her smiling face and beautiful eyes, smell her natural Lilac scent, feel her soft face as he tasted her lips and all of a sudden it would all turn into hearing painful cries of the worst kind, cries he could not hear when the crash happened because he was not all there yet, he saw twisted metal and her mutilated body. The smell of her blood would fill the air as he felt pain like never before. He has never tasted blood in such quantities before, as most he got was a busted lip from a fight but now, half his bones were broken and he was sure blood was dripping down in his mouth. The nightmare would then start again. Occasionally a happy memory would appear to taunt him and straight back into the nightmare he goes.

In his sleep, Naruto clutched his head as everything flashed white.

I'm sorry to stop so soon, but writing this made my chest hurt a lot, I really need to take a walk. I cannot promise that the next part of the story will be longer, but I shall point a few things out first. As you notice, I'm writing my story in third person and as you can guess, I am indeed Naruto and my girlfriend is Hanabi. Yes, I am a 17 year old dating a 12 year old, well, now 12. But how long has this relationship been going on? Or how it even happened in the first place? Well you will find out later. The age is the first part of the taboo, but the second taboo is that I am her teacher, yeah a student-teacher relationship… How original.

The reason why I am not referring our relationship as past but as present is because I know she is waiting up there for me. Despite what you may think of me being attracted to a 12 year old, the fact remains that I do love her with all my heart and will do anything to protect her from harm, which I had obviously failed at. Excuse me while I take a breather from this as it is very difficult for me to write about my loss.

A/N Really depressing fic this is going to be, but great chapter! Like I said up there, I had trouble deciding between M and T, I chose M because of the description of the nightmare and as a just in case. Please can someone tell me which I should rate this story as. I do not know how many chapters this thing will be but I hope you like this fic. Like always R&R and this is 9tailsfox2 signing off!