A/N Hello fellow FF members and visitors alike, this is 9tailsfox2 with Chapter 3 to Memories of the Past! In this chapter, we see more of current Naruto's personality and a particular emotional moment between Naruto and Hanabi.

Warning: Feels Chapter

Seven years, seven long fucking years, and I still hurt. Naruto was lost in his thoughts as he woke up from his restless sleep. His nightmares were getting worse, each time he had a nightmare, it was Hanabi dying in the most painful way, anyone could think of. He hated himself for still dreaming like that. He wanted nothing more than to pull the knife across his throat. That rat ass bastard barely got scratched and he was about to get out of jail.

By the time the trial came up, Naruto has openly vowed to destroy the life of the person who took away Hanabi's, therefore, Naruto was unable to physically approach him, but now, with him getting out of jail, there would be no stopping Naruto from performing his task.

If Naruto were truthful, he had fallen again, for Hinata but Naruto could not get himself to confess to her, not only because he was going to leave her very soon, he still had feelings for Hanabi and he could do it in good conscious as he probably would be using Hinata as a replacement, but at the same time, he knew he wouldn't be but the feelings would not be as strong.

Naruto frustrated himself just for thinking about so got up and made himself some breakfast and turned on the TV, and on came the news. I hate the fucking news! Always the same shit! Murders, home invasions, and look at that, children were raped. Naruto completely ignored the news because it was always depressing. The news included, but limited to, corrupt cops, racism, fucking extremists resorting to violence even though they proclaim peace is their aim, religion wars, rapes and he especially hated it and himself for even listening to the news let alone watching it if the victims were children and they would show photos of their current condition. It made his stomach turn that their privacy was invaded.

They probably want nothing more than to be left alone. The media only focuses on the negative side of humanity; they never show the person who goes drives all the way to a gas station and getting enough gas for a person stuck in the middle of the highway.

Naruto was about to change the channel when the news piece he least wanted to see was coming on, the man who made his life miserable, the man who killed Hanabi was going to be released in a few days, and side by side, Hanabi's pictures and the fucking bastard's photos were being put side by side, seeing this only pissed him off more. "WHY IS HE GETTING ALL THE ATTENTION!? WHY IS HANABI'S PICTURE RIGHT NEXT TO THAT SCUMBAG'S PICTURE! FUCK THE WORLD!" Out of all the child killers, this one got the media's attention. Out of rage, Naruto threw the remote at the TV, only to be caught by Hiashi, who turned off the TV.

Hiashi sadly sighed as he sat right next to Naruto, who started crying. "That bastard is going to walk out of there and there is nothing I can do about it."

Hiashi could only look at the once happy child reduced to outbursts of uncontrollable anger and crying. "Listen, Naruto, Hanabi would not want you to live like this, what do you think she would want you to do?"

Naruto could only shake his head as he remembered his spiritual meeting with Hanabi. "Smile and be happy…"

Hiashi nodded as he held Naruto. "Now can I see a smile?"

Naruto shook his head. "I can't after all these years, I forgot how to smile."

Hiashi sighed. "You will smile one day, I know it."

Naruto nodded. "I'm going to my room can you make sure no one disturbs me until I come out?"

Hiashi thought for a moment and, "Yeah, you can go."

Naruto nodded and slowly walked up to his room, shut and locked the door. Naruto took a deep breath as he began writing again.

I've just had an episode of anger and sadness. I hate it when it happens and the trigger to these episodes is when someone talks about him, the bastard who killed Hanabi or if someone brings her up when I don't want to talk about it. He does not deserve to have his picture right next to hers, and who even gave them permission to use pictures, how did they even get the pictures! Fuck this; I'm going to vent some stress!

Naruto cried out in frustration as he put away the note, unable to continue and was really restraining himself from breaking something. Naruto opened the window to his room and slipped outside as he began punching and kicking a thin tree repeatedly. He went through hundreds of pushups, crunches, and yet nothing worked. He wanted to drive himself to exhaustion, wanted to drive him to the point where he couldn't be angry anymore.

"Naruto, please stop that."

Naruto turned around and saw Hitomi. "I'm sorry mother, but when I turned on the TV, the news came on. That is all they are talking about. How the fuck did they get their hands on her pictures!" Naruto punched the tree hard enough to put a crack in it. "I hate this fucking world! I fucking hate that shit head is getting more attention than her! I hate that they are showing her condition right after the accident! I FUCKING HATE THEM ALL! I HATE IT! I HATE IT! I HATE IT! IHATEITIHATEITIHATEITIHATEIT! JUST FUCKING DIE!" As Naruto got angrier with each statement and just punched and kicked harder and faster until with the last statement, Naruto actually broke the tree with a punch. (The tree was small and thin, but still a tree, do you know how hard that is to do?)

Naruto couldn't help but collapse and cry into Hitomi's arms. Hitomi stroked Naruto's back as he cried. "Shhh, don't cry Naruto, Hanabi would not want that."

Naruto grind his teeth. "I'm sorry but I can't help it. I hate it when I feel like this; it just makes me even more pissed. I know she wants me to move on, but I can't let go. For some reason, I'm not ready to."

Hitomi sat down as Naruto cried in her lap. "Its ok sweetie, trust me, you will let go when you are ready." Hitomi really hated seeing Naruto like this. There would be days where he would be completely functional as a human being and being sociable and even 'smiling' (she knew his smiles were fake) then there were days like these where he would get five or ten episodes of anger and crying within an hour.

Naruto nodded as he took a few breaths. "I'm fine now, mother. I really hate it when I feel like that. I really have no control over my actions and emotions when I'm like that. Honestly, I'm scared that I will do something I might regret."

Hitomi only smiled. "It's alright Naruto, I'm sure you will find a way to get better. Just believe in yourself. It doesn't matter what you do, I will always love you."

Naruto turned up his lips, it wasn't a smile, but it was a start, and hugged Hitomi. "Thanks mother, I love you too." Naruto broke contact and climbed back into his room. Hitomi shook her head at that and turned around to comfort Hinata. She knew Hinata had been standing there and she knew that Hinata becomes upset when Naruto has one of his episodes.

Naruto grumbled as he closed his window and picked up where he left off again. Now that he was calm, he would be able to continue.

Sorry about the absence, well you really wouldn't notice, but anyways, as I was saying, these episodes happen from time to time, there are days where I'm able to function, but then other days it happens so much, there is no middle ground for me, I go back and forth and what really scares me is that I might do something I might regret. For example, I repeated punched and kicked a rare tree planted in the garden so many times and so hard, I broke it. I'm sorry father for breaking that tree, but I literally have no control over my actions. I can hold back my actions for a few minutes, but at one point or another, I will lose control and it is best to stay away from me when I do.

Anyways, back to the story. I was explaining to mother how Hanabi and I fell in love.

The day started like no other as Naruto got into the backseat of the car with Hanabi, Neji, whose behavior improved ever since Naruto beat the crap out of him, took shotgun. As always Naruto looked at Hanabi, concerned. Ever since they met and became fast friends a year ago, they played together, while they were not studying or doing their chores. But, Naruto quickly noticed Hanabi's down behavior when going to school.

Naruto asked about it a couple of times, she responded as, "Well it's because I'm not going to see Naruto for the whole day." with a forced smile, he knew it was a forced smile because he was the master of putting on faces. Naruto knew that something else was going on and whenever he questioned further, Hanabi would blow it off. Naruto intended to ask her again later today, after all, what concerned friend wouldn't?

Hanabi sadly sighed as she got out of the car. "I guess I'll be seeing you Naruto…"

Naruto noticed she was a bit more down than usual, which shouldn't even be happening. Naruto had long expected bullies and even told Hiashi, what he considers now his father about it and he said the same thing, and despite confronting the children and the parents at the same time, on multiple occasions, they still persist.

Tonight Hanabi, I will find out what is going on. Even if it makes you hate me, I'm sorry, but I'm too concerned for your emotional and physical safety to let this go by any longer.

Later that night, after Naruto took his shower, which was right before Hanabi's shower Naruto sighed as he lowered his head to his hands. She is usually cheerful around me but tonight, she seemed out of it, like something really bad happened and it lasted all through dinner and during the tutoring session. I tried talking to her about it, but she didn't want to. Naruto's ears perked up as he heard Hanabi's door close. Naruto knew Hanabi got changed in the bathroom so he immediately got up and quietly opened his door and went to Hanabi's and put his ear to it.

What happens afterwards I do not wish to write or think about, but trust me the ones who were involved in hurting Hanabi were rightly punished but this is what ended up happening. (A/N Hanabi was just constantly bullied, she wasn't touched or raped, and Naruto just did not want to write down or think about how miserable Hanabi was.)

Hanabi grabbed Naruto's shirt as he was leaving and Hanabi closed her eyes as tears fell down her cheeks. "I-I wa-want you to sleep with me. I'm scared and still upset."

Naruto nodded understandingly. Naruto crawled into the same bed as his friend and held her close to him. "Hanabi, you do know that I love you right?"

Hanabi instantly got red. "L-Love? L-Love as in fa-family, how a br-brother lo-loves a sister?"

Naruto was confused by her reaction. "Why are you reacting like that?"

Hanabi shook her head. "Be-Because I-I h-have a cr-crush o-on you! I'm sorry too fast? Umm oh geez err uhhh umm."

Naruto did not know what to say he meant love as in plutonic like a brother would a sister, but it has only been a year. Yet it is a crush she did have on him. Naruto then began questioning himself how he really did feel about her. Did he have a crush on his first true friend? Naruto was really confused, but the more he looked as the face in the eyes of Hanabi, that yes, he did have feelings that more than family, but it wasn't love yet, a crush.

Then the question came should he develop the relationship? Or should he just leave the two of them as friends. Naruto shook his head as he slowly formed a decision it wasn't a question he should answer by himself. "H-Hey H-Hanabi, I-I think I might ha-have feelings f-for y-you too."

Hanabi's face lit up. "You do?"

Naruto nodded. "I was thinking, we can form a relationship, but then again I don't want to, because then I would feel like I would be taking advantage of you and plus there is the age difference."

Hanabi shook her head. "Naruto, I want to be your girlfriend and you my boyfriend and if you are really concerned on how people would view this relationship as, then we can keep it secret."

Naruto nodded. "Yeah, we should, but at this point, I think we should hold off on the kissing, until I would feel right about it."

Hanabi nodded her head. "Yeah, I don't have feelings that strong for you, I mean it's something but, not love."

Naruto smiled as he held Hanabi to him. "So is it in agreement? We are a couple?"

Hanabi smiled as she clung onto Naruto. "Yeah, we are. Tomorrow, you're going to tell daddy about the bullying aren't you?"

Naruto nodded. "Yeah I am."

Everything flashed to white as Naruto finished telling his mother what happened.

Hitomi thought for a moment and smiled. "Well I'm glad you thought through about how to go about the relationship."

Naruto sadly nodded. "It wasn't love at first sight or a kiss defining the relationship type of thing, but that is how it started."

Hitomi shook her head. "So, when and where was the first kiss?"

Naruto got red. "That is the one thing I'm not going to tell anybody!"

Hitomi shook her head. "Alright, fine I will not push any further. You know that I love you honey."

Naruto smirked. "I love you too mom."

With that the two hugged and Hitomi was called out as visiting time was over and was told Naruto had to rest. After saying their byes Hitomi left Naruto to sleep, who was already sleeping, and dreaming for once, after talking it out with his mother, his mind felt at ease for once.

Alright, sorry that was short but it was difficult to write it out. It is strange; this is probably the longest suicide note in history… ah well. Anyways, it is time for lunch and I am hungry.

Naruto hid the note in its usual place and got up and walked out and made a sandwich which included pepperoni, mortadella and salami. Naruto quickly ate it and decided to go for a jog. Jogging was the only way to vent aside from exploding from anger so after a nice long jog, Naruto returned home exhausted and went to his room to sleep. All of a sudden, a white flash appeared and once again, Naruto was in spirit form.

Naruto immediate recognized the scene as the one he just written about. He really did not want others to know what Hanabi was subjected to everyday and for that one thing, earlier that day.

Naruto decided to charge up his spiritual power now, just in case he needed to do something on a short notice.

Naruto knew Hanabi got changed in the bathroom so he quietly opened his door and out his ear to Hanabi's

Naruto heard Hanabi crying so he opened the door, walked in and closed the door behind him.

Hanabi was curled into fetal position and Naruto slowly walked up to her and put a hand on her back. "Hey Hanabi, what's wrong?"

Hanabi sniffled as she looked up. Naruto was the last person she wanted to see her like this, weak and defenseless. "Please leave. I don't want you to see me like this."

Naruto shook his head. "Listen, I know some kids are bothering you at school, want to talk about it?"

Hanabi looked up. "It's not just some kids, it's all of them. Despite how he has changed, he left a reputation in the school, and everyone hates me, including the younger ones. They call me names, and some of them even hit me." Hanabi took a cloth and wiped her face with it and showed it to Naruto.

Naruto got real angry at that, but kept it down, because Hanabi needed comfort. Naruto gently put his arms around Hanabi; Kami knows what else she is hiding. "It's ok Hanabi, I'm here for you now, and you can tell me anything."

Hanabi nodded as she crawled into Naruto's lap. "They call me names such as prick, douchebag, ugly, weak, thing, and beast, anything to bring me down."

Naruto stroked Hanabi's head as he quietly listened to her.

Hanabi took a breath and continued. "It started off as stares, I even tried making friends, but it got worse from there on. Yesterday someone hit me and then it was a beat down from there. Today was the worst I had to use make up to cover the bruises. It hurt so badly."

Naruto held Hanabi to him. "It's ok I'll go make sure father knows about this."

Hanabi shook her head. "No, please don't. I don't want him to see me as weak."

Naruto sighed. "Listen, ever since I first saw your face when you went to school, I've been worried about you, and yet, you brush it off like nothing was happening. Why didn't you tell me?"

Hanabi sniffled as she slowly stopped crying. "Because, I didn't want you to think me as weak."

Naruto stroke Hanabi's back and shivered at that. "Listen, I will never think of you as weak. You are a strong and beautiful girl and you do not deserve this kind of treatment."

Hanabi smiled. "Thank you Naruto."

Naruto smiled at her face. "Do you want me to leave you alone?"

Hanabi did not say anything. "Alright I guess I'll be leaving you alone then." With that, Naruto got up.

Hanabi grabbed Naruto's shirt as he was leaving and Hanabi closed her eyes as tears fell down her cheeks. "I-I wa-want you to sleep with me. I'm scared and still upset."

Naruto nodded understandingly. Naruto crawled into the same bed as his friend and held her close to him. "Hanabi, you do know that I love you right?"

Hanabi instantly got red. "L-Love? L-Love as in fa-family, how a br-brother lo-loves a sister?"

Naruto was confused by her reaction. "Why are you reacting like that?"

Hanabi shook her head. "Be-Because I-I h-have a cr-crush o-on you! I'm sorry too fast? Umm oh geez err uhhh umm."

Spirit Naruto watched the whole scene before him and then saw that his counterpart about to say something, without thinking about. Dang it, if he, I mean I… whatever! If I say something without thinking, I will regret it, and the relationship might not form. Ummm what did I think about? Oh yeah!

Naruto gathered his spiritual energy and concentrated in performing a Mental Interaction, thinking of everything he questioned himself with and pushed that energy onto his past self. "Mental Interaction!"

Naruto did this in time as his past self suddenly closed his mouth and began thinking about what he should say. With a sigh of relief, Naruto began seeing everything flash white around him and he woke up from his jogging nap and turned up his lips. Yes, I did it! I don't even know what I would have said without thinking, but whatever I was going to, I'm glad I didn't.

Naruto stared at the ceiling as his thoughts reeled through his mind. I really do hope I am successful. I still haven't thought of a way to stop the accident from happening and I have a feeling I do not have long before it becomes time to do so.

A/N Hmm I like this chapter a lot as we see more of how Naruto deals with the world in his current emotional state. If you have not yet, please check out Christmas Tragedy, a one-shot Christmas fic, not my best work, but it is good. Anyways, I don't have much more to say to this.

Like always R&R and this is 9tailsfox2 signing off!