Lustful Melody
Summary: Isabella Swan is just getting over Edward leaving her in that godforsaken forest, and Jacob Black won't leave her alone. What happens when Edward comes back on such short notice? What if he won't leave her alone still? Set four months later…
Disclaimer: I owe all credit to the one and only amazing Stephanie Meyer.
Chapter One: Remembering the song…
Isabella Swan sat in the dull town of Forks, where the skies are grey and cloudy. Where the townspeople with their ratted hair and patched smocks. She glanced at her red grumbling truck. Charlie bought it for her when she first moved into Forks from the desert of Arizona, from her mother Renee.
"Bella, time for dinner," Charlie called as he opened the screen door. Bella reluctantly got up and heard the sound of plates and silverware being set on the table. She sat in her normal place and noticed that four plated were set, she looked up at Charlie. He took a breath as if he knew what he question was.
"Billy and Jake are coming over for dinner; we old men would like to watch the game." He said as he ran his fingers through his hair.
"Dad, for the I don't know how many times I have said, you and Billy are not that old." Bella muttered sternly. Charlie laughed as a knock flew through the quiet house. Bella got up and crossed to the door. She opened it to see Jacob smiling from ear to ear; his dark hair in the usual ponytail. He pushed Billy through the door as they all sat down at the table. Charlie cooked tonight, and surprisingly the noodles in tomato sauce looked normal. He passed around the parmesan cheese as they each in turn sprinkled some on top of their meals. Then they each held hands in prayer,
"… Give us this day our daily bread. And forgive us of our sins, and forgive those who have sinned against us. Name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit, Amen." (Authors Note: I have no racism against religion; I'm just from a family that says that for Grace. I support all religions.) They all sat down to eat as they chit chatted.
"So Jacob how's school?" Charlie asked as he twirled his fork in the noodles.
"Good so far, how's it been going being Chief?" Jacob asked as he munched a piece of Garlic Bread.
"Just fine, thank you."
"Bella, could you pass the peas?" Jacob asked Bella as she took the pan in her hands. Jacob's and Bella's fingers connected and Bella immediately put her hand down. Jacob frowned and put his eyebrows together as he spooned some green peas onto his plate. Bella scooted her chair away from the table, signaling Charlie to ask, "Are you finished Bella?"
"Yes dad, I'm full." Bella said as she got up.
"But you barely ate." Jacob said as he looked at Bella, wishing that she'd sit down again.
"Oh, I had snacked midday." Bella said, covering up her actual situation. She rushed upstairs only to hear a chair squawk on the wood floor. She groaned and thought, Why the bloody hell won't he leave me alone. He knows I'm in a depressing time of my life, with the whole Edward situation. If he dares come upstairs, I'm seriously gonna smack him.
"Bella? Are you alright?" Jacob's voice called out to her.
Bella's Point of View –
Okay, I'm gonna smack him on his head, and maybe he'll go away and watch the game. He only wants to ask me out because his biggest competition left me in a god damned forest. He's younger than me, and he doesn't have what Edward does.
"Bells?" he asked as he sat next to me on my bead, scotching closer by the second.
"What?" I muttered as I inclined my head down.
"Can I ask you something?" he asked as he was literally sitting on me.
"What?" I repeated in the same dull tone. He gulped as he took a breath.
"Can you- no, will you go out with me?" he said as a silence swooped over us. The minutes inched away as we sat in silence.
"No." I said in a whisper.
"What?" Jacob asked incredulously.
"No." I said, slightly louder.
"Why not?" he asked. My temper got the best of me.
"No, no, no, no, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO!!" I said ending in a scream. He looked pissed as he got up.
"Fine, I'm going to watch the game." He said as he stormed off. I put on a record as I took in the lyrics.
Thumbing through the
pages of my fantasies
Pushing all the mercy down, down, down
I
wanna see you try to take a swing at me
Come on, gonna put you on
the ground, ground, ground
Why are you trying to make fun of
me?
You think it's funny?
What the fuck you think it's doing
to me?
You take your turn lashing out at me
I want you crying
with your dirty ass in front of me
All of my hate cannot be
found
I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming
So
you can try to tear me down
Beat me to the ground
I will see
you screaming
Thumbing through the pages of my fantasies
I'm
above you, smiling at you, drown, drown, drown
I wanna kill and
rape you the way you raped me
And I'll pull the trigger
And
you're down, down, down
Why are you trying to make fun of me?
You think it's funny?
What the fuck you think it's doing to
me?
You take your turn lashing out at me
I want you crying
with your dirty ass in front of me
All of my hate cannot be
found
I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming
So
you can try to tear me down
Beat me to the ground
I will see
you screaming
All my friends are gone, they died (gonna take
you down)
They all screamed, and cried (gonna take you down)
I've got my body, got my body back against the wall
I've
got my body, got my body back against the wall
Gonna take you down
repeat 2x
I've got my body, got
my body back against the wall
I've got my body, got my body back
against the...
All of my hate cannot be found
I will not
be drowned by your thoughtless scheming
So you can try to tear me
down
Beat me to the ground
I will see you screaming
All
of my hate cannot be found
I will not be drowned by your
thoughtless scheming
So you can try to tear me down
Beat me
to the ground
I will see you screaming…
The record continued as another song flew out of the speakers.
I'm tired of being
what you want me to be,
Feeling so faithless lost under the
surface
I Don't know what you are expecting of me
Put under the
pressure of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow just
caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake
to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the
undertow)
Chorus
I've become so numb I can't feel you
there
Become so tired so much more aware,
I'm becoming this all
I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
Can't
you see that you're smothering me
Holding too tightly afraid to
lose control
Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has
fallen apart right in front of you ooooo
(Caught in the undertow
just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another
mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the
undertow)
And every second I waste is more than I can
take
Chorus
I've become so numb I can't feel you
there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all
I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
And I
know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like
me with someone disappointed in you
Chorus
I've become so
numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more
aware,
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me
and be less like you
Chorus
I've become so numb I can't
feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
I've
become so numb I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you
want me to be…
I stopped and stared outside, watch each rain droplet fall down and shatter like my heart on the concrete. My breath fogged the dirty window as I grasped the window pane. The tree outside my portal brushed against the window, as if wanting to come in and kill me, like Victoria. I've given up… I almost want to die. I almost want to jump of the cliffs down in La Push, and glide down in the darkness of the sea.
James was hunting me, I was his prey. He wanted my flesh, as if I was a delicacy. My blood pumped through my veins. I yawned as I fell asleep. I dreamed that I was in the baseball field again, and I was with Edward…. They were playing and I was watching.
I've
given up
I'm sick of feeling
Is there nothing you can say
Take
this all the way
I'm suffocating
Tell me what the fuck is
wrong
With me!!
I remembered James and his two little buddies. They looked at me with hunger as the "fight" began. Blood was going everywhere. Jasper was wrestling with James as Edward took his two friends alone. It was over one thing… me.
I don't know what to
take
Thought I was focused but I'm scared
I'm not prepared
I
hyperventilate
Looking for help somehow somewhere
And no one
cares
I'm my own worst enemy…
"BELLA! RUN!!" Dream Edward yelled. I shook my head as the fight still continued. Esme and Alice were dragging me by me arms. I tried to resist but they both of them were too strong. Jasper was knocked out as Carlisle and Edward took on three. Tears in our eyes, we got into the Jeep. Carlisle was pushed into a wooden pole, knocking him out cold. The three piled onto Edward who was giving it his all.
"EDWARD! PLEASE DON'T GO! EDWARD, EDWARD, EDWARD!!" Dream and Real life me were shouting. I woke up with sweat on my forehead as some shadow was on my window.
I screamed and mentally kicked myself for it because it was someone I hadn't seen in what felt like forever. I opened my window as the figure jumped in cat like, skillfully, as if they had done it before, which was true. Our lips connected as he said…
"You were saying, well, screaming my name…" in a velvet voice.