Title: Bent
Author: Aeon Cole
Rating: FRT
Warning: Slash, dark Horatio
Genre: Songfic
Fandon: CSI: Miami
Pairing: Horatio/Speed
Challenge: 50 Dark Fics
Prompt: #34 Broken
Word Count: 710
Disclaimer: All publicly recognizable characters, settings, etc. are the property of their respective owners. The original characters and plot are the property of the author. The author is in no way associated with the owners, creators, or producers of any media franchise. No copyright infringement is intended.
Author's Note: Set to the song Bent by Matchbox 20.
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The nightmare jarred him awake in the early hours of the morning. Horatio sat bolt upright in bed with tears in his eyes. He quickly jumped out of bed, grabbed his pants and stormed out of the room leaving Tim lying there staring after him. He stalked out the back door and onto the beach just as the sun was beginning to peek over the horizon.
Tim sat up in bed. They had only been together for a short while, a couple of weeks, and he was still learning. Horatio still had trouble opening up to him. He pulled on his pants and followed his lover out to the waters edge. Horatio sat in the sand with his head resting on his knees. He looked up at Tim, who could see that something was very wrong.
If I fall along the way
Pick me up and dust me off
And if I get too tired to make it
Be my breath so I can walk
Tim stared down at him not entirely sure what to say. He had come to know Horatio over the years as strong leader, a strong man. Since they had become lovers, he had come to know another Horatio. This Horatio needed a lot.
If I need some other love
Give me more than I can stand
And when my smile gets old and faded
Wait around I'll smile again
Tim wanted to be able to help him. He was hopelessly in love with the redhead. He sat down next to Horatio, close enough that their sides were touching.
Shouldn't be so complicated
Just hold me and then
Just hold me again
He pulled Horatio into his arms and held on tight.
Can you help me I'm bent
I'm so scared that I'll never
Get put back together
Horatio knew that he trusted Tim with his life. He had for years. But he was having trouble trusting him with his heart. He hadn't trusted many that way and he'd been damaged on each and every occasion. They both knew it would take time.
You're breaking me in
And this is how we will end
With you and me bent
He wondered if it wouldn't be better to just leave now. He wondered how it would affect their working relationship if he decided to just go, so as not to damage Tim the way he had been damaged. He wondered about a lot of things.
If I couldn't sleep could you sleep
Could you paint me better off
Could you sympathize with my needs
I know you think I need a lot
He had lived many more years than his young lover. Tim had many more years ahead of him and deserved better than to be stuck with damaged goods like this.
I started out clean but I'm jaded
Just phoning it in
Just breaking the skin
He looked into Tim's dark, brown eyes almost pleading with him to understand, hoping beyond hope he wouldn't scare him off like he'd done so many others.
Can you help me I'm bent
I'm so scared that I'll never
Get put back together
You're breaking me in
And this is how we will end
With you and me bent
Tim's eyes spoke volumes to him. He could see the love. He could see the understanding. He could see the determination.
Start bending me
It's never enough
I feel all your pieces
Start bending me
Keep bending me until I'm completely broken in
He could see Tim's determination to stick this out and on the one hand it made him feel good to know that he wasn't scared off but on the other it broke his heart because he knew the young man would not be the same ever again. He rested his head on his lover's shoulder and let his tears fall.
Shouldn't be so complicated
Just touch me and then
Just touch me again
Tim held on and allowed Horatio to empty himself of everything with the understanding that things would never be the same again.
Can you help me I'm bent
I'm so scared that I'll never
Get put back together
You're breaking me in
And this is how we will end
With you and me bent
Fin