"I cant see him!" Alice cried. "I cant see what he's going to do. Its like I cant see because he isn't making a decision. Like he's not thinking about it at all."
Her eyes were wide. "He blocked us all out of his mind. He's lost it!" Alice began babbling incoherently to herself, pacing back and forth.
"The last thing he had decided was to run forever and now he doesn't have that decision made anymore. It like he remembers nothing. He might as well not exist!" Esme, Carlisle, Emmett, Jasper, and Rosalie all stared at her.
Carlisle bowed his head. "It's possible that his mind, so close to that of an average, fragile, humans mind, has created a protective barrier of sorts. So that he would no longer be reminded of what he has done wrong. He blocked everything…everything…" Carlisle muttered to himself more than the rest of them, repeating what Alice had said several times in the ensuing silence.
Esme's face showed the utmost remorse and sorrow for her son. Emmett glared at the floor. "Why?" he barked out unusually harsh.
Jasper gestured toward Bella's lifeless body on the couch when everyone turned to him. "She broke his heart." He explained, his voice cracking as though it was his own heart that had been broken.
"How?" growled Emmett, pacing ferociously. Everyone turned to Alice. If anyone knew why this had happened it would be her.
"Bella…she…and Jacob…they kissed. Edward saw that that memory was her last thought." Alice muttered all this toward the floor.
Rosalie, of everyone in the room, had the most shame rolling over her. "When?" Emmett asked, no longer pacing.
"This is none of our business!" Esme spoke with authority. "Bella may go what she wishes with who she wishes, especially what the enquirers are the ones who left her in the first place."
"You were supposed to watch her!" screamed Alice sobbing.
"I did!" No harm came to her while I watched over her. I will not keep her from someone or something who kept her so happy when we left her! When we broke her very soul!" Esme had lost her cool doing this straining not to yell right back at her daughter, but Emmett's retort severed Esme's fragile restraint.
"You let her ride a motorcycle! You let her jump off of a cliff!" Emmett was growling angrily again.
"And I saved her both times! I led Jacob to her, told him how to take care of her!" Esme yelled, throwing restraint all to hell. "I would not let anything happen to any of my daughters!"
Composing themselves, they turned to Alice. "Keep an eye on Edward let us know if anything changes. Jasper you're coming with me. His trail is already getting cold, lets find him. Carlisle, we can find him, but I have no idea what to say, and I need your help with this. Esme, Rosalie, stay with Alice and get things ready. He may have forgotten control. We could be dealing with a newborn state of mind."
Emmett spoke quickly, shedding un-necessary articles of clothing so he was standing in only his boxers.
"I wonder…" muttered Carlisle. Everyone paused to look at him. "Maybe he's forgotten hunger…" Absolute silence and stillness took over as they thought about what this would mean for their race, their carefully built, desperately fragile world. A flurry of movement and Carlisle, Emmett, and Jasper were all standing in boxers, briefs and shorts. A gust of wind later…they were gone.
Oh my god I'm so sorry for not updating! So…next chapter: I'm putting it up to a vote.
1) A quick paragraph now, or
2) A wait and a full chapter later.
Plus I'm still not sure how Bella died. I'm considering putting that up to vote too. So.
P.S. I'm thinking either Edward or Jasper, and totally on accident…
Feedback please!!!