Chapter 2

Confession

Legal Blah: I don't own bleach, but I wish I did (sob).

Rating Blah: M *for yoai, sex, swearing, violence, and all that good stuff

Authors note blah: this is chapter 2: confession. There is yoai and sex in this. If you don't enjoy guyxguy action I insist you read elsewhere. If you don't and flame me, my fraccion will come after you. You have been warned!!!! Please review.

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He had withdrawn into a depression, and he knew it. Ichigo Kurosaki was nothing like the man he had been three months ago. His eyes had lost their fire, his hair seemed to dull. When he battled it was never with much spirit. Hichigo and Zangetsu had ceased arguing with their master and had instead found shelter in the now continual downpour that was Ichigo's mind.

Rukia had watched his progress downhill as she searched in vain for the answer to it. She tried talking to him, threatening him, and in a last ditched effort searched his room for drugs. She hated seeing him like this; never talking, never smiling, not even scowling.

Finally one day she cornered him.

"What is going on Ichigo?" she asked angrily, "I've had enough of this moping. You never talk anymore less spoken too. You hardly eat. What's happened to you? Are you really so selfish?"

"Selfish!?" yelled Ichigo, his blood starting to rise. "How am I being selfish?"

"Did you really think you being depressed wasn't going to effect anyone? I'm your friend Ichigo. I care about you, and it hurts me to see you like this. Orihime, Uryu, Chad, and Renji. We all miss the old Ichigo."

"Renji?" asked Ichigo, the name cutting through his heart. He was making Renji suffer?

"Yes. Renji's been in Soul Society begging Nii-sama to let him come back because he's worried about you. He thinks you might attempt suicide." At this Rukia threw herself at Ichigo, hugging his chest. "I want my friend back Ichigo." Ichigo felt Rukia's hot tears dampen his shirt where her head rest.

He felt so awful, so guilty. How on earth had he let it slip so far to make Renji think that he might kill himself? He patted Rukia's head comfortingly. The raven haired girl had done everything for him. And how had he repaid her?

"Rukia," Ichigo finally said. The girl in his arms looked up at him, eyes puffy.

"I think its time I tell you what's wrong." He told Rukia everything, the longing, the love, the worry, and even the dreams, laying out his entire heart. When he finished Rukia was sitting on the floor of his bedroom, contemplating.

"Well, I don't want to say Renji will reject you because I honestly don't know. Renji is very proud and hates showing his feelings even if their love," said Rukia. "I think the only way your going to get through this is if you tell him."

"But what if he doesn't…" Ichigo couldn't bring himself to say it. 'What if he doesn't love me?'

Rukia looked at the troubled teen. "I don't know," she replied.

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Rukia had told Renji that he was the only one that could help Ichigo. That was it. So when Renji arrived at Ichigo's late one night, alone, it didn't surprise the shinigami substitute. His friend watched him with worried eyes as he studied the younger boy's face. His vibrant youth overshadowed by some darkness.

"Rukia told me you needed to see me about something," said Renji settling himself on the bed across from Ichigo. The teen wiped the sleep from his eyes. The butterflies had renewed their dancing at the pit of his gut, and his heart beat painfully in his chest.

"Renji…I…" He couldn't say it, even with Renji sitting there waiting for him. He decided to start differently.

"You know I'm gay. I don't know why its just part of who I am. I've liked men for a long time. But I've never felt love for another man, just like. Of the few boyfriends I've had, I've always known it wasn't going anywhere. But with you it's different. I can't stop thinking about you. Whenever I see you my heart aches because I don't know if you'll love me back. Because I know if you don't that it'll hurt twice as much. Because I…love you." He said it. Oh god he'd said it. Hesitantly he looked into Renji's face, expecting to see shock or disgust. Renji's eyes were warm with a small gentle smile below them. He reached over and pulled the orange haired teen to him, gently planting a kiss on his warm lips.

Ichigo felt like his whole being was going to explode. He loved him. He had never felt so whole. Renji's body felt like a fire next to his, the heat transferring through their connected lips. He kissed back, the longing for Renji like a drug. Their lips parted naturally, tongues intertwining in a lustful dance. Finally, they broke apart gasping for air.

"Renji…I…" He couldn't think.

"Ichigo I'm sorry. I've always loved you too, but I was scared. I was so terrified when you started getting depressed that if I'd known it was because of me…"

"I'm sorry too," said Ichigo.

They kissed again falling onto the bed. Ichigo felt Renji's cool hands slid up his shirt, slowly pulling it off to expose the man's rippling abs. Ichigo let out a moan which was all the encouragement Renji needed. He broke the kiss to trail a line of nips and hickies down Ichigo's neck. The orange haired boy moaned in response, his arousal brushing against Renji's.

"Damn clothing," Ichigo growled ripping off Renji's robe and tossing it off the bed. He blushed when he discovered soul reapers hadn't heard of underwear before. His blush only deepened when he also found out Renji had a tattoo on his enormous cock.

"You said you and that friend had identical tattoos?" commented Ichigo. Renji followed Ichigo's gaze and grinned wolfishly. The man grabbed the top of Ichigo's boxers and slowly pulled them off to expose Ichigo's arousal. The boxers joined the robe and shirt on the floor.

Renji began to kiss around Ichigo's cock, massaging the inside of his thighs. Ichigo bit back a moan when Renji teasingly licked off the precum only to continue his kissing.

"Stop teasing me," snarled Ichigo to his soon to be lover. Renji only smiled in response, before slowly taking him in. The teen let out a gasp as the hot wet tongue moved all the way up and down his shaft. Oh god it felt so good, and it was only made better by the person doing it. He cupped his balls, as Ichigo's breathing turned to a pant. His muscles tightened.

"Renji…Renji…I'm…gonna." He tried to hold it back, wanting it to last longer, but he let go. Renji swallowed, meeting Ichigo's gaze as he did so.

"It's so hott when you moan my name," said the tattooed man, moving up to kiss Ichigo. The young boy smiled, tracing the tattoos on his new found lover.

"Renji I need you," he whispered.

"I'm right here," he whispered back. Ichigo reached over, fumbling for a moment with his bed stand drawer. Finally managing to open it, he rummaged around inside.

"What are you…" asked Renji, and Ichigo presented a small bottle of lube. The older man took it from him and slathered it over his fingers and length. Then gently he probed into Ichigo, who shivered from the slight pain and cold lube. After a moment he added one then another finger, feeling around for the Ichigo's sweet spot. He knew he'd found it when the orange haired man beneath him cried out. The pleasure was better than what his dreams manifested.

He felt Renji withdraw and place his cock against his opening.

"You ready?" And Ichigo nodded bracing himself for the pain. Renji pushed in slowly making Ichigo's eyes water. Renji licked up the tears and kissed him. He waited before pulling out and ramming back in making his lover gasp. It was a few more times before he hit the prostate, Ichigo moaned. Renji positioned himself to hit it every time. Their bodies moving together were like a dance of passion and love. It felt so good to be satisfying their insatiable need.

"Ren cover my mouth. I….think I might scream," said Ichigo between pants. Renji complied as he continued his thrusting. He couldn't take much more. The burning pressure inside his was threatening to explode any minute. Ichigo let out a scream as he came all over their stomachs. Renji followed soon after, and the two men lay breathless.

"I feel so happy," said Ichigo as Renji pulled him close.

"Me too. I love you Ichi," said Renji burying his head into orange spikes. Ichigos heart beat warmly as the two drifted asleep.