A Sirius Perception

Sirius was in the middle of talking to one pretty Hufflepuff into a date on Saturday night when his name was called over the intercom. He sighed dramatically in the girls' direction and then grinned when she giggled. He swept his ebony black hair out of his face, his piercing blue eyes a captivation that she couldn't handle. Her knee's almost buckled.

Sirius lifted her chin so that he could look into her eyes; "I'll see you later, Madeline" he kissed her forehead and walked away with his hands in his pockets.

As he walked back inside the castle, he saw a brown hair seventh year across the stone sidewalk. He frowned, he looked moody. The teenagers chocolate brown hair swayed in the wind, though it was just passed his chin, it was naturally straight. His brown eyes were clouded in anger and his hands were clenched into fists, his knuckles white as snow.

Sirius ran up to one of his best mates, "Moony!" he called, "What's wrong?" though he could be obscenely crude, Sirius was often a very caring individual with the ones he loved and cared about.

Remus turned towards him the ferocity of a starving tiger, "Go find out Sirius. Now" the man never talked to Sirius like this unless it was the night of the full moon, and Sirius was positive it wasn't. He had it marked on his calendar as Furry Problem Night.

Sirius frowned, "Mate-"

"Sirius please, before I explode. Go to Dumbledore. I can't tell you what's happened. GO!" Remus yelled finally.

Sirius gave him a whoa aren't you a grouchy arse today look and stalked off up the steps taking two at a time.

When he reached Dumbledore's office he just walked right in, not waiting for the gargoyle to say enter. Sirius has been in there enough to know the gargoyle isn't even a guy; it's a girl with a permanent cold.

He jogged up the moving staircase and through the wrought iron door and took a seat in front of Dumbledore's desk he smiled at large red bird, "Hello Fawkes" he stood and walked over to the bird to stroke it's head. The bird gave small chirp and inclined his head towards Sirius' hand.

"Mister Black you've always been so fond of my Fawkes" came the voice of Albus Dumbledore.

"Who wouldn't be?" Sirius replied, "He's an amazing creature, Dumbledore"

Albus nodded, "Yes. Sirius, do you care to take a seat? I have some important matters to discuss with you"

Sirius nodded, "Oh!" He said as he jumped into the seat, "Alby have you seen James? I've been looking for him since lunch."

Albus smiled at Sirius' pet name, "I have, actually this talk is about him."

Sirius' smile faltered, "Why? What's wrong? Did he get into mischief without me? It better have been good."

Albus laughed, "Nothing's wrong and he's in some…mischief I guess you would say."

Sirius frowned, "But we're into mischief together" it was almost a whine.

"Sirius, I've sent James on a six month sabbatical for me" Albus started. Sirius doesn't like to beat around the bush, or be the prospect of bull shit, "He's going to be in areas of extreme danger, so he won't be able to be reached. Sirius, he might not come back if he get's caught"

Sirius stood and slammed his first on to Dumbledore's desk, "YOU ASKED HIM WITHOUT US PRESENT?" he roared, "OF COURSE HE WOULD DO THAT!"

Albus sighed, "Mister Black-"

"YEAH, NOW IT'S MISTER BLACK!" Sirius continued, "YOU PLAYED TO HIS WEAKNESS PROFESOR!"

"Sirius, he wanted to do this."

"WHERE IS HE?"

"He's already left. He said that if he had to say goodbye himself he wouldn't be able to leave" Albus said softly, "I quite understand."

"DAMN RIGHT HE WOULDN'T!" He was so uncontrollably angry that he kicked the 100 pound chair across the office, slamming it into one of his crystal ball shelves.

"HE'S TOO CHICKEN TO SAY GOODBYE TO HIS MATES!" he continued, "AND HIS GIRL? What the fuck is his problem? I COULD HAVE GONE WITH HIM! Why in the FUCK would he leave without me? I'm his right hand man! Who in the hell do you think YOU ARE to tell him to go at this alone? WHAT ARE YOU PLAYING AT?" Sirius pounded Albus with questions and Albus took this in silence as he quietly fixed everything Sirius broke with his wand. He looked as if none of this fazed him.

"AREN'T YOU GOING TO EXPLAIN YOURSELF? Talk about what a rubbish idea this was and bring him back? HE MIGHT DIE! HE CAN'T DIE!"

Sirius' ranting when on to the point that Albus asked him to leave. Albus knew that there was no consoling someone so emotionally upset as Sirius that he just needed to be excused. He hoped that the anyone who should get in his way would be quick to run for their lives. Sirius had patience for no one when he was this angry.

Albus sighed and didn't bother to tell him not to tell his mates, he would go straight to them whether he had or not, Sirius was a man of friendship and Albus was not on that level at the moment.

Sirius shoved himself down the stairs and kicked the gargoyle. It responded with a hiss and Sirius told him to fuck off.

His rampage continued outside where he bounded outside to find Remus and Peter.

"HOW THE FUCK COULD HE DO THIS TO US? TO ME?" Sirius roared, the birds in the trees fluttered away and the Whomping Willow froze for a split second before it continued to thwack birds and bees from its branches and leaves.

Remus caught up to him and Sirius almost punched him in the stomach as he ran into the Forbidden Forest and threw off his clothes to transform so that he could tear some shit up.

The howl that erupted from the black Irish Wolf Hound was strong, guttural and mournful.

Remus' anger ebbed when he saw how hurt Sirius actually was. Sirius was personally offended, he knew that, but Remus also knew that Sirius couldn't help how he felt, Sirius was close all the people he loved, and that was a very select few.

Sirius found the largest tree he could within a 100 foot radius from his transformation spot and scratched the tree trunk to pieces, it was like punching a practice ball but he had more energy to last longer and stay angry as he attacked the tree.

Remus sat at the other side of the tree, listening to Sirius pant heavily as he attacked the tree, killing it in the process. Remus pulled his knees to his chest and sighed, "What the fuck was he thinking?"

A growl from the other side of the tree told Remus that Sirius didn't care.

Remus rolled his eyes, "Maybe this was for a good reason. Sirius you've seen the papers, those Death Eater attacks are starting to happen weekly. Maybe James is doing something to help the cause."

A tree limb breaking on the other end was a hint that Sirius was too distraught to care to listen.

As Remus sat, he continued to think that James wouldn't willingly leave the girl he had finally made up with and was starting to date. She wasn't his girlfriend yet, but they were dating at the very least, every one knew that. James loves her, he loved all of them. Remus knew that James had to of done something to make a difference for them all, otherwise it wasn't something he needed to do.

Remus shook his hair out, it was sticking to the tree and was starting to grow knots. He ran his fingers through his hair.

Sirius continued on his rampage until he had no more physical energy in his animagi form, and it was then that he transformed into his human form.

"Sirius I think we should think about his logically. He wouldn't just get up and leave without a reason!" Remus replied.

"What game are you playing at Moony?" Sirius hissed while he panted, throwing his jeans on and picking up his shirt, clenched in his fist as he yelled at Remus more, "He up and fucking left us. That's what he's done. He didn't take me with him and he needs me! We're a TEAM Remus! We didn't come together for shits and giggles!"

Remus sighed, "Sirius what if he's doing this to protect us? To protect our world! What if he's saving lives!"

Sirius shook his head, "He's ruining ours by leaving. What if he DIES Remus? He left us! AND LILY! He left his woman, who needs to protection almost every second of the day…She's so klutzy"

Remus rolled his eyes, "Sirius your missing the point! He's being a protector! He's doing something he's always wanted to do!"

"You know what? Fuck you too Remus. You're on Dum-Dums side?" Sirius growled, "Then fine. Fuck you" with his shirt in hand, Sirius stalked off towards the castle to find Lily.

"SIRIUS BLACK COME BACK HERE!" Remus roared, "COME FUCKING BACK HERE!"

"FUCK YOU!" Sirius roared before he ran off into the castle. He shoved opened the wooden doors and decided to look for Lily in the library, but then realized that she was most likely being told what he had and regrettingly walked towards Dumbledore's office to wait for her to exit. He wasn't sure what she would be like, sobbing or pissed off. She was like that.