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Chapter Song:

"Sorry" By Buckcherry

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Chapter Four:

Amends

Sitting in at his dark oak wooden desk that was facing the entrances to his office. He lazily sat back in his leather chair starting out into space. His own privet office was a typical owners office with items of anything that meant his needs. It was decorated in all the latest styles of furniture with the colors of red and black. Today, Sesshomaru was feeling rather blue. Which wasn't a big surprised since he's been feeling the depressed since the fight. An unbearable week has passed both old lovers by with the same anguish and yearning pain within their hearts, that they both held before the disagreement. These feelings that begged and screamed within them to see one other again. With the pains of guilt of what was said to both of them, pained them beyond reason.

Sesshomaru wishing to make amends for everything and Kagome wanting to tell him the truth, but with them both fearing to be rejected by one other again was too much to bear on them both. Sesshomaru often condemned myself on his stupidity of acting like a little schoolboy with his emotions when it came to Kagome. It was ridiculous. How could one of the most feared men of the business world be reduced to nothing when it came to her!? He was a blockhead when it came to her. A dimwitted-blockhead in-love. "Why can I not move-on?" he often would ask himself.

"Good morning, Son!" His' father chimed as he entered the room. Then he took notice on Sesshomaru's lazy posture. "Are we turning into an, 'Inuyasha' now?" Sesshomaru growled at his father, but didn't reasoned to his question. He never liked to be referred to being 'like' his idiot of a half-brother, but for a little over a week he could careless.

Sitting down in the set across from Sesshomaru. He then took notice in his son's eyes. The held so many emotions of pain within them which wasn't good. Seeing as he never let any of those emotions out. "Son, it's been a week and I thought you didn't care?"

"I don't" he lied.

"Yeah, and hell's just an ice box." snorted Inutaisho.

"Father, not now." he growled.

"'Not now'? Sesshomaru, you haven't been to a bored-meeting in a little over a week now, doesn't that tell you something, Mr. High-and-Mighty?" Inutaisho snorted rudely at his son.

"It tells nothing."

"Bullshit, you're in-love with her and you know it!" exclaimed Inutaisho. In anger not of being in-love, but of how easily by his father had noticed it. It shamed him of how easily he was transparent to them. "When have you gotten a sex change father? I never knew you to have such girly antics," he stopped and then said in a low tone, "I am not in-love. Not with anyone and…not with her." Inutaisho didn't look at him with anger or hurt by his words. He looked at Sesshomaru with sympathy within his gaze. "Sesshomaru, if you allow your bitterness to enter, you will loose her forever…" He said, before standing up and dropping a big envelope onto his desk and left. Turning away from his father's gaze, and not noticing what was on his desk "I already did…" he said bitterly.

"You can not loose something that you haven't lost yet." His father smiled at him, which all the more confused the hell out of Sesshomaru. Not understanding his father's true intent on what he was meaning by the statement. Not wanting to get into another one of their heated debates, arguments with his father. Sesshomaru did something that his younger brother could not. He walked away. After all his father even with his' annoying, insane and insanely ways of stating the facts about life. He most of the time was…correct.

'"You can not loose something that you haven't lost yet,' what the hell does that old man mean?" He pondered to himself, as he made his way back down the hall to his' office. Coming to the double door entrance of his office. Stepping out of his office and barely almost hitting Sesshomaru. Was Jim O'Connor, his' personal assistant and most trusted employee. "Oh, forgive me sir. I did not see you there," Jim apologized sincerely, then he spoke again, "Mr. West, a FAX and just arrived and is on your desk." pointing with his' thump indicating towards Sesshomaru's office. Without thinking let alone asking, "Call and tell that bastard, I will not make any more modifications to our agreement. It stays and if don't like it. He'll have to sell the damn place, or become bankrupt his' choice." he spoke dully, without care.

"Sir, it's not from Mr. Thomason. It's from a Kagome Higurashi from Shikon Enterprises. It's the marriage agreement, Mr. West." Jim spoke timidly almost scared to what Sesshomaru's reaction would be. Well, who in their right mind wouldn't be?

"WHAT?!" His thoughts screamed threw him.

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Earlier that day…

"Are you sure you want this?" asked Sora as Kagome was singing some papers. "I have to, She insists I must. For the greater good of the company." she stated, then sighed heavily and responded bitterly "So, screw my happiness, right?" Walking over towards her. Sora wrapped her arms around Kagome's body and held her. "Kagome, It doesn't have to be this way. You have a choice." She assured her in a loving-sister way. Before replying Kagome wiped a falling tear off her check away, "Yes, and that choice is to step down and not own this company." She was very bitter in being forced into a marriage with a man who did not love her…anymore and she still loved him.

"So, it's worth your own happiness? A marriage of convenience, it's not worth your own happiness." Sora soothed her trying to talk her out of it, but Kagome wouldn't listen. She had worked too hard for this, to gain nothing for it. Pulling out of her cousin's embrace she finished signing the documents and then put the pen down, closing her eyes and inhaling sharply she then bitterly said, "Looks like my happiness means nothing and it will be a 'marriage of convenience,' sorry, my dear cousin, but it looks like you have a wedding in your near future." Sora just cast her a sadden glance before choosing to leave the room without a single word. Kagome turning her back on where Sora had exited. She for the first time in a long time. Let a single tear of pain and sorrow out.

"I. Hate. You. Sesshomaru," bitterly she had spoke, each word threw her teeth. With heart filled sadness. Then she whispered, silently as if it was a sacred prayer to the gods above, "But I still love you, and that will always make me a fool."

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Back to present time….

"What the hell is the meaning of this?!" Sesshomaru bellowed as he threw the papers down onto his father's desk. Likely the only person in his father's office was his younger brother, Inuyasha. Otherwise his father would more likely kill him for his rudeness. "Damn, Sess what has your panties in a knot?" his brother laughed then one look from both his' father and Sesshomaru he had decided to stay out of it. It didn't take Sesshomaru long to notice the envelope on his desk and for him to read it.

"Inuyasha, leave us." Inutaisho barked at his youngest son. Who gladly left the room without a single glace. After Inuyasha left and closed the door, he then looked at Sesshomaru "Explain yourself." he barked at Sesshomaru. He wasn't timid, or for that matter intimidated by his father's anger. He himself was pissed himself and wanted answers. "Is this some kind of sick joke?" he said as pointed to the papers on his desk. His father looked confused, which made him angrier. "Father, tell me…what the hell is the meaning of this?!" he emphasized each word threw his teeth as he pointed down on the document with Kagome's signature on it. His father now got it and laughed at his son, then he told him with a smile upon his face, "Nothing son, it appears she had agreed."

"She. WHAT?!"

"She agreed. Congrats, my son. You'll soon be married." his father chimed happily, as he clapped his hands together. For the first time in Sesshomaru's life he was…stunned by this news. "She'd agreed?!" He thought, as he still had a surprised look upon his face. "Sesshomaru, close your mouth." Inutaisho chucked at his eldest son's expression, which comical looked more like a fish's more than anything else. Closing his mouth, he was in the first time in his life dare he say it …speechless. He then looked down in shame for his inane and insane behavior. Then he spoke the words he would only say out loud in-front of one being, his' father.

"I'm such a fool." he rasped out.

"That you are my son, my dearest son. That you are." his father gave out a low laugh, as he shook his head. Giving his father a dumbfounded look. He himself, Sesshomaru laughed at his own stupidity.

"What should I do now, Father?"

"Son, I hate to say this. Not to mention, or let alone admit this, but ya'know I now believe your mother was lying to me when she told me, 'this is your son,' nope. All lies." he teased him, as he laughed in a jokingly matter. This was a first, Sesshomaru actually laughed. He laughed with not a smug, or arrogant look. A pure and natural laugh of joy and happiness. This was a miracle all on it's own. Now, the biggest miracle would be himself, gathering the courage to see her. Now, that would be considered to be the end of the world. "Son, go take a shower, get all squeaky-clean and sweep her off her feet. For then the wedding night shall be…let's sat more pleasurable for the both of you" he told his son, with a mischievous wink.

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Kagome stepped inside her great-grandmother's office. To be honest she hasn't stepped foot into the office since Sesshomaru was there. Kagome and Chikako haven't really been on speaking terms. Taking a deep breath she pushed open the doors to find her alone. Chikako's head snapped up as she saw Kagome enter. "Kagome?" she questioned. Kagome closed the doors and walk gracefully toward her. "I'm sorry," she spoke with sincerity in her voice.

"All is forgiven, my dare." Chikako told her with a gentle smile, but then laughed as she joked, "But I must say, I never heard you say 'fuck' that many times within a single sentence" With a small smile gracing her lips. Kagome shrugged before saying, "I guess we have a wedding in our midst." There was no reply from her. Nothing more, but absolute silence from Chikako. To be honest Kagome was grateful for it too. She didn't need anyone's sympathy, or for someone to try and cheer her up. She just needed for someone to be there, to let her vent out her anger and pain.

Coming back to her office, She notice that her assistant and secretary were both taking their lunch breaks. Nothing too out of the ordinarily since she was the one who OK'ed it, but then she felt strangely odd. Like within the pit of her stomach that something, or someone was going to there in her office and then her heart fluttered like a butterfly. Tensing up like a little school girl on her first day of school, "Why am I acting like this? This is stupid…It's my own office for goodness sake!" now condemning herself for her foolishness, she took a deep breath before opening her office doors and inside there was no one. Not a single soul. "Whew, wow….I'm pathetic!" she laughed nervously then entered her office and closed her door. Thanking that no one had heard her speaking to herself. Grabbing a Victoria Secret catalog off her desk, she began to flip threw the pages. Not really caring about anything particular within the damn thing, but feeling the need to just be productive, which is in any case that Kagome felt tense about something.

Still, she felt like a foolish idiot on being so nervous over the fact she'd just faxed over the papers a little awhile ago, that stated that she agreed to the marriage deal. "It's not like he's gonna run over here and ask, why?" Kagome told herself within her thought, laughing a bit at her inane behavior. Hearing an knock upon her door. Since either her assistant or her secretary were there. She got up and opened the doors….to reveal Sesshomaru West; ex-lover and soon-to-be-future-husband-by-force standing there. Staggering away from the door, allowing him to enter into her office. She'd had to say in the very least. She was very speechless that her stupid and silly assumptions that he'd be there were correct for once! Normally, she'd be totally dead wrong. He closed the door as he came near were she was standing.

What do you want, Sesshomaru. Have you come to insult me some more?" she spoke with pure venom and hate within her voice and if he wasn't mistaken a hint of sadness. Not bothering to reply back to her he stepped closer to her, He had to know. No better yet he needed to know. Finally he said calmly, "Kagome, we need to talk." Clenching her fists into a ball with pure rage, she wanted to scream at him. All of a sudden he wanted to talk? "The nerve of the bastard!" Her thought bellowed through her mind. "I'm listening." she said, with a hint of a annoyance, because to be honest she rather punch the living crap out of him than to listen to his' trivial words. Now a little on the edged as he came closer to her. "Tell me, Kagome. Why did you agree to it?" his tone of voice was demanding and needy.

"Because, I had no choice."

"What do you mean by, 'I had no choice'?" he asked, slightly confused by her words. She gave out a small laugh full with bitterness, before speaking rather crudely "Like it matters anyway, you don't give a shit." Walking away from him to stand by the oversized window that overlooked the city. The sight was truly breathtaking, but at this point and time. Kagome could careless about the scenery of the city. All she wanted to do was strangle the crap out of Sesshomaru. He just stood there not saying anything that irritated her all the more. "Would you tell me why you've come already! " she snarled at him as she face him.

"I came to apologize."

"Good. Now get out!" she barked at him, expecting him to take his fine-looking-ass out of her office. Oh, how wrong was she? Sesshomaru ignored her imperious demands to get him out of her office and came over to her. Him being much more taller than she he stared down at her, he then gently said "No, we have much things to discuss."

"What's there to discuss!?" she exclaimed, then shook her head at him as told him, "We have nothing to discuss!" stepping closer to him she shouted out at him, "NOTHING! DO YOU NOT HEAR ME! NOTHING!" Looking down at the floor she nearly cried out, clenching her teeth together. Pressing her hands onto her forehead then brushing them back into her soft raven hair. She turned away from him just to have him behind her, "Sesshomaru…why did you come?," she asked with a light sob. She was loosing it, well who wouldn't? Turning to face him with tears still within her eyes. Just about ready to fall out down upon her beautiful rosy cheeks. Giving him a death glare she snarled at him, "Why?!" Kneeling before her on his two knees. He did something that never in his life he expected to do, 'beg for forgiveness' from someone.

"I told you, I came to apologize for the way I acted out towards you. And to tell you…I'm deeply sorry for what happened between 'us' all those years ago. Kagome, I still love you…please forgive me!" He trilled off with the most deepest sincerity, that she'd could ever hope for that would come from any man'smouth and actually mean it, but could he truly be trusted? Not really knowing what to say, Kagome fell to her knees, head crashing down against his rock hard chest. She was in shock, that and her legs felt so numb, couldn't even stand up right. "Sesshomaru…I'll forgive you, but you've got a lot of explaining and making up to do…and it'll take some time" she whispered silently to him. Pressing her hands against his chest. Gently she pushed him back away from her. Looking into his' beautiful golden eyes, those eyes that did wonders to her when they were together. "Kagome…I swear I'll make it up to you, but for now.…"he trilled off, confused, "'For now,' what?" Her answer was his lips pressed against hers.

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(To be continued…)

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