Love Isn't Supposed to make you Cry!
Chapter 1: Realizations
January 30, 2009
Dear Diary,
Why is it that when one things goes wrong, everything goes wrong? Take my life for example. I met this guy about a year ago, and I fell for him instantly. His brown eyes took my breath away and his damn smirk made me go weak in the knees. Everything about him shook me to the core. I mean, I had thought I had fallen before, Sam, Max, and Truman, but this guy, this guy was different. He could tell I liked him and he loved it. Then I did a stupid thing, I told him how I felt and he just stood there and blinked, I had once again put my heart on the line for a guy and he stood there!!!! I couldn't help but walk away and cry. It made every single time I see him difficult. I just couldn't take being around him anymore, but I wouldn't let him ruin things for me. I still lived my life with my head held high and a smile on my face. Until it happened, he met her. The one who has stolen practically every guy I liked from me, my cousin Vicki. Now, don't get me wrong, she's family so I have to love her, but it never seems to fail. I like a guy, she meets him, likes him, and guess what? They start to date, it's inevitable. But this guy, this guy was different, I really liked this guy. But I couldn't tell Vicki that. Vicki knew I liked him, but what am I supposed to say, "Oh Vicki dear, could you not date him because I like him? Thanks, you're a doll!", no, it doesn't work that way. I could tell that he liked Vicki, and I didn't want to stand in the way of his happiness, so I told Vicki, "I would rather him be happy with you than unhappy because of me." So she took that as an opening and went after him. You know when I found out about their relationship? Tonight!!! On family game night, they were acting very friendly with each other, and I could tell, so while we were waiting for my aunt to pick us up, since we were spending the night at Vicki's, I asked, and they told me. They had been dating since the first of the year, but they didn't want to hurt me. I couldn't believe it. Then my aunt got there, piss drunk, and said she couldn't drive, so he drove us. I sat in the back with my aunt and Vicki and Derek sat in the front. Yes, that's right Derek Venturi actually broke my heart. Needless to say, when I got there and Derek and Vicki went for the liquor cabinet I was defiantly willing, I needed to get drunk. Although I didn't drink enough to get drunk, I drank enough to cry on Vicki's driveway for an hour in the middle of the night. Needless to say, my life sucks right now, and I'm a glutton for punishment and pain, because I'll never stop hanging out with the happy couple. I know this, no matter how bad it hurts I won't be able to stay away.
Casey
(What do you guys think? It's just a start, this story is going to continue on, I just want to know if you actually want to read it, I haven't posted on here in so long, but this story had to be written, not only for you, but for me. So let me know if you want to see it continued, THANKS!)