Woo! Finals are now over, now I can take some time to work on my stories!! I have been itching to write, but I haven't had the time. So here we go Chapter 3! "Stay"

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"Please." Chuck begged from his prone position on the bed. Tears were coming more freely now, rolling unbidden down his face. He knew he was asking her a question that she had no way of knowing the answer to, but he was completely lost. He was desperate to understand his life and the turns it had taken, he was desperate to understand why his father could not forgive him.

He would happily give his life for his mother if it would change anything, if it would bring her back, but it wasn't possible. Instead he would spend the rest of his life carrying the burden of his mother's death and hope that someday someone could look past what he had done and love him despite the fact that he was a murderer. Maybe Blair would be that person.

Blair flicked off the lamp and moved to lay back down, covering Chuck's body with her own. Once again she began to run her fingers through his hair like she had minutes before. He continued to stare blankly at the ceiling like they had never spoken, it was obvious that he was trying to re-sustain the walls he had momentarily let down. But she would not let him this time. She loved him whether he knew it or not and she was determined to help him face down his demons.

Blair could see the wheels turning in his head, she had no idea what awful things he could be thinking to himself, but she knew it couldn't be healthy. Her heart clenched at the sight of his tears, because she had never seen Chuck cry. To see him in such a vulnerable state shook her to her core.

Although Blair was baffled by this version of Chuck things were starting to make sense to her now. She had never understood Chuck's need for such a wild life and the cold, selfish behavior but she was learning more about his and Bart's relationship all the time, and she knew that it played a large part in how Chuck chose to act. She'd heard bits and pieces from Nate over the years but she never had any reason to care before. Thinking back on those things now she was horrified. Bart was such a bastard to Chuck, and all Chuck wanted was to impress him and in turn be loved by him. There were a few things that came to Blair's mind:

Nate had been around to hear his mother gossiping on the phone to one of her friends about how years ago she had witnessed business tycoon Bart Bass reprimanding the nanny of a then 5 year old Chuck for comforting him after he had taken a spill on the side walk and turned his little knee into a bloody mess. Bart claimed that any affection received by his son would be of his own doing, even though it was obvious that he had no intention of doing so.

After that incident Bart was known for replacing Chuck's nannies/ au pairs every few months to ensure that Chuck would be unable to form any real bond with any of them. He was barely present for Chuck's childhood and when he was all he could do was reek havoc on any relationship Chuck could have formed.

Even at the young age of 11 years old even Bart was able to see how insatiable his young son was becoming and knew something would have to be said. But instead of properly sitting down and discussing the "Birds and the Bees" like any normal father would, Chuck got a completely different experience.

Chuck related a story to Nate about sitting in his room one night and looking up to see his father standing in his doorway just staring at him. After a few minutes of awkward silence Bart went as far as to toss Chuck his first box of condoms accompanied by the words "Be sure to clean up your mess." before turning and walking away leaving Chuck to stare at his retreating form in confusion.

Blair was convinced that this is where Chuck derived his blasé relationship with sex. He was young and deprived of any attention and affection besides the friendship he had formed with Nate and Blair. But this all changed the day that Georgina Sparks walked into their lives and offered Chuck his first experience of the sexual kind. They were both children that were cheated out of their parents' love and they found comfort in each other.

Chuck quickly discovered that he held a talent in giving women sexual experiences and he was constantly offered reassurance and praise in that area. It seemed to fill a small amount of the hole that Bart had left in his heart and it all became worth it.

That is where the whole trend started, from a young age of 11 or 12 and up until his current age of 17 this is where he sought solace from the feelings of rejection from his father. Chuck used sex as a crutch, and it had served his purpose until he formed feelings for Blair. Blair had changed everything for Chuck and she was fully aware of that because he had done the same for her. Chuck messed things up and he felt justified in his actions until he saw how much he hurt her.

Chuck knew what a relationship with Blair would mean and that is why he ran away from it as fast as he possibly could. He left her on that helipad because he could not face growing up or the possibility of losing his crutch by becoming monogamous. His father said spending a summer with Blair would change him, and Chuck did not see change as a bad thing but what happened when Blair saw him for who he was? When she saw the real him? He was sure that once she saw the real him she would no longer want him and he would be left with nothing but the new self she had helped him create. And that is why he decided to end it before it began. But here she was, protecting him from himself and also his demons. Or shall we say Demon.

So here they were laying in his bed, in the dark just being with one another. They were both consumed by their own thoughts and felt content to remain silent. Chuck felt completely exposed, but for some reason he felt no fear, only embarrassment from his display of weakness. Another scar left by Bart. They would discuss things further but tonight was not a night for words. Before tonight Chuck would have tried his hardest to find comfort through sex, but he just wanted to be there with her. To find comfort like a normal person. Chuck Bass wanted to be held.

Blair was content to lay over Chuck and run her fingers through his soft locks of dark hair. This action felt more intimate to her than any sexual activity they had ever participated in. She could try to speak but she knew that no words could fix him tonight. Tonight was about comforting him and she was completely willing to give herself to him in any way he would have her. But it did seem strange to her that he had not turned their night into something sexual, that was just his way. Not that she was complaining of course, she was just surprised.

Blair's thoughts were soon interrupted by Chuck's body moving. She was sure he was going to leave her now but instead he just rolled over onto his side. "Chuck?" she questioned.

"What Blair?" he answered back.

"What are you doing?"

Startling Blair, Chuck rolled into his previous position on his back. He wordlessly grabbed Blair's hand and then rolled back onto his side bringing her arm to rest around his waist, her hand tightly grasped in his.

"Blair could you…?"

"Could I what?" she asked, still confused.

"Could you just stay here with me? Like this?"

It fell into place then, Chuck Bass was asking her to stay with him. More than that Chuck was asking her to hold him. Another thing she was sure that he had missed out on as a child.

"Of course Chuck. I can stay. But will you talk to me in the morning?"

"We can do anything you want Blair, just don't leave." he responded, the defeated tone strong in his voice.

Blair didn't answer him this time. She simply reached up and placed a kiss on the underside of his jaw before laying back down. She wrapped her arm tighter around him and quietly whispered.

"I'm here…I'm here…I'm here…"

He rubbed the back of her hand to acknowledge that he heard her words, and soon after all that could be heard was Chuck's quiet ,even breathing. Blair paced her breathing to Chuck's and they both drifted off into dreamland….

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Alright kiddies! Chapter 3!! I hope it wasn't too awful. This chap is kind of awkward where there isn't a lot of dialogue, but I kind of like it that way. But anywho, let me know what you think. I love reviews. I love them almost as much as I love Chuck and Blair. And that's saying a lot. So please if you have the time drop me a line. Thanks for reading! Until next time---UnnecessaryKash.