Conan's Misfortunes
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Rachel's Pain
It was late into the night after one full week of being hospitalized. Conan's immune system was slacking off, it appeared. Either that or too much guilt got to him.
If there was one thing that was worse than being stuck in the body of a child, it was seeing Rachel in pain. He had already mentioned this, but there was a whole lot more to it. Every night, Rachel would worry about Jimmy. And every night, Conan could do nothing to comfort her. He couldn't stand seeing her like that. It made him feel so useless, not being able to do anything. After all, he was Jimmy, so saying that Rachel would have nothing to worry about and that Jimmy would be back soon would seem awkward to Rachel.
Rachel and Jimmy's relationship was just as childhood friends to the two of them, but everyone in their school saw them as a couple. Rachel and Jimmy never saw it that way, as they were too stubborn to admit it. Jimmy, however, had wanted to tell her his true feelings for a long time, but ever since that day, he could only do so much as call her, and see her worry about him for the longest time. Until he could confess his true feelings, he refused to acknowledge Rachel and himself as a couple. That was how stubborn he was. The same probably went for Rachel. Of course, who was he to say so?
Conan sighed. He hated making her cry. Truthfully, he would love to just cry with her, but she would never understand if it came from Conan. Because she didn't know, she would never understand what it meant to see Conan cry. If there were a way to make her feel better, no matter what the cost, he would do it. Sometimes he wished Rachel had never met him, if it would make her feel better. Usually he would scold himself for thinking such thoughts, but he didn't know anymore. What if Rachel becomes a victim to my death magnet situation? He always feared that she would become involved in a murder like that. But he couldn't stay far away without her worrying that something's wrong. After all, Rachel seems to care too much about others, especially Conan since he's only nine years old, or so it seems.
Conan loved everything about Rachel. Well, almost everything. Besides the fact that Rachel would kill him if she ever found out that he was Jimmy, he loved everything about her. He wouldn't admit it in public, however. Eva was wrong when she said that marriage between childhood friends would bring nothing but trouble. It may be true for her and Richard(even if there was still hope for them), but that doesn't mean it would be true for him and Rachel.
More so, he hated being teased about his crush on Rachel, especially by Mitch and George, who would stop at nothing to get him with Rachel and take Amy to themselves which would be impossible since Amy was obsessed with Conan. He tried to find the best way to tell her that he didn't feel the same way about her that she did, but he was afraid she'd cry over it.
How can I possibly help Rachel? He wondered, staring out the window. He knew that Rachel loved him like a brother, but he couldn't help but think that he was betraying her. It was ironic. He seeks the truth but he has to lie to everyone else in order to protect them. He couldn't stand lying to others. The same thing went for deceiving. Even if it led to the truth, it felt unfair to those being deceived. But he couldn't help it. It was for the safety of everyone he cared about, wasn't it?
But what if there was no cure for his condition? What if he would have to relive the rest of his life as Conan Edogawa and never be able to tell Rachel how he truly felt? He couldn't bear the thought of it. He will get his regular body back! He would get his regular body back even if it meant risking his life! After all, it was his fault that he was like this. Rachel was right when she said that sticking his nose into cases would get him in trouble.
Conan leaned back on the bed. He had thought about all this, now there was only one question that was left unanswered.
Author's note: Gaaaah it's so short!! I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry!! But it's getting really good now, and I'm anxious to move on to the next chapter~ Iyoushi will be disappointed…T_T
Only 2 more chapters~