Finality: Chuck and Blair
"Stab my back
It's better when I bleed for you."
~All American Rejects "Stab My Back"
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Blair had reached the end. She marked the bottom of the sheet, and then threw away her many mistakes that scattered her desk and floor, thinking all the while why it couldn't be just that easy.
Why can't I just throw them away?
She licked the envelope. "Ow!" The taste of her own blood filled her mouth. A paper cut on her tongue. How bittersweet. She thought twice about sending the letter. Maybe the blood was a sign. Blair fell back on her bed and tucked the letter into her desk so she wouldn't make any rash decisions.
She tried to think through this reasonably. If she sent the letter, there would be no going back. If she didn't, she'd be stuck this way forever. Both ways, she didn't want to have to face him after this decision. Why hadn't she just told him in the first place? God, this was all happening too fast. She thought back to the time she had overheard a conversation between Eric and Lily van der Woodsen. Only a month ago.
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