Finality

by peterpanda94

She had reached the end...she wondered why it couldn't be just that easy. Why can't I just throw them away? Chuck finds out two of Blair's biggest secrets...in one night! Possible future episode spoilers... Now extending the story!

3. Cycles

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"I know the season's evolved to a freeze

Putting hearts in the balance here

It's up to your knees

And it's shifting degrees

And it's choking your atmosphere."

~TV On The Radio "Shout Me Out"

Blair hadn't thought of that conversation again until now. She had contemplated it's meaning endlessly for hours and had come to the conclusion that Lily had probably had an abortion or some other child that she had given up for adoption. But that was a long time ago. Now it was common knowledge that Serena and Dan might share some kind of half-brother or sister from their parents' 80's love affair. The idea just made Blair shudder.

Suddenly she felt very nauseous. Blair ran to the bathroom, pulling up the seat and throwing up. This felt wrong somehow. The binging and purging cycle of Blair's life was being broken. Leave it to him to ruin even her most solid routine. Now she couldn't even get release through this. Blair sat down on the tiled floor of her bathroom and leaned her head against the cold, tiled wall. She closed her eyes and before she knew it, she drifted to sleep.

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