A/N: Thank you for the reviews. I really appreciate anything you have to say and I really didn't expect anyone to read it, let alone review it. So again, thank you very much!

Sorry for how short it is, but I make up for it with Rachel (it's been split into two parts).

Part Three: Finn

I, Finn Hudson, have a sad secret to tell.

I'm in love with a girl I can't possibly have.

I've been in love with Rachel Berry for a while now. I always had a crush on her growing up. We've gone through our entire schooling together but it wasn't until this year, in Glee Club, that I've really exchanged any words with her.

When we were kids she was just as energetic as she is now. She has this way about her that rubs the teachers the wrong way. I wish I could be more like her, more studious, more ambitious, more everything.

As soon as I joined the football team, I knew that was the end of any possible relationship between us. Rachel was at the bottom of the social scale, and I shouldn't care so much about it, but I need to get out of Lima, and football seemed, at the time, the only way to do that. According to Miss Pillsbury though, Glee might be what gets me out of here. Should have been a gleek.

I shouldn't complain really. I have two really great friends. I would trust them with my life. Quinn's basically my faux girlfriend, she spends more time making out with Puck then she ever will with me. I love her, I do. I care about her as well. We've gotten ourselves in this situation, and I don't think we can get out of it any time soon, and I don't really want to. It's safe for us though. I love spending time with them, Quinn and Puck, but I know they love each other, in their own special kind of way, and I really want that too. With Rachel.

Puck's been pretty great about everything. We've been through a lot, shared a lot, and even now, we share a girl. He knows I've been in love with Rachel for years and even though he says he can't stand her, I think he could find her bearable, given the chance.

The amazing thing about Puck though, is that he's always there for me. Quinn is too, but Puck is there in a way that I can't be with Quinn. He understands what Rachel does to me. After that 'Push It' performance we did at assembly, one glance over at Puck and he knew I needed him. I couldn't get Rachel out of my head for days after that. All I could see was her sucking me off, down on her knees, her long hair shielding half of her face, the loose strands tickling my thighs.

Then when I'd worn that fantasy out, all I could see was me taking her from behind, her bent over one of the teacher's desks, her skirt up past her waist, her fingers gripping into the edge of the table and she held on while I slid my way inside her over and over again.

I think the worst fantasy was caused by the last move we did for the performance. She was riding me and I distinctly remember the feel of her thighs as I gripped them tightly, holding her up. Her breasts were bouncing slightly in my face and it was all I could do to push down any reaction I was having.

After that performance, I didn't stick around to hear about the reaming out Mr. Schue got because of us. I was too busy in the boys' locker room, my pants down to my ankles, Puck kneeling between my legs, his lips around me, sucking so damn hard. I was so turned on by 'Push It' that I barely lasted minutes in his mouth.

I think I'm supposed to feel disgusted that I let my friend do that for me. But I can't bring myself to feel a shred of guilt let alone disgust. Maybe our friendship isn't the same as other guys, but it works for us. And it isn't like I haven't helped him out in the past. I'm not quite sure what I'd do without him to be honest. I think we'll always be a part of each other's lives. I like the idea of that.

Quinn and I though, it's a bit different. We make out from time to time. She knows I love Rachel, I'm sure of it. I'm not sure she minds so much though. She's been great. She picks on Rachel all the time, which she knows I can't stand. I think she does it just to see how far I'll let her go with it. Puck's no better with his constant slushie throws. I've asked them so many times to let up on her, but I think they're doing it to push me to the brink, just to see what I'll do. Don't tell them, but I'm really close in jumping to Rachel's defence, damn the consequences.

There's something about Quinn though, that I'm just figuring out. She's extremely protective of those she loves or cares about. She might not stand up to someone making fun of Puck, because she has to maintain her image, but she'll go behind their back and start some vicious rumour just to put them in their place. I'm finding that she's fiercely loyal, which would be great for Rachel if there were to ever come a day that Quinn could put aside her hostility and realise how great Rachel is. I know that sounds weird, especially because Quinn is Rachel's biggest enemy, but there are other people out there trying to hurt her too.

I think it's great how protective she is, but that's not really what I've been noticing. Her nicknames for Rachel have been getting worse and her attitude toward her has been bitchier in the last few weeks. That's not really what's odd though. See, I watch Rachel, a lot. But lately I've been watching Quinn too. And what I've seen, is Quinn watching Rachel. A lot. Quinn's been open to a lot of new things since we started 'dating', but we've never discussed including another girl. Maybe it's my wishful thinking, but I swear Quinn has been eyeing Rachel's barely-there skirts, almost as much as I do.

Although I'd be reaping most of the benefits if Rachel ever took a chance with me, I know Quinn could probably really use her right now. Quinn's pregnant. I was there for the conception, which makes me feel pretty protective of this unborn child that's not mine. Everyone thinks the baby is mine, and for now that's ok, but we three know it's really Puck's baby.

Puck's going to be a great dad, and Quinn a great mother, but right now, Puck has me to talk to and Quinn can talk to me about it too, but I think she'd benefit from being able to talk to a girl about what's happening to her. I shouldn't put so much pressure on Rachel, before she even knows what she might be getting into, but I just can't see her turning her back on Quinn, despite how horrible Quinn's been to her for years.

Sometimes I feel like I should wish that things could be different, but I love Puck and Quinn so much and need them that I think the only change I'd want, is for Rachel to be with us too.

The really depressing thing is, there's a part of me that doesn't want Rachel to be in the middle of this. She'd be pulled into this relationship we've formed and I don't want her to give up being a star for us. She'll be great one day, and I don't want to be the one holding her back from that.

For now, I'll just settle for what I've got because they do make me happy, and maybe there'll be another girl out there that I won't hold back. She won't be a Rachel Berry, but that's because Rachel's one-of-a-kind.