Author's note this is Marco's chapter and I would really like some Reviews!!!!!!!!!
Disclaimers don't own Degrassi but who ever does needs to know that I LOVE YOU!
MARCOS POV
My best friend tried to kill herself today. Wait let me rephrase that Ellie Nash Tried to kill herself. So here I sit. In a crowded hospital next Ashley and Paige both of them on either side of me, their heads rested on my shoulders. My mind went blank when I heard the news. I didn't know how I should feel better yet I couldn't feel… anything.
He had called me. The one to leave her alone had called me as they were loading her into the ambulance. The he I am referring to is Sean Cameron, The bad boy and my best friends first real love. Sean was hysterical and I had never seen or heard him like that. Right now Sean is downstairs at the food court trying t collect his thoughts. Just like me.
Paige sniffed and pulled her head of my shoulder before muttering
" What's taking so long?"
" If you don't want to be here you can leave?" Ashley replied bitterly as my eyes welled with more tears
" Stop it." I said quietly but Ashley kept talking
" Your not even Ellie's friend I believe the first word you said to her were vampire." Paige stood up and glared at Ashley
"STOP IT!" I screamed getting half the hospital to stop talking and look at me
" You both are just upset and before one of you says something you regret sit down and shut up we are here for Ellie not for you two to start bickering. I don't care what you have to do just… just don't talk to each other." I said calming both the girls down before returning to my stop in between them. Today is not going to be the day they finally work out their problems.
Ash crossed her arms and plopped down next to me when Paige left to go in to the bathroom. Replacing her spot beside me was Sean. He sat down and cradled his head in his hands gripping a crumpled up piece of paper in his hands.
" Why did you come home? I asked quietly. He slowly handed the paper over to me. It was a page from Ellie's diary (Author's note- this next part contains pieces of Chapter one.) I unrumpled the paper and begin reading bracing myself for what's next.
Dear Journal,
After today they will call me a murderer. Except I didn't kill someone I only killed myself. After today Ellie Nash will be no more. I know were to cut I know how to cut, I have traced the veins on my arm I feel ready I feel scared. Today I will make a decision that will end my life. No one will care about little Ellie Nash. No one will go to her funeral or her grave. No one would care enough to see my body after I am dead when that's all I am a body. Not even him. He called me earlier today a few minutes before I started writing in here. I can remember our conversation to the T. The exact words…My breath caught in my throat and I didn't want to read more but somewhere deep inside I found the will power to continued
" Hello?" I said into the phone
" Ellie?" The person on the other line said. I shivered. It couldn't be him I didn't want it to be him but I knew it was.
" Sssean?" I stuttered
" El. Hey." Hey that's it that's all you can say I wanted to scream and yell tell him how I still loved him but I couldn't force the words out. Tears fell down my cheeks in two thick streams and all I could manage to say was
"You left."
" I know and I am so sorry… El are you crying?" that's when the thought suicide came into my head the only solution. I knew that was a stupid thought I knew there were others ways.
" Now it's my turn." I said instantly regretting it. I heard moving on the other end and quickly hung up the phone. He was coming now. Probably calling Marco or Ash or Paige.I shook my head and tried to tell myself that it want real. Ellie had really tried to kill herself and the cause was sitting right next to me. I knew that I had led her to think like this that I could be a reason couldn't blame Sean and I couldn't blame Ellie. Damn it El. Why do you gotta do this to me why El why? My eyes trailed back to the paper
Shit
He's coming that doesn't give me that much time
When my name is in the paper Reveal why I killed myself maybe kids decades away can use it as a joke. Love me or I'll kill myself like Ellie Nash did. At least then everyone will know my name.
So consider this my suicide note. And my apology Marco Ash I really am truly sorry I didn't want this to end this way but I had nothing left
Yours Truly,
Ellie Nash
Her one wish was to reveal why she did this to herself in the paper. Her one wish. No I told myself she didn't need one wish because she will survive I will not let her dye on my.
Ellie's hospital room door opened and out stepped a doctor with an unreadable expression on his face. " I need to speak to a family member." He said and that's when everything went black.