Author's Note- here is today's chapters this is chapter 4 but I still want reviews at least 2. This is Sean's chapter.
Disclaimer- don't own Degrassi never have but I hope I will. I write fiction not the actual script
SEAN POV
I couldn't breathe, I couldn't think. She was dying and it's all my fault. They mine as well call me a murderer and lock me up in jail because without her I am nothing. I watched as Paige ran into the bathroom and as Marco collapsed in a chair. I watched when Ashley fell to her knees sobbing and as my eyes filled with tears.
Pushing open the heavy hospital door I forced myself to look at the girl in the bed. This was not Ellie. She looked so small and helpless. Only one other time have I seen her this vulnerable and that was when I told her that I had to leave and move in my parents 'to cope'. I have seen her cry many times but never was she once weak or at least she never let anyone see it.
I fell into the hard, wooden straight-backed chair by her bed and grabbed her hand. Her skin was ice cold and almost seemed transparent. Ellie's long red hair had fallen out of her ponytail and was now matted around her face. I hated seeing her like this I almost made me sick. Knowing that I was the cause was worse.
I wanted to pull Ellie out of that bed and run with her far away, as far gone as possible away from everything. Razors, schools and too dunk to care about their kids parents. But I knew it wasn't possible, I know that there is a chance that I will never get to speak to her again. Shaking the thoughts out of my head I gently moved a strand of hair out of her face and said
" Hey Ellie." I noticed the shaking in my voice and paused taking a deep breath" We miss you." I said " El we need you its not the same without you. I love you Marco loves you, Ash even Paige. We need you to pull through this to show us how strong you are. I need you." I took my hand and rubbed the back of her's before lacing my fingers through her small thin ones. My face fell when they didn't respond like they used to.
" El when I left you I thought it was for the best. I didn't want to hurt you by staying but what I didn't realize is that leaving just hurt you more. I never wanted it to end this way Ellie. I thought when I came back you would be there waiting for me that everyone would be, but no one is. No one will even speak to me they all blame me and I do to. And I know you can hear me right now and I need you to listen."
I stopped half expecting her to say something but she didn't. It could have been just my imagination but I swore I saw her eyelids flutter. So the whole night I sat there wondering how long it would be until I woke up from this horrible nightmare.