(A/N: I just got a very large amount of inspiration. Thanks very much to the song "Running Up That Hill" by Placebo. That song is simply amazing and it brought so much inspiration to write to me. So, I'm very thankful. You all better listen to that song in honor of how fast I wrote this chapter. Semi short chapter, but it's important.
Disclaimer: I'm not Stephenie Meyer. But, if I were, I'd put up the rest of Midnight Sun for the world to read.)
It seemed like each and every good thing that happened in my life had bad counterpart. I could never have good luck with out the bad. I couldn't have what I wanted. I couldn't have the only thing that brightened my life.
The best night of my life also turned out to be the worst, and my life crumbled into darkness. I'd seen thirty sunrises and sunsets that night. Each night hoping to hear from Prince Edward. I assumed that it was some kind of joke after a while. He probably never had cared for me. He had just wanted to hurt me, and he seemed to have succeeded.
The evening of the fifteenth sunset, I noticed a familiar face riding into our manor atop a black well-kept horse. Her hair was an inky shade that matched and the closer she approached the more my thoughts raced. What was she doing here? Was she here to tell me something awful happened to Edward and that was why I hadn't heard from him? I reprimanded myself for thinking that.
Princess Alice finally halted the horse no more than five feet from where I stood by the garden gate. She hopped off the large horse. It would have been comical if I weren't so miserable. Her short size compared to that of the horse was almost laughable.
Her face was somber as she approached me quickly. She handed me a note. Sealed with blue candle wax. The same color of my dress from the ball. I nearly burst out into tears right there. As I opened my mouth to speak, Alice cut me off. "I'm so, so sorry, Isabella. Things did not turn out the way you and Edward would have hoped. I sincerely wish to see you again. I had a feeling you and I would become as close as sisters."
Before I could say anything Alice had left me standing there. I wondered what the letter contained. I needed to know. My heart raced. Tears blurred my vision. I quickly peeled the seal and read the letter.
Dearest Isabella,
I told you that I'll always love you no matter what and that holds true. I do love you. More than anything. More than Lady Tanya, more than my parents and more than my country. However, I am a prince. I have a duty to my country that I have to fulfill. No questions asked.
I have to marry Lady Tanya and take the crown. I have to rule the country.
Trust me, this is not what I wanted. From the moment when I began to know you, I knew it was you who I wanted to spend the rest of my days with.
I have been strictly forbidden to see you again. If I go against these wishes I will surely be punished severely. The worst thing about this whole situation though is that you could be punished too. I do not want that to happen and I cannot allow it. I will now allow it.
Please, never forget. You mean the world to me and if I could, I trade anything to have you. I love you with my whole heart. It will always belong to you. I promise you that I will try to find a way for us to be together. But for now, I can't see you again.
Be strong, Isabella. It's one thing that I know you can do better than anyone else.
My heart is with you. Never forget it.
Edward
I'd been devastated. I couldn't move. I wouldn't move. Days passed and I still didn't move. People moved around me. Did their own things. Their lives moved on but mine wouldn't. I couldn't move on.
I was heartbroken. Time passed but I didn't care. Angela attempted to get me going again, bribing me to leave my bedchambers but I was simply the walking dead.
He had my heart.
EPOV
Thirty days had passed. Thirty sun rises and thirty sunsets. Each sunrise brought the pain of another day I'd spend with out Isabella. I couldn't do it much longer. I'd even made a plan to give up on my country.
I'd run away from home. Take my belongings and my horse and find my Isabella. The throne would go to Alice.
At the same time the thought crossed my mind another thought kept me from following through. I'd be in trouble. They'd search for me. They'd find me. Who knew what they would do to me. Who knew what they'd do to Isabella. I couldn't risk it, but at the same time, I couldn't live without her.
I'd spent far too much time with Lady Tanya. She'd survived the black illness, much to my dismay. I didn't know what to do. The only logical thing I could think of was to talk to my parents. Tell them I didn't want the throne. Tell them to give it to my sister who deserved it far more.
She'd be happy. She was a strong woman and she could very well handle a country. She wasn't being thrown into a marriage that she didn't want. She was rather happy with her betrothed. She'd known him long before they were set to wed and she had fallen in love with him before that too. The odds always seemed to be in my sister's favor. I almost envied it.
One particular evening, the evening of the thirty-first day I'd been with out Isabella I decided that I would talk to King Edward and Queen Elizabeth. Mother and Father. It was time that I faced them. If I never tried then I would be a pathetic man.
I left my bedchambers for the first time all day and headed to the parlor. The dusk crept in the large windows. It was late. I hoped they'd still be awake.
I opened the parlor door and to my relief, found both Mother and Father sitting in their chairs, facing the wide mantle. A fire blazed and warmed the room. They didn't seem to acknowledge my presence, but I knew they knew I was there.
I didn't bother to sit down before addressing my parents.
"Mother, Father, I need to discuss something with you." I said in a firm tone. They needed to know my sincerity and seriousness about the situation.
"What is it that you want, Edward?" My mother spoke to me without turning her gaze from the mantle.
Inside my mind, I prepared my battle. The battle to court Isabella.