Lost in Time
Hi everyone, sorry it's been awhile. I have been really busy lately. Well I worked hard on this chapter for you guys and I hope you like it.
I do not own twilight that is all Stephanie Meyer. The only thing I own are the thoughts I come up with for this story…I don't think anything interesting happens in this chapter but you guys here might think so… She tells him the truth about her. Oh and she gives an answer….
Sunday
Today I'm going to give Jake my answer to what I decided.
I saw him yesterday and we hung out in his garage as he worked on his rabbit. I offered to help but he just said no I was his guest and he didn't want me working. So I just sat there as we listened to music and chatted more about our lives.
Yesterday
"Bella, I was wondering if I could talk to you about us if that's ok?" Jacob asked her kinda nervous.
"Yes Jacob, it's ok."
"Well there are things I wanna say that maybe help your decision being with me. I don't expect them to help but I hope they will." Jacob was looking at the tools in his hands.
"Just go on Jake." I chuckled.
So Jacob got down on his knees and held my hands in his, "Well, Bella, you know I love you a lot and I would never hurt you in any way. And I would treat you with the utmost respect that you deserve. And I will always be there for you no matter what... I know I've said this before but I'm going to say it again anyways. You being gone made me realize how much I felt for you and it hurt not having you here with me. I love you so much and always will. So please Bella give me a chance."
Hearing him say all this just made me want to cry. The tears starting coming but I had to hold them back because I didn't want Jake to think he did something wrong. But it was too late he saw the pools of water resting on my bottom lid.
"Bella what's wrong? Did I say something wrong?" He asked me with worry in his voice.
"No, you didn't, you said such sweet things." I felt a tear run down my cheek and Jake reached up and caught it with his finger then brought it to his lips. "But I still need to think about my decision."
"Yes I know, and ill be waiting." And he just smiled at me.
So we sat there some more while he worked on his rabbit. It was silent for a little while, then eventually he brought up something about a movie and we just talked about that for a while. I then saw it was getting dark out and I had to go home and make Charlie dinner.
"Well, I should get going now, it's getting dark and I'll need to make dinner for Charlie soon, he's hopeless with out me." I said in a laugh and Jake laughed with me.
"K, I guess ill see you tomorrow right?"
"Yea you will" I smiled and hugged him goodbye.
As I was pulling away he grabbed my wrist and pulled me back into another hug. Just before he let go he kissed my forehead and said goodbye.
I had a lot of thoughts swarming head after he did that. I have been putting a lot of thought to whether I wanted to be with him. I wanted to be with him because yea I loved him too. But I also didn't want to be with him cause then being with him would make me feel bad because I just lost Edward. But I know he would want me to be happy. But I just can't. I sighed to myself "Ok time to go see Jake and give him my answer."
I made it safely to his house; I got out of my truck and started walking towards his front door. But before I even got to the steps he was outside sitting on the railing.
"Hey." He said to me as I was walking up the stairs.
"Hey." I said and walked up to him and gave him a hug. "Jake, I have my answer for you."
He just looked at me with hope and worry. It hurt me to see his face the way it was.
"Jake, I… I can't be with you right now. Something I didn't tell you in which I should now because you deserve an explanation to why I'm saying no." I said this all while looking at my feet.
I could here disappointment in his voice when he responded to what I said, "It's ok Bella you don't have to explain anything to me"
"Yes I do, you have been so nice to me and so I have to tell you everything"
"Lets go somewhere private then." He took me by my hand and we walked out to the woods so no one could hear us talking.
After some few feet into the woods we found a log to sit on and I started explaining to him about what happened in the past.
"When I was still in Phoenix I found this book in our attic, I thought it looked interesting because the cover itself was made with leather and engraved in gold letters and designs. So I picked it up and wiped all the dust off of it. It looked like it was there from before we even moved into this house. I took it back down to my room. I set it on my desk and decided that I would read it later cause I was packing my things to come here. After a couple hours I decided to take a break, so I picked up the book I found and started to look through it. I stopped on the first page I opened the book to. Everything was all written in Latin so I couldn't understand anything it said. The first line read 'Viaggio stesso al passato' I'm not going to go any further into what it said, just because of the off chance it works again. But anyways, I read the reading out loud and was just confused to what it read. Then all of a sudden everything around me was spinning like in the movies, and I blacked out. The next thing I knew I was in a lush green field with flowers and green trees all around me. The more I looked around, my eyes landed on something odd shaped that didn't really belong with the forest scenery. A tall boy, he looked about the age of 16 in strange clothing. He came up to me and asked me what I was doing there in such strange clothing. I didn't know what to say. He then introduced himself to me, Edward Mason. He was tall with Bronze colored hair and green eyes. He took me back to his home and introduced me to his parents, and there they offered for me to stay with them after I had told them I had nowhere to go. So I stayed with them for a while. And during that time, Edward and I got to know each other, very well. And we dated then after about a month or 2 after that he proposed to me and we got married 1 month later. 3 months into the marriage I got pregnant," I said as I rubbed my stomach. I saw the look on jakes face after I told him this. "And yes I'm still pregnant, I'm 2 months pregnant."
"But how did you come back? Why did you leave your husband behind?" he asked curious and worried.
"Well it not like I decided to come back on my own. And I'm getting to that part. Shortly after we found out I was pregnant, Edward got sick with the Spanish influenza. 3 days passed and he got worse, the doctor said that he probably wouldn't make it through the next 48 hours. I went to visit Edward but I didn't tell him what the doctor had said because I didn't want him to worry. As it got dark he told me to go home and rest and that he'd see me in the morning. So I went home a rested, when I got up in the morning I went straight to the hospital. When I got to his room I could see that he got worse and it pained me to see him in that condition, I felt my eyes tear up but I had to shake it off and be strong for him. We sat there for hours wondering if we were going to have a boy or a girl and what we should name the baby. Then all of a sudden he started wheezing and having a hard time breathing, so I went to go get the nurse and when she came to see what was wrong she left and came back with the doctor that was treating him. The doctor looked at him and checked his vitals. Then he looked at me and said 'he is in pain and we can give him something for it but he doesn't have much time left' and he left and came back with the medication to help him. As I held onto Edwards hand I could also feel his pulse and it was getting slower. As he lay there he ask me that if our baby is a boy that Cameron was a good choice, and then he told me that he loved me and he'll be looking down on me always, and drew his last breath. My knees felt week and I fell to the floor crying still holding onto his hand. The doctor that had been treating Edward had come to comfort me and had told me that before Edward passed he said that he loved me and our baby. And that's when I broke. I was crying in the middle of the hospital, saying it wasn't true and fighting my way to his room, but when I got there he was gone, and it was true. I whipped my tears away and walked out of the hospital and to my car and drove home. When I got home I opened the door and went to the living room and grabbed our photo album off the book shelf and took it upstairs where I went to the bed room and cried some more. After a bit of crying, I looked through all of the old pictures, the ones starting from when we meet till the wedding. And all of a sudden a loud bang and flashes of bright colors everywhere. I shut my eyes and held onto the album and blanket from the bed hoping it would help me stay in place, but when I opened my eyes I was sitting on my own bed in phoenix. And that's basically the story." I felt more tears in my eyes after telling him all those memories. I put my tearing face into my hands and my body started to quiver. The next thing I felt were Jacobs arms wrapping around me.
"Its ok Bella, you can cry just let it all out I'm here for you. You don't have to hold it in any longer."
I put my arms around him and I cried for the first time since I came to this time I got to let it all out. When I came back I had to silence my tears, so no one could hear or see me upset.
My knees got weak and I lost my footing and Jake saved me from falling and picked me up and held me in his arms bridal style, and carried me to his room and sat me on his bed. He layed down next to me and held me tight in his arms, I was still crying.
"Bella." I herd a voice call my name. I turned around, in the field I saw him, I saw Edward. He was ok I was so excited to see him I ran to him and leaped into his arms and hugged him. I didn't want to let him go, I didn't want to lose him again.
"Edward, what are you doing here? You died on me, but you're back. How are you back?" the questions sat there and he looked at me about to answer, but then I decided that I didn't want to know because right now it didn't matter. What mattered right now is that he was here standing in front of me. So I put my hand over his mouth, "On second thought I don't want to know. I love you and I've missed you so much. Our baby is healthy and growing." I hugged him.
I felt his hands on both sides of my face. "I love you too and I've missed you too. And I'm glad our baby is doing healthy." And he leaned down and kissed me. This kiss felt different, different than any others we've shared. "But I am gone Bella, I just had to see you one last time. I want you to be happy Bella, and if this Jacob will do it then I think you should be with him."
I didn't really know what to say, but I had to accept it. So I nodded and hugged him tightly not wanting to let go. We stayed like that for a few minutes. I looked up at him, "I love you Edward, I will always love you. No one can replace you." And I kissed him one more time. When I pulled away to look at him one last time, he was fading away. I could see right through his body.
"I love you Bella." He said to me one last time before he vanished. What was solid in my arm was now gone. I hugged my arms around my own body and knelt to the grown and cried. Everything around me was gone. I was all alone, and all around me was black. Nothing to be seen.
"EDWARD!!!!" I cried out hoping he would come back to me. But he didn't.
The next thing I knew, Jake was shaking me awake. He startled me. I didn't even realize I had fallen asleep.
"Bella, are you ok? I was outside in my garage and I herd you screaming" He asked as he knelt down next to the bed. He was scared something had happened to me.
"No, I'm fine. I guess I fell asleep huh?"
"Yea, you did. You cried yourself to sleep," he looked over at his little clock he had next to his bed, "you've only been asleep for 2 hours."
I sat up and looked Jake in the eye, and then my body took over, and I hugged him around the neck. "I'm sorry Jacob, I shouldn't have told you about my past. It most have been a lot for you to take in and you probably don't even believe me."
"I believe you Bella." He pulled out of the hug and put both hands on my shoulders. When I looked him in the eyes, he had such seriousness. "I believe every word of what you told me and I will keep it a secret, I won't tell anyone for as long as I live. And I am here for you s long as you need me."
I could feel my eyes get wet again, but this time from happiness. "Thank you Jacob." And I hugged him again. And we sat there hugging each other for what seemed like an eternity.
Jake pulled away and looked and we looked each other in the eyes. I still had my arms around his neck. So I pulled his face closer to mine. Our noses were now touching. I could feel his breath on me, heavy. And we kissed. Our lips brushed together lightly. After a little bit I felt his lips part, so I parted mine. I felt his tongue enter my mouth to play with mine and I returned and played with his. When we parted for air I pulled him onto the bed with me and he was now on top of me. He shifted his weight so he wasn't on my stomach. And then the worst thing in the world happened…
*Ring Ring* it was my phone, I picked it up of the night stand, it as Charlie. "Hi dad. Yes I'm with Jake. I don't know, when do you want me to be home. 9? Ok ill be home by then." I hung up the phone and looked at the clock, it was 5 now. Jake and I got up and off his bed.
"I'm sorry Bella, for what jus happened. It won't happen again." He looked to the ground in shame.
"It's ok, I liked it actually. But I still can't be with you yet. I still need a bit of time."
He nodded. "Well since you're awake now, do you wanna come out to the garage? I'm working on some motorcycles today."
"Yea, sure." I smiled at him and with that we went out to the garage.
Well I hope you guys liked this chapter ^_^. I'm stuck on what I should do for chapter 4. Anyone have any ideas? I have a bit of what I wanna write, but there are some gaps. I'm open to any ideas ^_^