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Edward tickled her skin as his warm breath cascaded down the back of her neck. She smiled to herself, his arms tightening around her waist and his breathing was calm. He was completely passed out on her bed. Bella wasn't facing him, they were spooning, it was their favorite cuddling position. Especially because they always connected their hands one way or another. It's been two months since Bella came to Forks for a summer visit. She's been completely blown away by how much her life has changed since coming here. She fell in love. She made new friends. Became part of a new kind of family. New bonds were formed. Only thing is...she isn't Edward's girlfriend yet. She wants to be, but he hasn't asked yet. It's been two weeks and he hasn't bothered. She can't figure out why either. Is he scared she'll reject him? Is he insecure about his own feelings now? Did they not move quick enough? Bella turned in Edward's arms and cupped his cheeks gently, her soft lips pressing against his warm ones. Edward stirred in his sleep and his eyes fluttered open. He smiled when he saw her, but he frowned as the sad look in her eyes. Why weren't her green eyes as lively as usual?

"What's wrong baby?" He asked, his voice cracking from just waking up. He didn't like seeing Bella so unsure looking. She seemed to be battling with herself. It scared him.

"Edward..." She whispered. He perked up and she pulled herself away from his arms and sat up in the bed. He followed her, looking at her, trying to get her to look at him. He grabbed her soft cheeks, her eyes stayed downcast. Was she mad? Was she upset? Had he done something wrong? Questions swirled his mind and he began freaking out like no other. What could possibly be wrong...she was just fine two hours ago. They were kissing. She was laughing. He was smiling. What could have gone down in two hours time? In a hundred and twenty minutes she went from ten to zero.

"Bells what's wrong? You have to tell me what's bothering you. What happened? Did you have a bad dream? Did I do something?" Edward questioned her. Bella shook her head, her eyes just wouldn't look at his. She was scared that if she did he'd be able to see her hesitation. To see why she was so upset.

"Bella come on tell me what the fuck is wrong, you're scaring me. What happened? What's wrong?" She could hear the panic in his tone, it was rising quickly and rapidly, she hated that she couldn't just speak up. That she couldn't just man up and ask him what was bothering her. Why was she so scared?

"Bella look at me." He begged and forced her chin to look at his face, her eyes were watery and his looked terrified. Thoughts swirled his mind. He hasn't cheated on her. They spend every chance they can together. He makes her happy. What did he do to her? Why is she behaving this way? Is she going into one of her depression episodes? He couldn't bare the thought of his Bella being like that again. He didn't like it.

"Why haven't you asked me to be yours officially yet?" She whispered. Edward had to strain to hear her, but the words hit him like a big yellow school bus. Why hadn't he? He was waiting for her. He was waiting until she told she was ready. He couldn't rush things with her. He knew it. He didn't know two weeks had been too long. Fuck he thought she wanted longer.

"I thought you wanted to wait longer, I was waiting for you to tell me Bells. I didn't want to push it on you." Edward stated. Bella shook her head letting it fall back down to her lap again. She knew it was her fault. She thought Edward could tell with actions. Actions speak louder than words. Why hadn't he realized how much she wanted to be with him?

"Actions speak louder than words Edward. I don't want to do all the work...I thought you could tell." Bella's voice was broken and tears fell down her beautiful face freely. Edward tucked her bangs behind her ears and wiped at her tears but they kept falling.

"Bella I-I didn't know I'm sorry. I wanted things to be perfect, I wanted you to make sure. I can't read your mind. I don't know what your thinking all the time. I thought you wanted more time, two weeks didn't seem long enough for your case. Why didn't you just tell me?" Edward begged for an answer. He was desperate. And he was beginning to get angry. She can't expect him to be able to read minds. She needs to be honest with him. Bella could hear the anger and it made her more upset. That was the last thing she wanted.

"Edward I'm sorry but I'm fucking scared. You have showed me love, I want you to be my boyfriend. But with you like this, I can't fucking see why I want you like that anymore. Why are you so angry?" She asked getting angry herself.

"Because I love you too but you told me to wait! You told me you needed time! I want you to be my girlfriend please, just I need you to be honest with me! I need you to be able to talk to me, if you can't tell me then how are we supposed to have an intimate relationship like that!?" Edward's voice shook and he felt tears come to his eyes. Bella got fed up with this.

"How about this Edward? How about you fucking come to me when your ready to talk and we'll get through this then! Until you realize this, stay the fuck away from me!" Bella screamed and got off his bed slipping her shoes on quickly. Edward bolted to his bedroom door blocking her way. She was getting really angry now.

"Edward move the fuck out of my way!" Bella shouted.

"Not until we get this shit figured out!" Edward screamed back. She rolled her eyes and she looked out his bedroom window. Rain clouds had been taunting the sky all day, rain was coming, a storm was. The beach was no place to be. Lightning flashed and thunder cracked. Bella felt scared and she wanted Edward to hold her. But she ignored her heart and went with her head. Which was telling her how angry she should be at Edward.

"MOVE!" Her voice was loud and aggravated as she shoved him out of the way and bolted down the hall and to his staircase. Edward pushed himself off the floor and chased after her, following her out into the rain. He needed her back before she did something rash.

The door banged open and slammed against the wall as Edward flung himself at Bella tackling her on the wet grass. The mud was squishy beneath their body weight and Bella screaming against the thundering sky as she struggled against Edward's strength. She didn't want to be near him. But then at the same time all she wanted was for him to hold her. Nights like these scared her the most, it always seemed to be like this on nights she was abused the worst.

"Get off of me Edward!" Bella shouted and she felt tears pour harder and faster from her eyes as Edward sat up bringing her against him.

"Not until we fucking talk!" He stood up picking her up and twisting her into his arms. She was beating his chest frantically trying to get him to release her. Edward wasn't letting go. He loved her too much. He didn't care that she was angry at him. All he wanted was for her to feel safe and to be in his arms.

"Please stop Edward and just let me go! Just let me go please!" She begged. He grabbed either side of her neck pressing his forehead to hers forcefully as they looked into each others eyes. Edward could see pain and regret in hers. Bella could see confusion and sorrow swimming in his dull eyes. They weren't the glowing honey they normally were. It made her sad and want to fall to her knees and just give up.

"I can't let you go Bella! You don't fucking understand how quick and hard I fell for you! It's so surreal, I just can't resist you. Even with my closet filled to the top brim with skeletons, you accept me. You caught me off guard walking into my life the way you did. Your love is the sweetest sin, I can't get enough of it, I feel weak when I'm with you. You own my heart now, I need you to take care of it. I'm scared about the way I feel, things are so complicated now, but I'm willing to take the fucking plunge to be with you. I'm not running and screaming anymore." Edward admitted, his voice loud over the thundering blanket above them. Bella's heart pounded and she choked on a sob as she grabbed his face in her hands, her fingertips skimming across his beautiful face. She couldn't believe the things he said, she never knew words could have such a powerful effect on her before. It's as if his loving and compassionate words melted away her fears.

"Oh Edward I don't want to hurt you! I hate fighting with you! I love you so much, I'm so scared I fell heels over head in love with you, your always on my mind and I feel as if I can't get enough time with you. I hate being away from you, the past couple weeks all you've done is prove to me how amazing you can be. I don't want to be without you anymore, I hope you think of me. I want you to think about me all day long. I want to be the only girl on your mind. I want you wrapped around my little finger." Bella said. She was smiling slightly and Edward played with her drenched hair slightly and then en-circled his large hands around her tiny wrists, his fingers touching all her different bracelets.

"I'd drive a hundred thousand miles if you'd let me stay a while. I want you to come back to me always. I want you and I to be all we think about. I want to forever feel this euphoria I've experienced every day since we met. The day we met was like a hit and run...I taste on my tongue still. You make me want you so bad it hurts like crazy, I'm so love drunk on you and I don't want to wake up hungover anymore. I want to know your mine forever. You own my heart...do I own yours?" Edward questioned her, his nose skimming her cheeks, their skin was cold and flesh together from the pouring tears from up above. Bella closed her eyes, his nose nuzzling hers, her hands exploring his neck and face and hair. She loves him. That much is obvious. She wants to be with him forever. She was this pounding heart to forever beat for Edward. She knows they're meant to be. She never thought she'd fall in love. She cleared her throat.

"If I had to fall in love with someone I'm glad it's you Edward. I want to own your heart forever and always." Bella admitted. Edward felt the lump fall down his throat into his stomach as a bomb exploded inside and butterflies erupted. His hands gripped her neck as he pushed his lips onto hers. Her hands remained on his face and she got on her tippy toes as he bent down to help her out. Their lips moved together in a rhythm neither has ever experienced. There was so much passion and want and need in their kiss. Their lips pulled apart and pushed back together fervently till Edward's warm, silky tongue skimmed her bottom lip, his teeth nibbling as she gasped and opened her mouth to him. His tongue claimed territory in her mouth, his tongue moving against hers and spelling his name against the roof of her mouth, he wanted to be the only tongue to enter her mouth ever again. She was his. Bella put all she could into this kiss, Edward kissed back with the same energy. They needed this. They wanted this. They kissed in the pouring rain passionately for minutes at a time. Hearts beating faster and faster they finally had to pull away and gasp for breath. Edward's forehead pressed against hers and he held her as close as physically possible. Her forehead pressed into his chest. He kissed her head softly and pushed her wet bangs from her face.

"I love you Bella, will you finally be my girlfriend?" Edward asked her. He smiled when her eyes lit back up and that smile returned to her face.

"I'd love nothing more than that, of course I will Edward."

le gasp they are finally together! it's about fucking time! haha if you guys didn't notice in both Edward's and Bella's speeches i used lyrics from boys like girls songs: "hero heroine" "love drunk" and "head over heels", just in case you didn't notice. listen to those songs, it'll help if you didn't already catch it! =D comments please!

~BabyBallerina95