At first I thought Edward and Rosalie didn't like me because I'm not beautiful like them. I know, how could I think of them as that shallow? Jasper seemed to put up with me just for Alice's sake. After all they were dating, and I was her new best friend. Emmett, he would make jokes about me tripping over or finding out that I accidentally called Mr Banner mum or even laughing when my bag broke while walking down the hallway and the whole contents of my bag falling out somehow, tampons rolling around on the floor seemed hysterical to him - at the time he had made a crude joke about blood and periods which the others laughed about - I didn't get it then, but then again I didn't know of their secret then.
You're probably wondering how I found out about the vampirism. You've heard Bella's story of discovery and now wonder if I was more clever or quicker. The truth is I had an inkling that it wasn't a normal secret they kept - there was something magical about them I just couldn't put my finger on it. I had heard the story of the Quilettes and Vampires a long time and it didn't register in my mind at all. Alice 'accidentally' let slip whilst we were shopping in Seattle once. I know, it doesn't seem like the Alice you know, it sounds more like a Emmetty thing. But it's the truth. The look on her face was of fake shock, it was obvious she had been dying to tell me, not because she wanted to shock me, but because by then she knew everything about my life and she wanted me to know everything too. Of course I was shocked at first but it didn't take long to realise I should have known all along. She then drove me back to the house, where Edward (who had at least become lukewarm towards me) came raging down the stairs at lightning speed and started yelling at Alice.
"How could you tell her what we are? Are you stupid? You know what were going to have to do now, don't you?" Then Rosalie came into the room, completely livid, "You nosy bloody stupid human!". The sound of the next voice frightened me, I had never heard her so angry, I thought the onslaught was going to be aimed at me but rather it was aimed at Rosalie and Edward, "HOW DARE YOU BE YELLING AT ALICE ABOUT LIZZIE WHEN SAID PERSON IS STILL WITHIN EAR SHOT. I CAN UNDERSTAND YOUR ANGER BUT WE HAVE BEEN TALKING ABOUT TELLING HER FOR WEEKS. EDWARD, YOU YOURSELF SAID WE NEEDED TOO. AND I UNDERSTAND YOUR REASON FOR NOT WANTING HER TO KNOW, WE KNOW WHAT THE CONSEQUENCES COULD BE." Esme then turned to me, "Now dear, are you ok? Do you want me to drive you home? I know today will have been a lot for you…" She had looked so upset.
I decided I didn't and Alice arranged for me to sleepover, phoning to tell Charlie etc. They then all sat with me and answered any questions I had about their 'condition' (that's what Carlisle called it). Eventually, when I had got all the answers I needed Alice and I went up to bed, where I asked her if I could speak to her privately, at that point Alice told me the rest of the family had gone out for dinner so I could speak freely. That's when the talk had turned to Edward, who I had what I thought was a secret crush on. "It's not a secret, he knows, Jasper knows, we all know." I was mortified but I should have guessed after learning of their powers. "It's ok… he likes you too... But shh! I didn't tell you". I then, bizarrely had started to cry, why? Well, the boy I liked could read my mind. "He can't you know" Alice whispered. "He can't what?" "He can't read your mind". Hallelujah. "I thought you were psychic not a mind reader", "I am psychic, but I'm also your best friend, and I can read you like a book". She winked and I fell asleep.
After, that I felt pretty awkward around Edward and avoided being in any room with him for too long which turned out to be a pretty difficult task considering after that day I basically started living with them. I slept at home (some of the time) and I still cooked Charlie dinner but I felt much more like a part of a family with the Cullen's then I ever did at the house I had lived in for so long.
One day Edward asked for me to go for a walk with him, he said he didn't want us to be awkward with each other anymore - which kind of made the conservation more awkward. But eventually we made it to the most beautiful meadow. He then admitted that he liked me, which of course left me astounded and silent for a few minutes until I managed to speak and admit I too felt the same. He had then started laughing at me, which had made me angry and confused, was he joking, was this just a sick joke? Apparently, it was because of how red I had gone, "the colour of a tomato" he had said. The truth was I hadn't told him the truth, I didn't like him, I loved him. I hardly knew him and yet I knew that.
Our relationship, shocked everyone at school, Edward the new boy and Lizzie the police chiefs daughter. Jessica and Lauren hardly spoke to me afterwards. Not that I was bothered, I had Edward, did I really need them? I was blissfully happy, Charlie didn't say anything but he couldn't not know that I wasn't and he couldn't not know the reason. The parents even knew of it, and Edward was always round ours, helping with the cooking and helping me tidy, no matter how much I protested. I slowly started to stop taking my anti-depressants, Carlisle kept an eye on me looking for any sign of me needing them again and talking to me every few weeks or so. All was, well great. Jacob, Quil and Embry were happy for me, Billy (Jacobs dad) not so much but I wasn't particularly bothered by that and pushed it to the back of my mind. The Cullen's weren't as thrilled for me to be hanging around with them. They didn't think it was 'appropriate' when I asked why, they said that they would tell me when I was 'older'. Which made me chuckle, I didn't plan on growing much older, I'd wait till I was seventeen and become one of them.
Edwards and mines relationship developed slowly, we were only able to do PG rated kissing and anything else was out of the question. But I didn't mind, I was so in love with him and he was with me, which is why after a year of us dating, he proposed, we were going to wait till I was 18 to get married, he wanted to ask Charlie's permission, but I asked for him to ask Carlisle instead. Yes, Charlie was my father, but he was never my dad - Carlisle was much more so.
Rosalie had started to soften. She would at least talk to me when was common courtesy to, she would even come shopping with Alice and I and pick out clothes for me to wear. Emmett was still the same old goof and very much one of the brothers I had never had, the other brother was Jasper. Who needed anti-depressants when you had a mood changer anyways? At first he was subdued but slowly he opened up.
A few months later, I attended my mothers wedding without any of the Cullens, and soon after that I had heard that Bella was thinking of coming to Forks. The Cullens thought it was a great idea, and so I suggested it to Charlie. Who of course was thrilled, I had to admit I was too. However, looking back I wish I never. It was the worse mistake of my life. Here's why…