Chapter 4 – Sunday, Edward
Sunday I lay in bed until 12 mulling over whether or not I was going to get up and reply to my ex's emails I had received this week. In the end, I decided to get up and reply, I had two emails from him this week, and each one had an attachment. One email had a picture the other a video. This was a new thing from Richie, he hasn't attached imagines or videos before, and it seemed he was pulling out all the stops to get me to forgive him and to go out with him again. I opened the first email and opened the attachment. The picture of him naked on his bed, a stunning picture, he looked just as good as he did when I was going out with him, he was and still is I think in the football team, he was a defensive player, defensive guard I think they call them, very unsure. All that mattered to me is that we got on great, we liked similar things and we enjoyed each other's company and it help he looked great with big muscles, I loved it when he hugged me, rapping his big arms around me, I felt safe and loved.
His email was similar to all the others he had sent since our break-up
'Samson I'm really sorry for the pain I put you through, I was only thinking about myself and my position in the football team and not us. I put football before you and I'm sorry. Since the break-up and you leaving I realize how much I love you and the pain of not having you in my life is unbearable and I know this is my punishment of how I treated you, I miss you, I love you.
Yours now and forever
Richie'
The other email was similar but the attached vid was of him wanking, god I love this vid I must have watched it about 7 times since I got back Saturday after Alice dropped me off. I cried the first few times, the vid took me back to before the break-up, and it reminded me how much I miss Rich. I then started to get angry that he made me remember the times together which I had put to the back of my mind since coming to Forks. Then finally loving the vid, watching him slowly wank himself all the time looking directly into the camera into my eyes, it was something I loved to watch him do when we were together. Him laying on the bed his back against the headboard while I sat in a chair and we looked directly into each other's eyes. He did this really slowly and lasted over 15 minutes; his body would get a coating of sweat on his body and would really turn me on making me so hot that after he would cum would make the sex we have after sooo much better.
My reply
'Hi Rich,
Why. Why did you send you last two emails with those attachments? I was doing great; I was forgetting about you and moving on with my life. Now I'm not as mad as I once was with you. I'm amazed you didn't do this before especially attaching a video like this one, you know what you doing that does to me, I'm very hot and very sexually unsatisfied.
But I don't know if I could every forgive you. I didn't mind people finding out I was gay I could cope with everything that would come; it was the way you joined in with everyone. That hurt and what made it worst was you continuing to come round as if you weren't doing anything.
I'm glad you're hurting and now realize how much you love me. I'm still angry at you Rich, I still love you, you know. You broke my heart and that's going to take time, so give me time.
Love Samson
P.S. I wait for more pics and vids'
I sent the email, and got ready for a late breakfast.
My mum was in the kitchen with work all over the kitchen table.
"Afternoon Mum" I wanted to get that in before she did.
"Afternoon, decided to join us have you. Did you have fun yesterday?" Mum said without looking up from her work.
"Yes thanks, had lots of fun, do you like my new hair cut?"
"What have you done, were has all your hair gone and the color?" the horror on my mum's face took me by surprise.
"Well with being in a new climate I thought a totally new imagine was needed?"
"Has this got anything to do with Richard, or is it new place, new look?" she questioned
"Nothing to do with Richie, I hadn't thought about him till this weekend"
"Why this weekend?"
"I received two emails from him and I decided to reply?"
I didn't mention the previous emails and text messages I had received from him, as she hit the roof when I told her what was happening and that Rich wasn't defending me but joining them, when he next came round she erupted and basically told him never to darken our door again and to stay away from me. I got some cereal and sat at the table.
"Be careful Samson; just make sure you make decisions with your head and not your heart. Whatever you decide, I'll go along with it, I just want to see you happy."
"Thanks mum. This evening I'm going to the Cullen's again this time to talk to Edward"
"You said he's been away this week, something about a family illness?"
"Yes, that's right, I have to asking him something's for a friend about his disappearance"
"For Bella wasn't it?"
"Yes"
"What else will you be asking him, I notice your eye's light up and the corners of your mouth turn up when you say his name?"
"There's a school dance coming up and I was going to ask him if he wants to go to it with me?"
"So he's gay then?"
"I don't know"
"Haven't you asked Alice or Rose if he's gay?"
"I asked Alice she won't tell me, she said it was for Edward to answer that question"
"Bit strange but far enough I suppose."
"Well I'm going to go and do the shopping for next week, do you need anything"
"Can you get me some shampoo and deodorant please?"
"Yes no problem" I put the bowl in the sink and left the house.
While shopping I suddenly thought about Rich and the email I sent to him, it suggested we might still have a chance of getting back together again. I know I still have feelins for him so what was I hoping is going to happen with Edward this evening? Did I want something to happen? What if something did happen what am I going to do about Rich?
All these thoughts continued to go round my head when I got home and put the shopping away. I then decided to wait and see what happens tonight, if it turns out Edward isn't gay I have nothing to worry about. If he is, then I will have to face the problem then.
I busied myself with school work and cleaning the house till 5:30 when I left my house to see Edward, my mum wished me luck as I left.
At the turning to enter the Cullen's long drive I saw Alice, stopping and lowering the window I said hi to Alice
"Hi Samson, just wanted to wish you luck"
"Thanks Alice"
Alice then danced off do the road I just drove down, meeting Jasper, who I hadn't notice standing by the road.
I continued down the Cullen's drive to the house, parked and walked to the front door and knocked.
The front door opened and a standing there was a new face, the face had golden eyes and I couldn't take my eyes off them.
"Hello, I'm Edward you must be Samson"
"Hi"
"Please come in"
I walked into the Cullen's house and saw no one else
"Are you on your own, I saw Alice at the start of your drive, she wished me luck?"
"Yes it's just us, why did she wish you luck?"
"I want to ask you something for myself, but first I wanted to ask you something for someone else"
"Ok, so what do you want to ask me this other person?"
Looking at all of Edward now, he had the pale complexion like the rest of his family. He had brown hair styled messy, the same height as me, and probably had slightly bigger muscles than I had.
I was attracted to him, and I didn't know why. Edward smiled and this just added to my attraction to him. I smiled back, normally I would fancy guys like Rich or Emmett, and guys with big muscles that made you feel safe when they hugged you. Edward turned his head slightly and giggled, why did he do that.
"Sorry did I say something funny"
"No, not at all, so this question"
"Yes, you probably know I talked to Alice about you leaving and the answer she had given, well that answer didn't cover the part where you asked if you could move classes after school, so what did Bella do to make you want to change classes?"
"She did nothing, I was angry with Rose and I project that anger onto Bella. Because Rose wasn't there I took it out on the next women I saw and because Bella was going to sit next to me I took it out on her and I shouldn't have and I will offer my apologies on Monday."
It would sound good when I told Bella but my sixth sense I knew it was a lie but why lie what was the real reason behind the behavior of Edward on Monday, sometimes I wish I was normal because this is going to kill me not knowing and I can't ask can I, sorry Edward you just lied to me because I have this sixth sense where I can tell when people lie to me so what is the real reason for your behavior towards Bella on Monday.
Edwards face changed to one of surprise and his eyes where locked into mine.
"Sorry did I say something" I asked
"No sorry, is that alright, do you think she will forgive me for my rude behavior on Monday"
"Yes I'm sure she will forgive you, so the second part of my being here, you know I have never done this before you'll be the first." I cleared my throat "Edward I need to ask a personal question and I really don't want to ask it in your front room in case someone comes back, I don't want to be interrupted this is hard enough for me as it is"
"Ok we can go up to my room"
Edward led the way to his room, he open the door and motioned for me to go in. I went in and sat on the bed, as I couldn't stand on my leg anymore I was shaking that much.
"Ok Samson what do you want to ask me?"
"You know this bed take a lot of room up how do you cope this having everything pushed to the side like this?"
Edward laughed out; it took me by surprise how loud it was
"Is that the question you didn't want my family interrupting?" Edward said between laughs
"No, it was just a delaying tactics question"
Edward stopped laughing and sat down on the bed next to me, looked me straight into my eyes
"Look, whatever you are going to ask me I promise I will not get mad"
Not breaking our eye contact
"Edward are you gay?"
Not breaking our eye contact and showing no emotion and not saying anything Edward wasn't moving
"Edward if you don't want to answer that question because it's too personal I understand and I can leave."
Edward not breaking our eye contact he took hold of my hands that were in my lap
"No stay, you know Samson the truth is I don't know, I haven't met a girl I wanted be with, and I have never thought I was gay, I just thought I hadn't met anyone yet, to be honest I thought I would never meet anyone."
Edward then leaned towards me, kissed me on the lips once. I sat still, I didn't move, I couldn't speak.
He leaned in again and kissed me stronger this time with more passion, his hands left mine and I next felt them on the back of my head, pulling my face closer to him, his mouth opened and his tongue probed my mouth, my hand slowly made there way to his face. Edward stopped kissing me and pulled away, my face must have shown my disappointment
"No I just wanted to get more comfy"
Moving to the top of the bed, lying back down, Edward motion for me to join him. Taking off my trainers I crawled up the bed making sure I was on top of him.
This time I initiated the kissing, slipping my tongue into his mouth I used the tip to roam around his mouth, his hands took hold of the back of my head pulling me closer to him. Are groins grinding my hands went between use I wanted to feel his chest, I pulled his shirt out of his pants and moved my hands up underneath the shirt tracing across his stomach with the tips of my fingers moving slowly up till I reached his nipples, I gave them a squeeze. Edward seemed to be omitting a low growl as I did this turning us so I was now on my back with him on top.
He sat on top of me taking his shirt off and then my top and returned to out kissing turning us back to our originally position with me on top.
We continued our dual with our tongues, my hands feeling every inch of his chest until I suddenly broke away from Edward, he tried to move with me to continue our kissing but I managed to get away from his lust fuel kiss, Edward laid there looking worriedly at me.
"I'm sorry" I got up off him and turned and sat on the edge of the bed rearranging my dick to a more comfortable position. "It's just, I don't know, this is moving too fast, it's too easy, I just wanted to ask if you were gay and then to go with me to the dance. I did expect us to end up making out on your bed. You know you never answered my question"
Edward moved to sit next to me again
"Your right, I never answered, you know I still don't know if I am, it just felt right, you just sitting next to me the look in your eyes you looked so kissable, I had to kiss you, and once I did, I had to kiss you again. I have never felt this way about anyone, I have never wanted to do this with anyone like I have with you, my be it's lust, maybe it's more than that, maybe it's love, I don't know I have never had these feelings before, maybe we can work this out together if you would like"
I took hold of his face in both my hands
"Edward if that means doing more of that on your bed then I guess I can"
"I think I can to"
With the tips of my fingers I slowly trace his jaw line, then his lips. Edward eyes close and I feel him shiver. "What do you feel when I do this?" I then kissed his lips, his left cheek, down his jaw line to his chin and then I started kissing his neck, I started on the left side, then move to his Adam's apple, then to the right side of his neck. Edward let out a low growl so I stopped knowing he was hot and ready for more.
"So Edward" His eyes shot open "how does that make you feel?"
Edward's chest was moving fast "Why did you stop, we can move back up the bed so you can continue down" he moved his fingers from his neck down his chest
Standing up I move to find my top, Edward grabbing my arm "what you doing?"
"I'm looking for my top, I have to go, I have school tomorrow, I've missed one class already and I've only been here a week, I don't want to then be late because I didn't get any sleep tonight and I won't get any sleep if I stay and continue that"
"Ok, so about the dance, if you don't mind I will take you in my car" Smiling his crooked smile.
Taking a deep breath to steady myself so I could answer him "That should be fine" 'I wonder if he knows what that smile does to people' I thought before turning to leave putting my top back on. When I got to the door Edward was there holding it open, I smile at him "thank you"
I step though the door but Edward grabs my arm again, I turn and Edward kisses me holding me tight in his arms.
"I don't think I will ever get tired of this" he says after we break
"I wish you could hold me like that forever" I whisper
I finally leave his bedroom and made my way down the stairs with Edward following me. At the bottom I saw Edwards brother Emmett watching sport on the TV, Rose and Alice sat on the sofa and Jasper on the Computer. Ignoring them I continued to the door I hear someone in the kitchen and I looked and say Esme.
"Hi Esme, hope your well?" I reach for the doorknob but Edward beat me and opens the door for me. "Your quite the gentleman aren't you Edward" I beamed at him.
"Hi Samson, how are you?" Esme said as she walked towards me
"Fine thank-you, you have quite a gentleman in Edward" again I smiled at Edward.
"Well I have to go so see you all tomorrow at school, see you again Esme, and I'll see you tomorrow Edward" I turned to leave when Edward called my name, I turned to face him and he kissed my passionately.
"I see you tomorrow Samson"
I heard some noise coming from the house as we broke from the kiss but I didn't care.
I smile at Edward "Bye Babe"
I got in my car and went home happy, very happy. I slept well that night after telling my mum the parent friendly version of what happen at my meeting with Edward.