A/N: Please note that this chapter will be the ONLY capter in first person point of view, from then on it will be third person and in one of the characters POV, mainly Bella's. Also, I will be trying to post a chapter at least once a week, so please no messages asking were the next chapter is. After a week has passed and if i still haven't posted a chapter, feel free to message me with your anger, trolls, or flamers. Thank you.
Chapter 1
Bella's POV
"It will be as if I never existed."
And with that he was gone, for months I sat in the rocking chair by my window, the one he would sit in as he watched me sleep, I'd watch as the seasons changed. It was like the life had left me, and I was just waiting for my body to catch up to that fact. I hardly slept, as my dreams were riddled with the nightmare of that day he left me. I only spoke when spoken to and even then, I didn't even register what I said in reply. I hardly ate, not being able to stomach much, and finding myself hating to eat, as it reminded me of another fact that I was once again a weak human.
It wasn't until Charlie mentioned the idea to send me back to my mother, that I snapped out of it and I was filled with a anger so deep I felt something snap in me. I wasn't weak, I had powers that made me possibly just as strong as any vampire, but even more so as I wasn't dependent upon blood to keep myself in control. While I feared my power, for fear of being found by the division and the parliament, I realized that if vampires can co-exist among humans for years and not be found out, then as long as I was careful, I shouldn't fear my powers. I decided then I would use them, train myself to I was no longer this weak pathetic human, and if I ever ran into Edward again I would show him exactly what he is missing out on.
From there I went to Port Angelus, in hopes of finding some books on self-defense, and lucky my I stumbled upon a dojo, that not only taught karate, but ninjitsu, (a/n: did I spell that right?) tai-chi, and kick boxing, incorporating them all together in one unique and powerful fighting style. Within a month and a half, because of my raging determination, I quickly rose up in the ranks, until I was even in power, skill, and strength with the dojo master.
Along the way my style had changed drastically, I no longer just wore what was there, with the money I got selling off all the designer clothes Alice insisted on buying me, even though I would never were it, I had enough money to get a new closet full of clothes and enough money that I could hide away in case of emergency. So I went about doing something I hate, shopping. I stuck mostly to cargo pants, and tank tops, but I did take some time buy clothes that made me seem more 'sexy', I guess. I even went a bit over going into a tattoo parlor, and coming out with several piercings on each ear that my hair could hide from my dad, and several tattoos, that either my clothes, or hair could hide.
The first being a tribal phoenix, of my own design, as I had taken up art, and was quiet good, and had it tattooed to the back of my neck, outlined in a silver white flames, that when under a UV light glowed, making the flames look like they were dancing. Symbolizing life, death, and resurrection, which in ways resembled my life. The second being a torn treble clef, the musical note, with a skull behind my left ear as a sign of that music is dead to me. As I no longer find joy or comfort in it anymore, as it is what Edward seemed to love most. And finally Japanese calligraphy, two words in rows half way down my spine, 'Comrade' for I will always be there to fight for those I love, and 'Friend' as I will never leave my friends behind. It's not finished those cause as time goes on I intend to get 3 other words tattooed below them, 'Lover' for whoever I end up with, I will be only theirs, 'Wife', for if I ever get married, and 'Mother' for if I ever have children of my own.
I started to also vigorously study anything I could get my hands on, not only in just regular school subject, but anything that could help me in case of an emergency, or if I needed to disappear and fast. Charlie still seeing that I spent most of my time alone mentioned sending me to my mother again, so I figured I would go hang out with Jacob Black, not only a friend, but someone who conveniently could teach me about mechanics. So here I was with two banged up dirt bikes I had found in the back of my old truck driveling up to the reservation.
Pulling up the dirt road to Jacobs house I stop next the old red house, turning off the engine stopping the roaring of my engine and stepping out of my truck. I see Jacob emerge from his garage, looking curious before a bright smile erupts on his face and he races over, picking my up in a hug and twirling me around. I laugh softly, "Okay Jacob, you can put me down now." My voice had changed some, as had my personality, gone was the quiet shy Bella, in her place was a confident and strong Bella, and I could tell Jacob noticed the change to.
"Bella, It's get to see you," He said finally putting me back down, and taking a step back to get a better look at me. Today I was wearing low cut, hip hugger black cargo pants, that ended just below my knees, with some black tennis shoes that looked more like they were made for running track, and rock climbing. And a black tank top that hugged my upper body, showing my curves, and newly formed muscles, with a grey tight zip-up hoddie. "Wow, Bella. You look great, last I heard you were still all.." He trailed.
Laughing I nodded my head, "Go on, you can say it, I was still all depressed and zombie like?" I asked with humor, laughing at Jacob's sheepish and embarrassed nod of agreement. "It's okay, for a while I was like that, but I'm over that, I realized that there is no point in wasting my life away for him, for any guy at that, it's better jut move on, and live." I smiled brightly at him, earning a smile in return. "Which brings me to two points," I added, "One coming to see one of my only guy friends, hoping to hang out and get to know each other a little better." I said winking at him, making his smile seem to brighten even more. "And, wondering if said friend will be willing to bestow his awesome car knowledge and such, onto me and possibly help me fix these two things up." I said walking to the back of my truck and taking the sheet off, hiding the two banged up motor cycles.
Jacob's eyes widened in shock before he glanced at me, then back to the cycles, then back to me with an apprehensive look. "Um, Bella? Are you sure your okay and not just taking on some suicidal hobbies to deal with fact that he is gone?"
I laughed, shaking my head, "Jacob I'm fine. No I'm not suicidal, I figured this would be a good way for us to hang out, you to teach me about mechanics, and when they are all fixed up something that we could do together, you know, taking them through some trails in the forest or something. " Pulling a sad puppy look over my face I look up at Jacob, slowly blinking my eyes to they got that glazed teary look. "So will you help?"
Jacob groaned pitifully, instantly willing to do anything for me with that look I was giving him, hell any guy would cave with that look. "Ah, come on Bella, you didn't need to give me that look I would have helped you any ways." He smiled a 1,000 watt smile at me, before moving towards the bikes. "Alright, lets moves these things to the garage." He said grabbing one and lifting it off the truck with such is it seem like he was lifting a pillow.
At this I finally noticed the change in his appearance as well, not only was he taller but this lanky limbs had filled out with large muscles. His shirt now a little too small for him was snug around him showing off the his well built chest. I found myself biting my lip in appreciation for the now almost god like body Jacob now sported.
Jacob after pulling down the second bike seeing my stare, a cocky grin slid across his face. "Like what you see their Bella?" He asked with humor evident in his voice.
I found myself subconsciously nodding, before adding, "Damn Jacob! You should lay off the steroids, after all I heard that they can have a... shrinking affect on certain parts of the male body." I said my eyebrows raising at the blush that covered his face, my eyes alighting with laughter.
"Oh shut up." He said, the blush never leaving his cheeks as he rolled one of the bikes towards the garage, I laughed following him with the other bike. Once inside the garage I turned to look at Jacob.
"Listen," I said causing him to look at me curiously. "Mind keeping the bikes just between you and me, cause I know if Billy knows, he'll tell my dad, and then my dad will start on how motorcycles are deathtraps and all that. So, can we keep this between us?"
Jacob laughed and nodded, "Sure Bella, I'll just tell him you'll helping me with the rabbit or something." He said motioning to the car his was fixing up.
After that he began dismantling one bike telling me what each part was, and what it did. Eventually he was finished and I set about taking about the other bike, repeating what each part was, occasionally needing Jacob to remind me. Once finished he began making note of whish parts were in good condition and which needed replacing, showing me how to tell the difference and how to see damage to certain parts. After all that I went home with a list of parts I'd need to buy and a promise to Jacob that I would return the tomorrow.
The next day I had woke up early, my intention was to go into the forest and find the meadow Edward had taken me to, and turn it into my own little training ground. Rising from my bed I pulled on my some spandex sliders, from my workout, and pulling some sweat pants over those, followed by a sports bra and a tank top.
Leaving a note for Charlie I headed out, I grabbed my bag from when I would work out at the dojo, and put a couple of water bottles in it, followed by a few apples. Grabbing the pocket knife I had found of my dads, just in case, I slipped it into the side of my shoe, before heading out the back door and into the woods. I figured while yes I could just Jump there, but since I haven't used my powers since I was 5 I might end up Jumping into the middle of the Atlantic, not my idea of fun. I also figured if I walked, it would be around a 3 mile hike, so round trip it would be 6 miles, and I could run that instead, making it part of my work out, and increasing my stamina.
As I walked through the forest I marked my path so it would be easy to find my way back, after all I didn't want to get lost again, and have my dad call in a search party for me again. I noticed as I hiked that I no longer stumbled and tripped over everything, maybe it was because of my new confidence, or maybe cause I was more balanced from the training I took up at the dojo. About an two hours later I finally reached the meadow, and for a moment I stood shocked as it wasn't the green flowery meadow anymore and everything was dead from the recent winter. I shook off the feeling and set my bag down by a the only tree that was in the meadow.
I stretched, my muscles already loose from the hike up here, after stretching I set about going through each of the forms of fighting, going from beginner to advance, and finally combining the styles together. After about an hour, I stopped going to my bag to take a quick brake, and wipe the sweat off that I had worked up. Before walking to the center of the meadow to start practicing my powers. I stood hesitant for a moment, for this would be the first time I have used my powers since I was 5, and a sense of fear gripped me for a moment.
After a moment I shook the feeling away, I was strong, and fear was a weakness I could not afford to have. I decided to start with my mover ability, I decided to start small and work my way up. Finding a rock about the size of a baseball I decided to use that, remembering the feeling I got when I last used my power I brought that to the surface, and I felt my eyes dilate. Slowly the rock started to float up, shaking badly as I practiced just holding it in the air until it no longer shook, then I started to slowly move it around the meadow, before it was soon just a blur. After I figured I had a good hold on it I practiced lifting two rocks at once, and began the whole process over.
By the time I decided to call it quits, I had around 15 baseball sized rocks floating around me. Slowly I placed each rock in a perimeter around the meadow, after all the rocks were finished I walked to the side of the meadow decided to practice my Jumper ability as I couldn't exactly practice Pushing as no one was around for me to push. I brought up the memory of the first time I Jumped, the feeling of it, the emotion, and what had happened that made me Jump. Thinking I had a good grasp I envisioned myself jumping to the other side of a meadow. In a instant, a feeling of being pulled, I was on the other side of the meadow. Breathing hard as the feeling was so different, I shook off the feeling and tried again. Soon I was Jumping all over the meadow, including in the middle of the air, up into trees.
After an hour I headed home at a run, and found myself home in about half an hour, thankfully it was easy to find my way home, thanks the marks I left. It was around noon by the time I got back, taking a quick shower to wash off the sweat, pulling on some cargo pants and a black t-shirt I was out the door, heading towards Port Angelus to pick up the parts I needed for the bike. And to maybe practice my Pusher ability on some random people.
Once there I quickly made my way into a mechanic shop going to the front desk, the guy behind the counter looked like a greasy creep, and by the smile on his face he probably was going to try and rip me off. Sure enough after telling him the parts I needed, and he rang them up they were twice the amount that Jake said they were going to be. Narrowing my eyes I decided he would be my first victim to try out Pushing on. Feeling my eyes dilate, I glared at him, 'You will give me the right amount on these parts, and since you feel guilty for trying to cheat me you will give me a 15% discount.' I thought. A blank look covered his face for a moment before he started to re-ring up the price all the while apologizing over and over for trying to cheat me.
Leaving the store with a smirk on my face, the parts I needed and quite a bit left over cash, I walked to a restaurant to pick up some Chinese take out for me and Jacob. As I waited for the food to get ready to Pushed random people to do little insignificant things, like trip over their own feet, jump in the air a few times, and for a little amusement hug the next random person they saw.
Finally leaving with the food towards La Push, laughing my head off I decided that to practice my Pusher ability I would do so at school, only little things as I didn't want people to start getting suspicions. After a 30 minute drive i pulled up to Billy's house, Jacob already coming out the door with a large smile on his face. Hopping out of my truck giving Jake a quick hug, I pulled back smiling.
"So, I brought food," his smile widened. "And the parts we need."
"I wish you still let me come I'm sure the guy probably ripped you off some on the parts." He said frowning as he helped me grab the food and parts, heading towards the garage.
"Actually he gave me a 15% discount, apparently I'm really cute." I lied putting a disgusted look on my face.
He laughed, but for some reason I felt like there was a bit of anger in his laugh as well. But I shook it off as me just imagining things. Once in the garage we ate first before starting to work on the bikes, all the while Jake teaching me as we went.
Over the next month and a half it became a routine. During the week, wake up at a inhuman hour, run up to the meadow, train, run back, shower, go to school, practice Pushing, come home, go to Jake to hang out and work on the bikes, then come home, study, and go to bed. On the weekends, wake up early, but not super early, run up to the meadow, train till around 1 or 2 in the afternoon, run back, go to Jake's, come home, study, and go to bed.
By now I probably held the knowledge of a junior or senior in college, and not just the basic stuff, in about everything, including weaponry, though I've never held anything besides the pocket knife I borrowed from Charlie, and the wooden weapons we used at the Dojo. I had also, after seeing a few video's of it on the internet, picked up free running, a form of acrobatics performed while running, using the world around you as your gym.
In my training, when I would run up the meadow i would free run, flipping over logs, running up tree's, using tree branches to vault myself up the tree further or over things. But I set a time making it so I had to reach the meadow within 30 minutes. So i had a few hours left to train my powers, and practice fighting.
My powers never seemed to have a limit, sure at times it's difficult but with practice it became easier and easier. With my mover ability, I could lift up to 15 boulders the size of cars at once, while shaky, and extremely difficult it was getting easier, I even incorporated my mover ability into my fighting, sending rocks and boulders at myself for me to fight off. Forcing my mover ability around me like a personal shield I could shatter basketball size rocks to dust.
With my Jumper ability I could now jump all over the world, picking extremely exclusive areas, with now cities, towns, or villages for miles around, and so thankfully I haven't met anyone yet. I could also Jump up to 5 car size boulders at once, whether they be moving or not, as long as they touch my body. I haven't been able to try more cause well, there's only little old me, and the boulders are huge, so not enough room for me to be able to touch more than 5 car size boulders at once.
With my pusher ability, I could make false memories, after trying them out on a kid at school and making him tell the story to his friends to see if I succeeded. I could now control up to 50 people at once, after making the students at lunch all randomly stand up and perform the electric slide all at the same time, I found I could even erase memories after erasing all of the students memories of said event. At times I felt guilty for controlling people and messing with them, but I always made sure what they did was harmless, and not overly embarrassing.
I also noticed my body began to change to, I grew taller, filling out a little more, and my body becoming more toned, at first I just took it for my training, but then as I thought about it these changes seemed to happen overnight. My skin also became slightly paler but seemed to have a golden like glow to it, and my hair was no longer wavy but straight, and mostly turning black but my bangs and random streaks in my hair turned a lighter brown color. And what was worse was that was that my appetite seemed to grow to monstrous perorations, well monsters for little me, as Jacob still ate probably 3 times as much as me. While I was a little worried I still took it as my body adjusting to my new lifestyle.
With Jake we had finished the motor cycles two weeks before and had taken to taking them out over the trails through the forest. Jake and I had become quiet close, he was my best and only friend as I stopped hanging out with the people at my school. We actually kissed at one point but found it to be too weird and now only saw each other as brother and sister. I had met his friends Quil, and Embry, they seemed like great guys until at some point they started to ignore Jake, and hang out with Sam and his 'gang'. Jake told me about Sam, and his little gang, and why he hated him, and even though I didn't know him, started to hate him as well.
I became a little worried for a while, thinking that one day Jake would start to ignore me, and start to hang out with Sam and his gang as well. I barely made it when Edward left, I wasn't too sure if I could take Jake leaving me too. Jake laughed at me, saying I was being dumb, and that he would never willingly hang out with Sam. And for a while I believed him to, until, that is when one day he came down with a fever...