Disclaimer: I do not own Sonny with a Chance, but my oompa loompa minions are working on it!
Drifting
SPOV
I looked away
I couldn't bear it.
His condition got worse
Day by day
Month by month
Year by year
Daddy wasn't coming back.
He was a vegetable.
I could have stopped him.
I could have
But I didn't.
I was too stupid
Too Naïve
Too Self-centered
To try
To try and stop him
How was I to know?
I should have.
How could I have helped?
I could have stopped him.
But no
He's gone
And won't be coming back
Not now
Not ever!
I looked up from my journal, poor dad. If only I had stopped him from going on the road that day. If only it wasn't my birthday. If only I hadn't begged him to hurry.
It was my entire fault. It was my entire fault my dad was strapped up to life support that he was dying, that he drove right off a bridge!
Yes, Sonny Monroe has a dad attached to an IV, on life support, who's a vegetable; barely hanging on. Then the unthinkable started the line flattened, and a noisy beeping ensued.
I looked next to me; Chad was there, my boyfriend. He didn't think I did anything wrong. He would always take my side, and tell me it wasn't my fault (even if it was.)
He was sweet, and I really liked him, but not even he could fill the void of missing my dad. Another sob left my lips, and Chad just hugged me to his chest, how could he love a killer?
I killed him, I killed my dad.
I killed every aspect of him:
His spirit
His happiness
His unstoppable smile all gone
And I did that to him, his own daughter; his only child
I looked over to Chad, who kept a strong face; he and my dad were close.
If only I hadn't been such a diva, such a drama queen!
He would still be here:
Laughing, smiling and all around enjoying life
My sweet sixteen: the best day of my life (so far), ruined by myself.
I ruined my own life; I dug a hole too deep to get out of.
No one wants to help me up; people try but my life can never be the same.
I can never be the same.
I want to get away
I want to get away from life and all its burdens
Most would call me a coward
But when did I ever tell anyone to think me as brave
Because I'm not
I found the easy route and that's what I'm going to do.
The same way I killed my dad I'll kill myself
I ran out of the hospital
Before Chad could catch up to me
I got in my rusty truck and drove
I drove fast
Until finally
I had arrived
I saw the bridge and stomped down on the gas
The car sped up and went clean through the barricade
The car went flying through the air
And hit the water with a splash
From impact the windshield broke
I was gushing blood from my forehead
Before I passed out I saw Chad's convertible pull up above
He looked down in horror
The last words I heard from him were," Sonny you can't do this, I love you."
I smiled and waved goodbye.
I heard his cries of sorrow.
But to my surprise he jumped
He jumped to come and save the day
Not today Chad
Not today
I passed out before Chad hit the water
The car was underwater in seconds.
I was never revived
And I was happy for that.
Because now my despair is over
And rests on someone else's shoulders
Hopefully they'll get through it
And live happily.
Not drifting like me into
Depression
Demise
And in conclusion
Death
I wish the best to all who have troubles
Don't take the same path as me
My troubles remain
Nothing has changed
Except now
My dad's not the only one
Dead
Author's note: I don't know why I wrote this, but it isn't Channy! I am sad! Tell me what you think. And I know I have horrible spelling and grammar! No idea why I wrote this, I confuse myself!