I collapsed against the cold stone wall.
Bu Bum. Bu Bum.
My heart hurts… Even though my Heart wasn't here… I can feel myself breaking… shattering.
"No one would miss me."
Those words were what haunted me, his indifferent voice, his assumption.
Then again, he didn't know I loved him. He didn't know that he made me feel like I had a heart again, my heart again.
No, with him gone, away from me, and his words haunting me, it felt like I had a hole threw my chest. Something missing. Something vital gone.
It was like losing my heart again. He'd given me my heart back and I'd gotten used to it.
Now… I'm shattered. He gave me hope and now I'm alone. Gone. I'm lost in a sea of sorrow… Because he's gone.
Bu Bum. Bu Bum.
I felt a tear slide silently down one cheek. It left a track, proof it had passed along the pale skin.
I was crying… The last time I'd cried had been when Sorahad disappeared, when my best friend had gone.
Even then, when losing my best friend, it hadn't been this bad. It hadn't hurt this much.
Bu Bum. Bu Bum.
I'd built up walls to protect myself… now they were all crashing down, tumbling into oblivion. Lost behind blue eyes, lost in the depths of the soul they used to shield.
Because of him.
I couldn't get him out of my head, sandy brown hair and dark, sea blue eyes. The determined stance and his soft smiles. His light laugh, echoing through the still air.
"That's not true! I would!"
That's what I'd yelled back as he walked away. Away from me.
He didn't even hesitate. He just kept walking.
I needed out of here. This place, everything in it, reminded me of him. Of what he had meant to me.
"Got it memorized?"
I'd jokingly said once. I never knew there was a truth behind those words. I had gotten used to him beside me. I'd memorized how he made me feel. Now it was gone.
However, I do remember how I felt. What it was like to be near him.
Love. Pain. Want. Laughter.
Bu Bum. Bu Bum.
The heart in my chest is whole, beating a broken rhythm as grief and sadness welled within me.
However my true heart is shattered. Tossed away.
My name is Axel. His name is Roxas.