Chapter 3

Humans have hearts, but not all of them use it, but ..you find every once and a while a pure heart between all the black ones , it attracts you to it , among all the blackness in the world , Of course , that pure snow flake – like heart is rare , hard to find and impossible to let go off.

My name is Alice Gordon , I have been living in new York city for 2 years now , the reason I left my original city is cause…there wasn't anything that was left for me to live for their.

Well…of course other then my family , but I was better off here , alone , no one and nothing , all I had was work , I work for the new York times news paper , the earth quick has taken everything from me.

I sit back, remembering that day...

My husband and I have had an adorable little girl called Angelina, our life was perfect, it was peaceful and easy, nothing to worry about.

She was 2 years old when it happened , there was an earth quick , and the building were living in collapsed to the ground , collapsed with lives of people and children , it turned out , it wasn't appropriate for living , it wasn't built right so it shattered , along with everything else.

I couldn't grab my daughter in my arms one last time , and my husband was gone too , the survivors were 5 , only 5 made it out , and I was one of them.

Only...our neighbors who survived went out with out their daughter too , Bella was her name , they cried and cried , just like I did , over our dead girls , I looked for my daughter when it was over , but I never saw her , but our neighbors found their daughter , I didn't see their daughter , they rapped her up in a blanket and covered her , the mum looked at me for minutes , like she hated me al though I had nothing to do with anything, I just lost my daughter and my husband , they found bodies , a lot of them , all had been taken to the hospital , they found a body of a young girl , I didn't want to look at it , I didn't want to see my daughter dead , they told me it was the only little girl they found , and since there was only 2 little girls in the entire building , Bella and Angelina , and they found Bella , then it must be Angelina .

My tears are falling down, cause of that black memory.

I lived there for years with my family , crying every day for my loss , I hoped I would one day wake up and realize it all had been just a dream , but it never happened .

My neighbors moved some where I didn't know, but I knew they moved with their little girl.

So I have no one now , am alone , all by my self , specially when I moved here , to new York

No mum can bare losing her child, nor can she let go of her little girl, nor can a father.

A parent's loss of a child is pain…pain that can't be cured.

" I am so sorry …really am " I watched as Bella's parents cried their eyes out , I just told them I lost Bella , that she died but I didn't tell them what we were doing in Boston , she didn't want them to know so I wont tell them.

"Rosalie …you have to be kidding, is she really gone?" Bella's mum Martha said through the tears.

"Yes and am sorry"

She said again "it's like she is meant to die! This is the second time, why god why?...ohh dear Isabella "and she cried harder.

Wait a minute …second time? What does that supposed to be mean?

Did Bella die before? How is that possible?

When you close your eyes and you open them again, what do you see? Same scene right? I opened my eyes but I saw some thing I have never seen before.

Who am I? And what am I doing here? What is going on?

I was in a hospital I guess.

The doctor came and checked me, he said my name was Bella Black, but who is she? I didn't know who I was, and I told him that.

"You were really injured when you got here, and there was no room we could put you in! you needed special care , so we put you in a room with another young girl , the poor one she died after you arrived , but anyways , you are safe now ok , and I guess you lost your memory dear one , would you like to stay at the hospital or would you like to go out ?

"I don't know"

"You can stay for few days and then we can let you out"

"Ok"

Where am I? What is going on? What happened to me?

I spent 2 days in the hospital and then I went out , I knew no one and nothing about my self , not even a cell phone , I had nothing.

I walked a bit and I saw a jewelry store , I thought I should sell thia necklace I was wearing , it was the only thing I have , I didn't even have money so I thought I should go and sell it and get some food or something , I hope it gets me a good price.

As I was about to enter the shop a woman gasped.

"How is it possible? I thought you died Bella!"

"Do you know me? Because I don't know who I am"

" Yeah " she told me how she met me in a plane to here , and how a car hit me and ran away and how a friend of mine was with me and then she left cause they told them I was dead and she took my things with her , and so my name is Bella for sure.

"Nice lady can I live with you? I don't know anything about my self, I don't remember anything"

"Of course you may sweetie, come on I will take you home and feed you" I went with her, I didn't know if it was a good choice or not, but at that point I knew nothing.

She wasn't so old , she was maybe in her 40s or 50s , but she was nice and I guess what she was is true cause she said Bella and the doctor in the hospital said my name was Bella so I guess she isn't lying.

Her house was fabulous, it was a little big but wonderful, so classic and pretty.

"I love your house"

" thank you " she smiled then said " come on I would like you to meet my son " she led me to her son's room , I walked with her till we reached it , she knocked on the door and he opened and suddenly I was out of breath.

My lungs couldn't push air any more and my heart was too weak to bump blood and my legs couldn't hold me anymore.

He was….something words can't describe.

He was tall, with dark blue eyes and dark brown hair, he looked like a model with a perfect body, there was something about him that attracted me to him the first time my eyes caught his.

"Lucas …I would like you to meet Bella, the girl I told you I met her in the plane"

"Hi" his voice struck me, it was soft and vivid.

" but mum didn't you tell me she died ?" his dreamy eyes made me dizzy I couldn't even talk that's why I acted like I was too shy to talk.

"Yeah it turned out she didn't, here she is, but she lost her memory so she has no where to go so she will stay here with us"

"Sure" he smiled a huge crocked smile that left me breathless" nice meeting you Bells"

"Thank you" I managed to say that in a whisper.

"Come on sweetie ill show you the rest of the house and I will show you your room" she took me away as Lucas closed the door of his room.

"I forgot to ask you, what is your name?"

"My name is Catherine sweetie"

"And where is your husband Catherine? If you don't mind me asking or calling you Catherine"

"No I don't mind at all, my husband and I had a divorce when Lucas was 9 years old, he was cheating on me so I had to put an end to that"

"Ooh" there was something else I wanted to know, "so how old is your son?"

"Lucas is 17"

"Oh ok"

"How old are you Bella?"

"I don't know"

"Oh right I forgot am sorry"

"Its ok, I just hate it that I don't know anything about my self, the doctors tried to help but …nothing"

"You will get your memory back one day sweetie"

"Thank you, for everything, I don't think all people are this nice, I mean you will let me stay at your house!"

"Don't say that, it's my pleasure sweet heart ...now, here is your room" she opened the door, it was nice and simple a big bed in the middle.

"You can lay down and relax darling"

"No I rather sit with you out side if you don't mind"

"Sure" Lucas had her hair but not her eyes, his eyes were prettier

The hospital wanted to hand me to the police but I didn't want to , they said the police can find my family but I pretended I remember everything so I can go out , no way I was going to the police.

I sat out side with Catherine as she told me about her self, Lucas went out of his room and came and sat with us, I couldn't help but look at him.

He looked bored so he said "mum…maybe I should take her for some fresh air, maybe she will remember something"

"Yeah sure, take her for a walk by the beach it will be good for her"

"Ok"

"But don't be late"

" sure , sure " I didn't like that idea very much cause every time I looked at him I started shaking , imagine walking with him alone ! But I didn't want to say anything, what will I tell them?

"Come on Bella" I got up and he started walking we closed the door as we went out.

We started walking around the crowded street.

"Um…where is the beach" I couldn't even talk, that came out as a whisper, what was wrong with me? .

"Its really close, I go walking to it almost every day, don't worry I wont kidnap you" he smiled and I did to.

We reached it in few minutes, it was gorgeous, the blue water was pure and pretty, the calm waves smashed the little kids gently, everything on that beach was calm and relaxing.

I sat down.

"So …what do you think of our beach?"

"Lovely" was all I could say.

He sat next to me and I got nervous.

"I usually come here when I want to relax; it's a pretty nice place"

"Yeah it is"

"Um…Bella, your white as a ghost, you want me to get you something?"

"Water would be good if you can"

"Sure, my mum would kill me if go home with out you " he smiled and went to get me water; there was a little cold store.

"Here you go" he gave me the bottle and our fingers touched a little bit.

I drank it and felt a little better.

I was crying.

"Heeyy, why are you crying?"

"I don't know who I am, I don't know where I should be …" I trailed off when he hugged me; his sweet scent filled my lungs and made me smile a little bit.

"Its ok, calm down, you will remember everything soon, it's just a matter of time, don't worry shhh"

I cried and cried, but what was the point? I couldn't remember anything.

He lifted my head with his finger tips:" don't cry, everything will be just fine "I stopped for a minute" do you feel any better?"

"A little bit" I was feeling a little better "do you really think I will get my memory back? Or will I live like this forever?"

"Of course you will get it back, just give it some time" and he smiled a little gorgeous smile.

" Would you like to go back home and relax a little bit?"
" no we just got here, I want to stay a bit"

"Ok, your wish is my command"

After few minutes of silence "why are you nice to me? You and your mum, I mean …you don't even know me"

"well…my dad actually was never nice to my mum, he hit her and cheated on her, which taught us that if your mean to some one they wont love you and we are just nice with people, we don't want them to think my mum and dad divorced because my mum was a bad woman, and come on cant humans be nice to some one? …" I cut him off "yeah of course there are a lot of nice people but not to strangers like me ..."

" well…we just wanted to help you it isn't so hard and besides …maybe we are suckers for green eyes " I blushed and looked down , my pulse was running faster then ever , of course he didn't mean it in any way I wished he would , but it still made my cheeks turn red and I looked right into the beach.

After few minutes, the sun began to fall down; the sun set was a picture I will have in my mind for ever.

"Come on, let's go home"

"Ok" we walked back home, when we went inside Catherine wasn't their.

"Maybe she went to one of her friend's house" he said

"What will I do alone?"

"Hay what am I? A wooden chair?"

" hahaha I didn't mean that , of course not , but am sure you would want to spend more time with me , I mean I have bored you enough at the beach and …" he cut me off " I decide that not you " he smiled and sat in front of the TV.

We sat watching TV till Catherine came home, she was in our neighbors house, she cooked dinner and we at in silence.

"Bella …" Catherine said as we were eating.

"Yes"

"Is there any thing you need that I can get you? Tomorrow we will go buy clothes for you, you can't stay in these forever!"

" no , I rather you don't , I am enough bother already , I rather work and buy my self few clothes and pay at least a bit of a…" she cut me off" young lady if you think I will let you pay anything your wrong , at least for a while then we can search for a job if you want and then you can do what ever you like , but you are more then welcome to stay here , I would really love it if you did , and conceding we don't know how old you are we cant get you in school or anything "

"I know, thank you so much for everything" I smiled.

I finished eating and excused my self to go sleep in my room.

I lay in my bed thinking, what will I do? What CAN I do?

When I heard Lucas scream:" BELLA!" I ran out side, to see Catherine on the floor, he yelled:" I will take her to the hospital, you stay here"

"No am coming!"

"Fine, let's go!" we went out running , he was carrying her in his arms , he opened the car which I guessed was his , and got her inside , for a second 2 things came to my mind al though it wasn't the right time.

1. Does have a license? He is 17?

2. Should I sit back or front? Of course I knew the answer to that.

I sat at the back with Catherine, I tried waking her up but no use, Lucas drove as he could, he took us to the same hospital I went out off, apparently it was the closest hospital to the house

They got her into the emergency room; I didn't know what was wrong with her.

"It's her blood pressure for sure" he was going and coming like a crazy person, of course I mean she is his mum, and BP can kill people.

"Don't worry she will be fine " I smiled so he can smile and relax but no use.

"Bella, I can't lose her, I have no one!"

" I know , but its ok she will be just fine am sure , she is a strong woman " he was taller then me , but I lifted my hand and put it on his shoulder to comfort , a shock went through my spine.

But I smiled.

He patted my hand and smiled, and the doctor came out and I removed my hand quickly.

" hi son , don't worry your mum is perfectly fine , she just needs to rest here for the night , her BP was a bit high , but she is ok now " the doctor smiled and we did too.

"Did you hear that? My mum is fine"

"Yeah I did" I smiled "I told you she will be"

"Yeah, come on lets go see her"

We went in and she was a wake.

"Hey" I said as I stood next to her.

"Hi darling, am sorry you had to come and …" I cut her off" don't say that , its ok , but don't scare us like that again please"

"Ha-ha I will try"

"How are you feeling now mum?" Lucas said.

"I am fine sweetie don't worry "as she stroke his face" come on, take Bella and go home , you need to rest I will be fine "

"But mum, let us stay with you here tonight"

"No you need to go home"

"But…" she cut him off:" just go…I am fine"

"I rather stay here with you" I said.

"No you have to go and don't worry it's not Lucas would kill you while sleeping or anything"

"Cant I stay here with you?"

"No you have to go" Lucas was fighting a smile for a reason I didn't understand.

"Ok we will go, feel better soon ok?"

"Sure, sure, just go"

"Ok bye mum, see you tomorrow"

"See you, take care of your self" we said good bye and went out side, and I wondered again …hmm…

When we were in the car, Lucas asked:" why are you sitting in the back?"

"Umm…no reason" we got home and I walked right into my room.

"Bella?"

"Yeah"

"Goodnight"

"You too " I blushed and went inside.

This was my life for now, with Catherine and Lucas, Catherine went out of the hospital and she was okay , she went with me to buy some clothes , I was a shamed she had to buy for me , but she was okay with it so I didn't say a thing, I couldn't pay anything because I didn't have money , I wanted to sell my necklace but Catherine refused I do that , she said it was too pretty to be sold , so I didn't sell it,, Lucas is such a great guy he is really nice and he treats me like am his own sister , he is in vacation out of school , their holiday is for 4 months and it just started a week before I came.

This was it , I was living with people I didn't know , I didn't even know who I was , I knew nothing of course , but I trusted them , they wouldn't hurt me of course , but what hurt me was that I didn't know my self.