Fall Away
A D.Gray-Man Fanfiction
By SisterWicked
Chapter Three
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Well, surprisingly enough, I think people actually like this! i guess I should get happy and write a lil more then..
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Last Time -
Feeling the boy's breathing hitch, he laughed. "That's why you're still pure, Lavi. No one with a heart would waste their time on you, but you said it yourself.." He shifted, stepping close as he allowed his clothing to phase through his body with a soft rustle of fabric on stone. "I have no heart."
The smile in his tone was unmistakable, as was his intent. The sensation of his bare skin against the boy's back brought him to full alertness, the slight ringing in his head forgotten as the man's hand settled firmly on his hip. For once, Lavi truly regretted his habit of speaking first and thinking later.
Ignoring the painful consequences, he jerked away, pressing hard against the stone in an effort to create a distance between them. Tyki hummed in dark amusement, following.
"Will you go back on your word, Lavi? This is what you agreed to, after all.." He leaned heavily against the shaking Exorcist's back, his free hand sliding over his trapped arms. "Your mouth brings you trouble, doesn't it? I had almost begun to wonder if there might be something in that pretty little head of yours, but I suppose your ignorance leaves little room for anything else."
Laughing softly, he almost missed the boy's choked sob. Pulling back, he angled his head to look at the Exorcist's flushed face. "Are you crying, Lavi? Do you fear me that much?" Lavi turned his head, avoiding the man's curious stare. Frowning, Tyki swung him around, bending closer to meet his gaze. "Look at me! What's wrong with you, boy? There's nothing to be afraid of, didn't I say that I won't hurt you?"
Lavi shook his head, his eye clenched shut despite the tears that escaped him. "I'm not!" He hissed, twisting away. "I'm not afraid, and I'm not like you!" His voice rose, the words shaky but determined. "I can't care about people, but you could! You had a choice, and you became the way you are! You're disgusting because you threw away what I would give anything to have, you bastard!"
He opened his eye, glaring up at the astonished Noah. "You're right that no one gives a fuck about me, why would they?! Even if they wanted to, I couldn't let them! You could have been a decent man, and you just let that go for this!" His voice rose to a shout, even as he continued to weep. The utter anguish in his expression halted the older man's angry retort, his grip loosening slightly as he blinked.
"You really don't know.." He murmured, shaking his head. "You think there was ever any choice? No, Lavi. The person I was never had one." Seeing the boy's eye narrow, he laughed. "I was born with the Noah within me, Lavi. When the time came for it to awaken, there was nothing that could be done."
Leaning down, he met the other's eye from only inches away. "All I am is a vessel, Lavi. This body was created to give form to the pleasures of Noah, nothing more." Taking advantage of the boy's confusion, he crossed the space between them, catching his mouth with almost frightening gentleness.
Lavi bolted upright, gasping in surprise as the man's fingers stroked at his skin. The slick wetness of the other's tongue against his lip left him shivering anxiously, a quiet whine rising in his throat as Tyki took hold of his hips. His instincts screamed at him to fight, but he couldn't seem to obey, the man's disturbingly cautious touches leaving him shaken.
After a moment, he relaxed, allowing the older man to pull him closer. Hearing his questioning hum, he shook his head slightly, leaning away from the contact. He opened his eye in surprise when the man let him move, and stared at him in speechless astonishment when he smirked. "You..How..What are you?" He blinked rapidly in disbelief as he took in the man's altered appearance, his eye widening in shock at the lightened color of his skin and eyes.
Where the man's features were the same, he could almost have been a completely different person, the shade of his skin paled to a light olive. His formerly golden eyes had also changed, the pupils humanly round against deep grey irises that were only just lighter than a true black.
With a flash of recognition, he realized that he knew this person, had seen him once before, if only for a short time. "The train, you're the one Allen played poker with when we first met Crow-chan! But you can't be!" Aware that he was raving, he shook his head. "When did you turn?" He demanded, glaring up at the amused man. "You were human when we met you! You were with normal people, Allen would have been able to tell if they were Akuma.."
Tyki nodded blithely. "They were human. As for when I became Noah, it was long before that, Lavi. I told you, didn't I? You know nothing of me." Leaning close to the still-shocked Exorcist, he laughed. "I'm not like the others, Lavi. There are two sides to me. The one you hate so much, and this one." Unconcerned by his unclothed state, he frowned mockingly. "I wonder if I should be insulted.. Even though you stared at me when we met, you didn't remember this body, did you? It's exactly the same, isn't it?"
He turned in a slow circle, smirking at the boy's sharply indrawn breath. "Even without the shorts and glasses, I find it hard to believe that you'd forgotten something you watched so closely."
Lavi flushed to the roots of his hair, looking away. "I didn't!" He protested, shaking his head. "I watched, that's my job!" Tyki snorted, stepping forward until the other tensed visibly.
"Is it also your job to undress a stranger with you eye, Lavi? The way you looked at me was positively indecent.. I wonder if anyone else noticed?" He smiled at the redhead's wide eye. "Did you think about me later, when you sat down to put your memories to paper?" He mimed writing with a finger on the boy's chest. "I'd be willing to bet anything that you thought about me very hard.. That night, at least." Raising an eyebrow at the Exorcist's deepening blush, he lowered his voice conspiratorially.
"You can tell me, Lavi.. Did it make you come like before, touching yourself while you thought about a man you'd just met?" He continued to trace idle designs on the boy's skin, lingering over the slight dip of his waist. "Would it lessen your shame if I told you of my own preoccupation, Lavi? I thought of you, that very night.."
Leaning in abruptly, he nipped a teasing line along the redhead's throat, licking over the skin of his jaw with a smile. Murmuring quietly against the rapid thrum of him pulse, he tightened his grip on the other's waist. "I wondered what it would feel like, to fuck you so hard that you'd scream when you came.. Did you think about that, Lavi? Did you bite your lip to keep yourself quiet, like you are now?"
He laughed at the boy's strangled gasp, pressing a hand against the small of his back. Pulling him forward, he rocked into his body with a soft hiss. "You still wonder, don't you? Just hearing me say it is enough to make you shake like this." He lifted his head, forcing the younger boy to meet his gaze. "My other half has lost interest, I think.. But this part of me still wants that, to hear you beg and plead for more."
Lavi closed his eye tightly, refusing to reply. Clenching his hands, he ignored the sting of his nails digging into his palms. Feeling the man's breath against his face, he jerked, staring up at him fearfully. "What you look like doesn't make any difference." He growled, struggling to lean back. "You're still the same, inside!"
Tyki hummed in amusement, shaking his head. "I told you, my Other is not me. This side of me is human, Lavi. Just like you." He punctuated his words with a slow roll of his hips, his hold keeping the redhead still as he repeated the motion. "And just like you, I want to answer that question. Is there anything in particular that you thought about, a place or a position that excited you? The floor here is hardly comfortable, but I had imagined looking at you, watching your face while I took you.."
He smiled briefly at the Exorcist's shiver, urging him back to the wall. "Would you like that, Lavi? I would hate to make this less than memorable, after all." He caught the redhead's mouth firmly, using his surprised gasp to gain entry for his insistent tongue. Thoroughly exploring the expanse of his back, he took hold of the other's shoulders, pushing him down to his knees before pulling away. "Will you let me have that much, Lavi? Like that, with your legs wrapped around me while I make you scream?"
Lavi shook his head, ignoring the wave of embarrassed arousal brought on by the man's quiet voice. "I said I'd let you, didn't I? Just shut up and get it over with!" He shivered at the coldness of stone against his skin, flinching when the other leaned over him with a deceptively mild smile.
"Is it unpleasant, Lavi? Perhaps this really isn't the proper place for these things.." He took a firm hold on the boy's waist, his free hand catching the embedded chain. "Don't fight me, I'd hate to lose half of you along the way.." Before the redhead could form a reply, he felt a shocking sensation of cold and motion, and the room vanished into darkness. Yelping in surprise, he blinked uselessly in an effort to see.
A mere heartbeat later, he winced, instinctively closing his eye as light and color abruptly returned. Ignoring the older man's soft chuckle, he turned his head, gazing curiously at his new surroundings. The room was large, but not overly so, the walls colored a vivid deep green. The furniture was sparsely distributed throughout, a dark wood with silver handles that caught the low light. Against the nearest wall was a bed, the curtains and spread matching the furniture in hue.
Looking back at the silent Noah, he scowled, annoyed at the man's amused expression. "Nice. I would say I'm impressed, but I don't like to lie."
Tyki smirked, nodding. "Of course. I don't particularly care for it myself, but the bed is much more comfortable than a bare floor." Without waiting for a reply, he strode toward the aforementioned object, pulling the spluttering boy along by his chained arms. Stopping at the edge, he fixed the other with a serious look. "Do you remember what I told you about childishness and games, Lavi?" He smiled at the Exorcist's grudging nod.
"Good. Another thing.. This part of me may be much closer to human than the other, but my power is unchanged. Do not make any foolish assumptions, Lavi. Do as I tell you, and no harm will come to you." He reached forward, catching the redhead's bound hands. "Come here."
Glaring at him fiercely, Lavi complied, stopping directly in front of his captor's equally nude form. He jumped in surprise when the man pulled forcefully on his bindings, drawing them through his body with a metallic clink. Laughing at the boy's stunned expression, he dropped them carelessly to the floor.
"Much better.. Now remember what I told you, Lavi. Keep your word, and all will be well." He smiled, taking hold of the redhead's shoulders. Keeping him still, he leaned in, covering the other's lips with his own as he turned him back against the bed's edge. Urging him down, he sighed into the kiss when the Exorcist's body tensed.
"Relax, Lavi." He murmured, pulling away only as much as was needed to speak. "There's no reason for you to fear this, I don't intend to ravage you just yet." He frowned at the boy's quiet snort, moving his hand to catch his face. "Your distrust is also unwarranted. I can be more forceful if I must, but that would be much less enjoyable, wouldn't it? Do you want me like that, Lavi?" He pushed firmly into his body, catching him off guard. The Exorcist braced himself on his elbows, refusing to lie back fully even as the man's bent knee came to rest between his legs.
"I don't want you at all! Rape is rape, Tyki, whether you force someone with blackmail or chains!" Turning away, he avoided the man's silent stare. "I said I wouldn't fight you, but I'm not going to lie about it. Even when I did wonder about you, it wasn't even close to this." He closed his eye tightly, shaking his head. "I thought you were human, Tyki. The person that I wanted doesn't even exist. None of it meant anything."
Tyki hummed quietly, smiling at his renewed blush. "Nothing, Lavi? I doubt that very much." Turning the other's head to face him, he smirked. "It wouldn't bother you as much as this if it were nothing. I think you're lying, to both of us." He stilled the Exorcist's denial with a shake of his head. "You can lie to yourself as you like, Lavi, but you can't lie to me. I can still see what it is that you want, and knowing what I am hasn't stopped you." Leaning in, he tipped the boy's face up to meet him, licking at his lips with a sigh.
"What did you imagine, Lavi? When you thought of this, what was I doing to you?" He stroked the boy's side carefully, watching the play of anxiety in his expression. "Did you think about my touch, what it would feel like to have my hands on you instead of your own? Tell me what you saw, when you did this to yourself." Feeling the muscles beneath his hand shudder, he smiled. "Do you remember how it felt, Lavi? Tell me what you did, when you were lying there in the dark, wishing it was me.."
Lowering a hand to the boy's hip, he smiled at his reddened cheeks. "It's nothing to be ashamed of, Lavi.. Don't you want to know how it really feels? Anything you imagined could be real, if only for tonight." Watching the Exorcist closely, he moved forward, pushing him further into the bed.
"Was it like this, Lavi? Did you take your time with it, or were you too impatient for that?" He dropped his hand to the boy's thigh, stroking the skin in small circles. Lavi gasped soundlessly, closing his eye.
"I didn't..You.." Shaking his head, he blinked rapidly. "It wasn't like this." He mumbled, averting his face. "I didn't have long, so.."
Tyki nodded encouragingly, his fingers sliding higher as he leaned in. "It was brief, then? No teasing, no build up of wanting, just a quick fix for your need? How unfortunate.. Perhaps I should do what I wanted, then." He bent his head, tracing the rise of one shoulder with his lips. "Will you let me do that, Lavi? I would hate to simply rush through this, there's more than enough time to indulge you."
Nipping at the boy's ear, he urged him down. "How did you really want it to be? Like that, fast and done with, or was there more to it? I could do that, if you wish, but I would much rather take some time with you.." He laughed at the redhead's obvious surprise. "Don't mistake me, Lavi. I want to have you soon, but I see no reason to deprive you of something beyond a quick fucking."
The boy paled slightly, his hands clenched. "It doesn't matter." He growled, fighting to keep his voice steady. "I don't have anything to compare it to, so it's all the same." Tyki shook his head, holding the redhead's gaze squarely.
"You have your imagination, Lavi.. Did you regret the brevity of it? Not knowing what it really feels like would certainly make a difference." He moved the hand on the other's thigh to his knee, pushing his leg upward. Resuming his hold on his bare hip, he slid forward, pressing against the Exorcist firmly. Resting his weight on his bent arm, he bent to lick over the boy's suddenly-increased pulse as he shifted his weight. Hearing the sharp catch in the redhead's breathing, he repeated the movement with a soft hiss.
"Did your hand feel like this, Lavi? Or is this better?" Continuing his slow rocking, he moved his mouth to the boy's jaw, kissing the point just below his ear. Lavi shuddered, swallowing a brief sound of surprise. The older man hummed in agreement, nipping at his earlobe. "It isn't the same at all, is it? Did you shake like this, when it was only a fantasy?"
Gasping a quiet negative, Lavi closed his eye to avoid the man's gaze when he lifted his head. Feeling the other's hand on his side, he jumped, eye opening in shock at the flash of pleasure that the movement provoked. "What-" He broke off, flushing in embarrassment. Tyki laughed, sliding his hand beneath the boy's back.
"Being touched is good, but touching someone else can be better.. Try it again, if it pleases you." Hesitantly, Lavi raised his hips, pushing upward almost fearfully. Humming in approval, Tyki moved to meet his uncertain attempt. "Is it good? Do as you will, Lavi.. There's no reason to be afraid." Bending his head, he sighed against the other's mouth. "Do you know how this is done? There are things that need seeing to, or it could be quite painful.."
Lavi tensed, nodding faintly. "You have to.. use something." He mumbled, looking away. "If you don't, it won't be.." His face heated abruptly, forcing the man to stifle a laugh. Lavi frowned, ignoring the slightly choked sound of his voice. "It wouldn't work unless you had something wet!" He blurted, turning back to meet the other's eyes. "You'd better have something, too. I'm not letting you do anything if you don't."
Tyki did laugh then, amused at the boy's stern expression. "I was only asking if you knew, Lavi. Don't worry about that, I hadn't intended to try without it." He smiled darkly, the movement completely serious. "Blood dries far too quickly to be of use, after all." Noting the redhead's wince at the reference, he sighed.
"If you know, there's no need to explain it.. Stay there, I'll only be a moment." He pushed himself to his knees, reaching over the other's body to riffle through the contents of a low table by the bed. Returning to his place, he held out a small bottle of what seemed to be oil. Raising an eyebrow questioningly, he sat the container safely nearby when the boy nodded slightly.
"I won't hurt you, Lavi." He repeated seriously, holding the Exorcist's nervous stare. "There may be discomfort for a moment, but nothing more. I can promise you that it will be worth that much."
Lavi shook his head, his expression blank. "The only promise I care about is the one you already made. Anything else is up to you, Tyki." He blinked at the man's expression, confused by his momentary disquiet. "What? This isn't about me, is it? There's nothing I can do but trust you not to lie, so the rest of what happens is just you."
Tyki nodded slowly, leaning down until they were almost nose to nose. "I don't lie, Lavi. Whether you believe that or not is beyond my ability to change, but I can tell you one thing.. " He moved closer, lowering his head to speak against the boy's lips. "If not for the other part of me..I would have stayed on that train until you left it."
Without waiting for a reply, he slid a hand beneath the Exorcist's neck, pulling him up to meet him as he relaxed against him. Urging him to respond with a careful nip, he sighed in pleased surprise when the boy accepted readily, his lips parting in silent invitation. He was even more surprised at the sensation of fingers against his back, and the soft whine that followed the touch. He made as if to pull away, but the redhead's grip tightened, preventing his retreat.
His questioning hum went unanswered, save for the slight pressure of a knee against his side, and an almost imperceptible shifting of weight from the Exorcist beneath him. Inhaling sharply, he pushed away insistently, ignoring the boy's muffled negative. "Let go, Lavi. What's wrong?" He frowned at the boy's almost pained expression, taking a breath to question him further.
Lavi cut him off, shaking his head. "Please don't say anything else, just.. Do what you're going to do, Tyki." The older man opened his mouth to reply, but was stopped again. "Dammit, shut up! I told you I won't stop you, so just get it over with! Telling me bullshit stories isn't going to make any difference, is it? You should have followed me to the hotel, if you were going to try lying your way into my pants! I might have believed it, then."
He looked away, clenching his hands furiously. "I didn't have time to think up some big ass seduction fantasy, but I sure as fuck didn't get off on you lying to me! I might have been stupid enough to want you, but I'm not retarded!" He turned to glare at the man's wide-eyed expression. "Now, either fuck me or kill me, but keep your Goddamned mouth shut while you do it."
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Ha, well there's the end of that.. I think there'll be one more chapter after this, so you can't kill me until I post that, right? Have fun, and please review, I'd hate to bother with this when there are a LOT of people waiting for NG to update instead!