Okay here is the chapter as promised, this is only part of the reason, more to this will be coming out in Nobleman's Revenge as the story progresses.

This takes place later in the night on the same day that Loghain gave him the knife. (Nobleman's Revenge chapter 13) Plus it mentions the mission that Gilmore keeps bring up in Nobleman's Revenge every once in awhile.

I know it's short, but if I write too much then it'll ruin the suspense with Nobleman's Revenge.

Now, to the reviewer, thank you Lisakodysam, for your two great reviews. You made my day as I read them.

We had just arrived back at the palace from the mission Loghain was sent on. He asked me to help and obviously I would say yes without thinking about it. It gave me more time around him. Something I wanted almost desperately.

I loved him, it was as simple as that, it was a startling revelation, but I true one none the less. Though a part of me was worried, I didn't know how he felt, I know what I had seen at the lake. A look of desire, yearning and something else I wasn't sure what. I hoped it was my feeling returned but maybe it wasn't.

Could he love a man twenty two years of age? We've been lovers for four years now, so was it possible?

"Mikhail, pay attention!" He snapped glowering at me. He's been doing that since I wanted to save the woman and not harm her.

"What?" I asked softly.

"I asked you a question, why did you want her to live so badly?" He growled.

"She should have to die for her a stupid reason." I muttered.

"A stupid reason? You think being ordered to protect the throne is a stupid reason?" He shouted angrily.

"Loghain, neither of those people could harm the throne. You know that as well as I." I sighed.

"Really…" He snarled stalking towards me. "I never thought you were weak. I guess I was wrong about you." He sneered.

"What I did today wasn't weak, what I did was right." I stated harshly.

"You're just like your father, naïve and obtuse to the real world. Thinking everything is safe. Well I have news for you boy, it isn't. Once you come to realize that fact maybe you'll be man enough for a true relationship with someone that isn't me." He stormed. I felt my heart break in two.

I tried not to let my emotion show but it was useless. He seen them and scoffed. "As I said, you're too naïve, and I was a fool seeing what I wanted to see. I should never have taken you as a lover." He bit out. "You're too young, too full of ideals. Go home Mikhail. Go. Leave with your family. When you're old enough then I'll continue training you. Until then…don't come to me." With those words my world came crashing down. My heart was split in two.

Don't hate Loghain, there is more to this story but you'll find it in later chapters of Nobleman's Revenge. This was the main argument that toughened up Mikhail, that changed him.

So please be patient, when I do Loghain's point of view you'll understand better but unfortunately that won't be for a while. Sorry…

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