AN: So I hate school when it messes with my updates…. Sorry for the wait… blame AP English for that one!

Apparently you people liked the fact that Gilbert finally admitted it to himself… sort of. I love writing for Gil… I really do. It's just far too much fun… and I also love when Gil paraphrases others (in the last chapter Gil paraphrases Feli) and they 'talk' about Gil's awesome.

Please review! I love reviews. They turn a bad day good and a good day awesome! Please… if you do Mattie will hug you (and I know you love Mattie hugs)

I am working on my other stuff too by the way… school just slowing me down a bit but, can't stop me!

July 6th

I AM AWESOME!

And I'm gonna be meeting Mattie in the park later today. I'm actually really nervous… I'm not sure what I should say to him…

Forget I said that. The Awesome Prussia is never at a loss for words so I have no reason to be nervous because I'm far too awesome for things like rejection and fear. My brother might have those problems but, they don't affect me.

I have to leave the house soon and meet with my birdie. I hope he isn't mad at me for anything. I hate it when he's mad.

Whatever… The French bastard put fucking mushy ideas in my head and that's annoying as hell. I'm not that much of a pansy. I'm not a pansy at all… just the awesome and totally manly Prussia.

Don't patronize me Gilbook. I own you.

Mattie texted me!

Hey Gil,

So meeting at one sound ok? That's about an hour from now if you're not near a clock. You can make it at that time right?

~Matthew

And I respond:

Birdie,

Anytime is perfect so in an hour it is! Can't wait to see you again. It's been a few days now.

~TheAwesomeGil

And Mattie:

Yay! Ok I'll see you there!

~Matthew

So Mattie can't wait to see me either. That's a good sign right? I'll let you know what happened when I get back.

~TheAwesomeMe

July 6th (Again)

I AM AWESOME!

So the conversation was both good and bad.

It started off good and ended… not so good because I am awesome and stupid at the same time. The stupid part got me into a bit of trouble in this case.

So I met Mattie there and he ran up and hugged me and said 'I'm sorry I didn't talk to you for a few days but, I needed to think.' The awesome person that I am, I told him not to worry about that at all.

Then, we got to the good stuff. I started it, of course,

Me: "So birdie… about what happened on that night… what do you think about it?"

No the best thing I've ever said…

Mattie: "Ummm…. It was interesting and made me realize some things…"

Me: "Good or bad thing?"

Mattie: "Good"

Me: "Ok then… what did it make you realize?"

Mattie: "W-well… I-it made me r-realize t-that I-I kinda like you a lot. A-and t-that I might be in l-love w-with you." *insert blush here*

He whispered a lot of that but, I'm awesome enough that I got all of it...

Me: "What?"

Mattie: "I-I'm in love with you…"

Me: "Oh… well, I like you…. I mean, it wasn't just me wanting to have sex with you because I've been thinking about you a lot and missing you and some other pansy shit like that. I'm not sure if that's love or whatever but, I think you're… you're… about as awesome as I am… not quite of course because I am the most awesome thing out there."

Yes Gilbook, I do realize that was an incredibly pansy thing to say that I will look back on with shame. And I kinda lied. I know that I might just love the adorable Canadian and well, now I'm pretty positive about that…

So after that, Mattie blushes and we talk about the 1st some more and it was an awesome conversation if I do say so myself. I loved walking through the park with my Birdie. It was even prettier then usual there. The leaves were all green and so was the grass and it was sunny out and the lake was really pretty.

That sounded really pansy…. Mattie is turning me into a fucking pansy.

Anyway then I said:

"Yeah it was even more awesome because it was the first."

Mattie: "So you remembered?"

Me: "Remembered what?"

Mattie: "Well you said the first was awesome…"

Me: "Yeah I think that it's awesome that the first time we had sex was on the first of a month."

Mattie: "So you didn't remember…" *looks really sad*

Me: "what didn't I remember?"

Mattie: "Well, July first is my birthday…. And you forgot…"

Then, I felt like the biggest ass in the world.

This led to a huge fight that ended in Mattie being pissed at me. I can't believe that I forgot anything about the kid… that just doesn't happen to me…. Ever. And now… God I'm a fucking ass.

So I begged and pleaded with him because a day that started off so great couldn't end on such a bad note.

He finally conceded to at least listen to me and I told him to come by tomorrow and I'd make it up to him…

I need to find a good way to make it up to him now… another awesome plan is in order. Maybe without maple this time (or with… I mean maple is the best shit in the world)

Maybe I'll use some flowers and a present and dinner and…. Other romantic pansy stuff to make it up to him… I'm really not sure. I'll figure it out tonight and put it all together by tomorrow morning.

And maybe… I'll have so more stuff to tell Mattie about how I…. feel about him…

~TheAwesomeMe

AN: Way to screw things up when they're getting good Gil! We love you and you're awesome anyway. (I actually like this chapter for some reason…)

I hope you guys loved it!

Note: No Mattie is not paraphrased by Gil… he's too awesome for that

Please leave me a review! (And if you're awesome you'll look at my other stuff!)

I promise I'm working on my other stuff and some one shot ideas so I hope I'll get more soon!