AN: Long time for another update but, it's finally here. I'm sorry about the required patience on your part because of my school that decides to occasionally take over my entire life and annoying me endlessly. Nevertheless, here is another chapter for all of you!

Thank you for all of the reviews. I know… you guys are being very patient and thank you for that as well. Please give me more reviews because reviews are awesome and they make life fun! Mattie will hug you if you review!

July 13th

I AM AWESOME!

And I also haven't heard from Mattie in a total of three days! That's a really long time and Mein Gott, I want to talk to him and apologize and all of those unawesome things that I feel the need to do where Mattie's involved. He really brings out the pansy in me but, I don't mind for some unknown reason that is unknown to me.

I know I screwed up but, I really didn't mean to. If I don't hear from him soon I'm going to march over to his house and tell him… Well, I'll tell him what I should have said three days ago.

I'll tell the Canadian that I love him. I'll tell him that being with him is more important to me than anything. I'll tell him that, if I had to choose between Prussia being a nation again and being with him, I would choose him any day of the goddamn week.

None of that sounds like me. I'm too awesome to feel that way about people yet, here I am. I am wishing for a text or call or something for hours and it just isn't all that awesome. I'm too awesome to let someone have this effect on me. Unfortunately, when it comes to Mattie, I am powerless. No one else knows that but, I may just have to tell him to get him to understand that I do want this so much more than he realizes.

These entries are just going around in circles and I can't do this right now. I promise to write again if anything else happens.

On a side note, I really hate being stuck in a house with West and his fiancé. I may go somewhere else but, the only place I can think to go is Mattie's and that's not happening at the moment so I have no fucking clue.

Why must West be happy and in love while I deal with all of this. The sad part is, I'd rather be doing this with Mattie then be with someone else.

Whatever Gilbook, I hope he gets back to me soon.

~TheAwesomeGil

July 15th

I AM AWESOME!

And I finally got something from the damn Canadian after fucking two more days of waiting. That makes five days of sitting around and wondering if Mattie even wants anything to do with me anymore which makes me really sad. Well, that's over now because I got a text from Mattie that I'm not totally sure how to decipher nor am I sure what he wants.

From: Birdie

Hey Gil… it's been a few days eh?

Sorry I didn't text you or call you earlier… I was thinking about all of this a lot. I also discussed this with Francis, Arthur, and Alfred. That's probably not something that you wanted to hear so I'm sorry for bringing them into any of this. I've thought about you was said and the events of the past few weeks over the past five days and decided on something. This is a tentative decision and may change at any given time but, well I don't feel like saying it through a text. Is there any way you can come over here?

~MWilliams

I'm not sure what to make of that message. Mein Gott is it fucking confusing as hell and he made a decision… what decision is this? Is it a good one of a bad one? Is this going to make life harder for me or easier? I really need answers.

Add that to the fact that he talked to his family about this. His brother hates me more than anything… the feeling is mutual though. His "dad" Arthur hates me but, not as much as Alfred so maybe that one isn't too bad. I'm pretty good buddies with Francis so that shouldn't be bad at all. The question is: Which one did Mattie listen to?

I refuse to lose my Birdie though. I will fight until I get him back regardless of what he decides to do. I'm not going to lose him just when I admit that I need him. The world is not going to do any of this to me because I won't let it! Goddamn this pisses me off.

My reply to the Message:

From: Gil

I'm fucking ecstatic! I've been waiting 2 hear from u for 5 days now! Gott! I missed u like hell and I really want to fucking talk to you because I'm an idiot but we already no that. R u mad at me though? I don't want u 2 b mad the awesome. That just wouldn't b awesome! I need to talk to u anyway so I can be there whenever u want me 2 b. is this a good or bad decision?

~TheAwesomeGil

Now, I will write and rant a bit until I get a fucking response because I need to talk to my Birdie and I need to talk to him now!

Sorry that I'm taking this out on you Gilbook. There doesn't seem to be anyone else around to yell at. That means that I have to take out this frustration on whatever inanimate object happens to be the closest and right now that happens to be you. I want my Mattie back though! I hate sounding like a whiny teenage girl but, I've never felt this way about anyone before.

Trust me, I have had awesome lovers and girlfriends and such in the past. I just have never felt like this before. I thought that I loved Roderich but, that was nothing compared to this shit. Honestly, in retrospect, me and Roddy just didn't work out and that was clear from the very beginning with our personalities and all. Then, by the end, we just fucked each other because it was convenient.

Everything's different about Mattie though. We don't normally fight and when we do it's because I do something stupid. Surprisingly, our personalities don't clash. It just seems right in every way.

I am awesome and I don't ignore Mattie so he should definitely make the decision to be with the awesome me. I hope that's enough because I can't think of much else as an argument. And that's sad…

Wait… I just got another text from Mattie (shut up… I know that my ringtone for him is "I'm By Your Side" by Faber Drive)

From: Birdie

I'm sorry that I waited so long Gil… I didn't think that you'd miss me that much and that surprises me. You're not an idiot and I'm not mad at you. It's just… we'll talk about it when you come over. It's a decision… that's as much as I can give. Could you come over as soon as possible? Within the next half hour perhaps?

~MWilliams

My reply:

From: Gil

Don't b sorry Birdie. It's not your fault that I missed you… that was all mine. I can be there in ten if that's alright.

~TheAwesomeGil

I want to get over to his place as soon as I can.

Oh… another reply!

From: Birdie

Yea… that's fine! See you when you get here.

~MWilliams

Gilbook, I'm leaving. I'll let you know what went down when I get back.

~TheAwesomeMe

AN: YAY for another chapter. Only a few more left before this one ends and the Mattie one begins and I am trying to not think about this ending because it saddens me! I actually liked writing this chapter quite a bit.

You should check out the song "I'm by your side" it's good for them.

On another note, I have an idea for a Songfic that will be coming soon!

And another note, the plot bunnies are attacking once more and I'm wondering if I should listen to them or not. I have an awesome idea for a multi-chapter high school one that involves PruCan and USUK! So the question to ask you guys is… should I do it?

Also, I'm taking requests for Christmas stuff!

Please review and if you want to you can comment on some of the above side notes.