It wasn't my soul that was the problem. It wasn't my soul at all. It was her. Fury boiled up inside of me like I'd never thought was possible it was uncontrollable, never before seen Bella fury that simply raged inside of me waiting to erupt. I was going to kill him. I was going to personally send him off to hell- I was going to snap his god damn, sun sparkling, vampire neck and he was going to beg for mercy by the time I was through with him. Or maybe I'd have to get Emmet to do that for me.
She was beautiful I'd give her that, but a slut none the less. They're all beautiful remember. Perfectly carved out of the earth, immortal. Its so unfair! I stomped my foot like a child and bit my lip. I'd be that hot too if he'd just bite me. I was sat in my car, refusing to go into their house. Esme had decided to get familiar with the town and apparently they also had some vampire visitors. Charlie had gone inside a while ago with some friends from the station. I, well no one knew I was here yet. I hoped.
I felt like crying, she was everything I wasn't. Glamorous curls of flowing strawberry-blond hair fell just above her shoulders, her bare pristine shoulders with her radiant glowing skin. Obviously she and Edward stayed in the shadows, but I could see everything. Me being creepy stalker girlfriend, got out of the car and made my way over. Just in time to see her twirl gracefully in her white summer dress. The dress rose and fell in slow motion and no one could miss the look of admiration in Edward's eyes. Maybe he simply wanted to push me away though all of the 'soul' crap. I stormed over, anger clouding my judgment. Everyone I knew was here, but all I could think of was kicking her toned arse up and down the garden. Skank.
"Bella!" Cold arms wrapped around me and pushed me into the forest surrounding the house, "I'm so glad you finally decided to come in, why were you sat in your car?"
It was Alice. I smiled at her slightly, the anger fading into the backgrounds of my mind, but it's pulse was still a live wire. "I was just thinking. Sorry."
I could still see them through a gap in the trees behind Alice's head and I knew exactly what Alice was trying to do. "Bella…" She shifted her weight to her other foot and sighed, "Bella, that's Tanya."
Tanya! Why feed the fire Alice? Why? I growled "It has a name? Sorry I couldn't see past the twins." As if she could hear me Tanya laughed and lent into Edward, her chest- well. "She is such a slut!" I couldn't help it. This whole scene; her existence was so infuriating, humiliating! "Why didn't he just tell me to my face?"
Alice laughed nervously, "Bella I think your blowing this way out of proportion. Have you talked to him yet?"
Yes yes yes yes yes yes a thousand times yes!
"Is that her?" A foreign voice drifted over into our conversation, shattering any illusion that this was just all one massive nightmare. "Yoohoo, Bella!" The skank waltzed over, Edward in tow. He didn't look happy.
Alice pulled me out of the woods to meet them half way, she wasn't so keen on this either it seemed.
"Bella!" Tanya shrieked again, "I've so been looking forwards to making your acquaintance, I'm Tanya. But I'm sure Edward has told you all about me." She smiled another one of those perfect smiles and my hand itched to slap it right off of her face. But admittedly it'd hurt me more than it'd hurt her. Stupid fucking vampires.
Just use your words Bella… "No actually he hasn't." I smiled sweetly as the mechanic slag malfunctioned, "In fact, I don't think he's ever mentioned your name before. Isn't that funny?"
Edward coughed from behind her and stepped forward, "Bella, I didn't think you'd be coming today…" His mouth hung open for a moment before snapping shut. Coward.
Why should I hide how much this hurt? I shouldn't have to. I gulped and against all of my instincts, words poured out of my mouth like vomit, "Shut up Edward. You are such a coward! I tried to talk to you all week and you simply walked away. And now! Now I find you with this tart! Don't bother me again Edward. Just fuck off."
Alice made a movement beside me but I just strolled past her, keeping my limbs still and holding back the tears in my eyes took everything I had. I couldn't stop now. I just hurried back to the car, stuck in the key and drove away. Edward fresh on my mind. I guess it was over because again, and probably for the last time, he didn't come after me. Instead he took Tanya's hand and led the way back inside.