Broken Hope.

I looked down at the floor, staring hard at it, as if I could make it disappear- as if by staring at it I could make myself disappear. Nothing happened. Big surprise. The others were downstairs. Laughing, talking. But I? I had dragged my fifteen-year-old self up to the attic, how I always did when I had some serious thinking to do. Like right now.

I was preparing myself. Preparing myself for tomorrow. The Wedding. The one at which I was to be bridesmaid, along with Dominique. The one at which Victoire and Teddy would finally get married. The one at which my heart would break all over again, just as it had when they had announced their engagement a year ago. And all I could do was prepare myself.

I had to look happy, as if I was overjoyed that they were getting married. I had to do it. For him. For Teddy. It was his happy day, and I wouldn't ruin it by looking miserable. I shouldn't. I wouldn't. I couldn't. Because I loved him, and I wanted him to be happy. And if she was what made him happy-and she was- then I would just have to suck it up.

I started glaring at the walls around me. Why had I agreed to be bridesmaid again? Because he had asked me to of course...

~flashback~

"Hey Lils."

"Hey Ted."

"Lils, I need to ask you for a favour"

"Yeah, Ted. Anything." Did he even have to ask? It wasn't like I would ever say no.

"You're the closest I have to a sister-heck, you are my sister," Ouch. That stung.-"So would you be the bridesmaid?"

I looked up at him, shocked. He was looking back at me, his wide eyes purple, my favourite colour, pleading. But I didn't want to do this. I didn't even want to be there. I was about to say no, when he said,

"Please Lils? I can't think of anyone else I want more to be bridesmaid..." His gave me puppy-dog-eyes. Damn. I couldn't help myself.

"Oh all right." What had I said?

"Thanks Lils! Vicky will be so happy!"

~End Flashback~

I sighed. It would all be over tomorrow. Vicky would get married to Teddy, and live happily ever after. At some point in my musings, I must have fallen asleep. When I woke up, I was worried. How long had it been? One hour? Two hours? Grandma Weasley would freak. I opened the attic door and went down the stairs two at a time.

"Lily?" I heard a voice yell.

"Yeah" I yelled back.

Albus came running into view. "Where were you? I've spent the last few hours wrapping presents. My hands are full of paper cuts. See?"

"That's great Al. How long was I gone?"

"Two hours. You'd better report downstairs, Grandma's annoyed you missed out on the presents. She has a whole pile of work for you to do."

I groaned as I ran down the stairs. Grandma would give me hell for missing two hours' work.

My prediction was correct. She, My mum and Teddy's Grandmum were standing at the bottom of the stairs. Holding a long list... Which looked like it was for me. Which was kinda good, I suppose. It would take my mind off Teddy. His vey name made my heart ache.

I had to clean the chicken coop with Rose and Uncle Harry, which took a surprisingly long time, even with magic. Teddy. Then I had to weed the flowers. Teddy. Then (oh horror of horrors) I had to de-gnome the garden. Teddy. And then help in the kitchen. Teddy. And then go for a Bridesmaids rehearsal. Teddy Teddy Teddy. And then decide with Victoire which hair-do each of us would have (which was nearly as hard as the de-gnoming). Teddy Teddy Teddy Teddy Teddy.

I hated Victoire. She had Teddy. And yet I loved her. She was my cousin.

By the time dinner was ready, everyone had been worked to death by the three organisers. Except Teddy and Victoire. I hadn't seen him the whole day. It made me feel good just to see him... Wait. This was wrong. How could I be in love with my cousin's fiancé? Her Husband-to-be? It was sick. I was sick. And I must have looked it, because when I said I didn't feel well and asked if I could be excused, everyone looked concerned. Even Victoire. Though she was probably more concerned about who would take my place as bridesmaid. Teddy would probably choose Rose. After me, she was his favourite of the Weasley girls. And except Victoire, of course.

I went to my mother's old room, the one where Dom, Rose, Lucy, Molly and I were sharing. I lay down on my mattress.

Then I looked up. Someone had followed me. It was Dominique.

"I know how you feel."

"What are you talking about, Dom?"

"It's OK. I won't tell anyone."

"I..."

"It's all right." She came and sat down next to me. "Lucy and Lysander are getting married," she whispered, her voice breaking at the end of the sentence.

"Oh Dom... I'm sorry..."

"Don't be. You've gone through the same thing, I guess." A tear slid down her beautiful face. Dominique was crying. Brave strong Dominique, who hadn't cried when she broke her leg in three places, who hadn't cried when her Grandma had died, was crying. I hugged her. I had never been particularly close to her, but we were together in this.

"You get some sleep. I need to go... think," She said finally.

"Try the attic." I said.

She nodded, and left the room, shutting the door behind her.

Poor poor Dominique. She had been like me, hiding her feelings. I was crying too, now. The first time I had ever shed a tear over Teddy. But I couldn't help it. I cried myself to sleep, wishing for Teddy-free dreams.

I didn't get my wish. Teddy featured my dreams. And Victoire too. She was always the same- breathtakingly beautiful, and, more often than not, she turned into a monster. And the worst part? That Teddy looked so... happy, even when she was devouring me. It would have been hilarious, if it weren't so... not hilarious. I didn't wake up from those dreams once that night. I knew they were dreams, but they hurt. I might have cried in my sleep, but I didn't know for sure. When I did finally get rid of the dreams, someone woke me up. Needless to say, I was annoyed.

I half-opened my eyes, and lashed out at whoever was unlucky enough to be the one to wake me up.

"OW!"

"Sorry Dom" I whispered. "Whazza time?"

"Five-thirty."

"Ugh."

"Well hurry up. Almost everyone else is up."

"Let me guess. Rose isn't up."

"Yep."

"And who, exactly, has the enjoyable task of waking her up?"

"You."

I grimaced as I glanced over to where Rose was lying. Rose was not a morning person. Dominique, Molly, and Lucy very wisely went out of the room. Dominique stayed a minuite longer than the others. She gave me a sad smile, and nodded. It was her way of saying 'thank you'. Then she went, and I was left to the dangerous task of waking Rose up,

"Wake up Rosie!" I yelled, in an overly-cheerful voice.

"Mff ff-fay." Translation- go away. I was a professional with Morning-Rose Language. It was my job to wake her up every Saturday back at Hogwarts.

"Otherwise I might just have to call someone else up to wake you up."

"Mff mff mff mff..." The evil girl. She was laughing. She knew no one liked a morning Rose. And she used it. The evil eevil girl. Well, I could be evil too.

"Wake up or I'll call someone who would love to wake you up. Especially if it annoyed you..."I let it hang for a while. "If you remember, Scorpius Malfoy arrived last night." Scorpius was Albus' best friend, and had been invited to the wedding as well.

"You wouldn't." He also had an on-going feud with Rose. And, though neither of them realised it, they were in love. With each other. I was good with this stuff. I could tell. Ironic, I know.

"There's no saying what I wouldn't do."

Rose sighed and got out of bed. Then she headed towards the bathroom. I beat her there, and gave her a cheesy grin as I closed the door in her face. So she wouldn't see my face, and realise something was wrong. Rose was my closest cousin, as well as Dominique now, I suppose. But she didn't know about Ted. No one, did except Dom. I was a good actress.

The Wedding. Teddy. Victoire. Bridesmaids. And the fact that I was going to have to not break down in the middle of it all. Depressing.

I put on a pair of old jeans and a shirt (they would be dressing me up anyway) and went down.

A few people were in the kitchen. As expected, I was given a hurried breakfast, and shoved into a small room I had never seen before, with Dominique and Victoire already inside. The next couple of hours were a blur. I had to help get Victoire ready, and then I was dressed up, along with Dom. We were wearing pale yellow dresses and all three of us were looking absolutely beautiful. Especially Victoire. In her white gown, she looked stunning. You could see her vela blood. And then we waited-the wedding started at ten.

Then Uncle Bill and Aunt Fleur came in and all three of them cried a bit. And then Aunt Fleur left.

And then... honestly, after that, I didn't quite know what happened. We went out and everyone was quiet. And we walked up towards Teddy- I remembered this part, he looked to handsome. His hair was pink, and his eyes were brown. Most people would have found it a little odd, but I knew that it was his way of remembering his parents. And then again, everything was fast-forwarded. And I heard the little wizard standing there talk and I heard Vicky say something, and then, it was Teddy's turn. And I remembered the times when I was younger, much younger, and I had imagined him saying those words. It was just like that. Except he wasn't saying it to me.

"I do."

Then he bent down to kiss Vicky.

And then, something happened. Because even after all this time, some tiny part of me hoped that Teddy would realise that I was in love with him, because I had believed we would get married ever since I knew what 'getting married' meant, and hoped that he would drop her for me. And at the precise moment his lips touched her's, I knew that there was no hope, that he and I would never be together. And some tiny part of me broke.

A/N: I know it's depressing. Poor Lily. I wonder why I had to put her through all that. Another chapter coming up, on what happned after this. But it's just two chapters. I was going to make it Rose and Scorpius' wedding, but I never liked LilyScorp. So. You know the routine, Review after you read!

-bookwurm7.