Looking at the mess in front of me, I realized my life has turned upside down. I have lost my family, my friends, my future. I do not really mind though. I have a new life filled with hope, glory, love.
Everyday I learn new things. I see people's lives fall apart. I see shells of souls that have not had a chance to complete their goals. I get to help the ones who lost important pieces to the game of life. I can not help but feel guilty sometimes, though.I have friends, now. Before I merely had acquaintances. Now, I have people who actually care about me. I trust them with my life. Scary part is facing the fact that we could be separated at any moment in time. I do not like to think about that.
Relationships. An easy way to get into someone's heart…at least…that was what I was taught. I now know that is a way to connect with someone. Someone you care about or someone who cares about you, or even better, you both feel the same way. No matter what happens, they will always stay in my heart, especially him.
He has endless green eyes and a fairytale smile, although I will never tell him that. He likes to be called by one name, Tony. I do not know why he does not like Anthony all that much, it is a beautiful name. But that is his choice, not mine. I would not do anything to keep him from being himself. From being the man I love.
Life is good. Everything in my life is going well. I have a new family, a new status, love. I would never ask for anything less or more. Nothing will ever be the same, and for that I'm glad. I will never be Ziva David again. For now and for always I will be NCIS Special Agent Ziva David-Dinozzo.