The song that Alana sings is called Ice by Lights. I'll be using lots of different songs in this fic, especially when I write in scenes from Alana's school. Chapters will/may get longer as I keep writing this story. Oh and there will be a couple of flashback here and there.
Disclaimer: I don't own Big Time Rush
"Where were you?" Jo's sharp shrieking accusing voice accosted Kendall's ears.
"What?" he replied dumbly as he turned to face her.
"You left me yesterday," she said trying to mimic the same soft voice she'd heard Alana use on Kendall.
"Oh I was talking to Ally."
"About what?" the blond girl asked narrowing her eyes at her boyfriend.
"The stuff we always talk about."
"That doesn't answer the question."
"Yes it does," he replied leaving a soft kiss on her lips. "Tell you what I'll take you out tonight, just the two of us."
"Okay," she smiled softly appeased by the offer.
Kendall smiled and continued his walk to the pool; his girlfriend was off to an audition for either a new soap opera or TV movie. He didn't really care or pay attention or listen to half the things she'd say lately. And he wondered why.
"Hey Kendall, earth to Kendall," Carlos' voice broke him from his train of thought.
"What?" the blond replied with a quirked brow.
"What did Jo want?" the Latino asked as he crossed his arms over his chest.
"She wanted to know where I was," Kendall sighed in response plopping down onto a pool chair.
"And you haven't broken up with her because?" Carlos quirked his brow in question as he looked to his blonde friend for a real answer, despite knowing that he wouldn't get one.
"Carlos what kind of question is that?"
"A question you refuse to answer."
"I'm not breaking up with Jo."
Carlos didn't reply only made a face as he walked over to the table that Alana was sitting at. Kendall followed Carlos with his eyes and then got up to sit on the other side of his female best friend.
"What'cha doin?" Kendall asked as he leaned over the girl's shoulder to what she was writing.
"Kendall, would you stop breathing down my neck," she half whined as she pushed his face away from her.
"Technically I was breathing on your shoulder."
"Which is close to my neck if you haven't noticed?"
"I have noticed so like I was saying before, what'cha doin?"
"Carlos, tell him before I loose my concentration…again."
"She's trying to write a scene based off of one of her favorite songs, and being the ambitious girl she is, so far she's written 7," the Latino explained as he handed one of them over to the shocked blond.
"And why are you writing more?" Kendall asked the girl as he read over the scene that had been based off Awake and Alive by Skillet.
"Because I want to," she replied simply as she furiously wrote another scene.
"I'm starting to think there's Meth in this apple juice of hers," Carlos supplied picking up the bottle full of the beverage, examining it for any floating particles.
Alana gave Carlos a flat look and took the beverage from him.
"This is the last one I'm writing," she said after taking a gulp of apple juice.
"Are you sure, or are you going to write a movie based off Frank Sinatra?" Kendall asked with a raised brow.
"Yeah I'm sure and then maybe I'll throw something at James, or trip the Jennifer's into the pool."
"What if they chase you?" Carlos wondered as an image of all three girls shrieking at being wet.
"Don't worry about it Carlos, I've been planning that for months."
"Planning what?" a certain sandy haired teen asked as he approached their table.
"Two camels in a tiny car," Carlos quickly blurted out.
Laughter was the response that Carlos got; Alana looked at him as her giggles subsided and managed to speak.
"What do camels have to do with anything?"
"I don't know, I couldn't think of anything else to say," the Latino honestly answered.
The half Italian girl didn't respond only pulled the boy into a hug when she pulled away she pinched his check affectionately.
"Hey I'm supposed to be getting my cheek pinched," James whined and pouted sitting across from Alana.
"You'd whine about getting wrinkles or some crap, sides Carlos has this cute face," Alana replied pinching Carlos' cheek once more.
"No, you're going to pull my face off," Carlos whined as he gently batted her hands from his face. She rolled her eyes at his words, he simply grinned.
Before Kendall could say anything a familiar feminine voice called to him, it sent shivers down his spine and made his throat dry, and not in a good way at all.
"Kendall, guess what," Jo chirped as she slipped into Kendall's lap.
"You're gonna tell me what," he responded trying to hide his immediate boredom.
"I got the part!" she chirped once more almost bouncing in the blond's lap.
"That's great, I'm so happy for you," he replied pulling her into a hug, hoping to keep the girl from bouncing around in his lap.
"I know I'm so excited," she gushed, her smiling stretching to her ears. "And what makes today even better is our date tonight."
James noticed the twitch of agitation in Alana's eyes, but said nothing, he was sure that Carlos noticed yeah.
"Yeah I can't wait," the male blond replied with a soft smile on his face.
Alana had been silent since Jo started babbling her nonsense which she didn't care much for. Digging deep into her bag she pulled out her iPod touch, after unlocking it she tapped into her music library and selected a song, something to drown out the blabbering female next to her.
To her delight Animal I've Become by Three Days Grace blasted loudly through her bright orange ear buds, but she could still hear the others around her, their voices sounding more like the buzzing of a mosquito. Picking up her pen she went back to finishing the final scene she was writing, she also had other things she needed to do back in her room.
"Ally," she faintly heard James' voice slither between the heavy guitar notes of the song.
"Hmm," she muttered lifting her head up to the boy.
"I'm surprised you can hear anything," Jo commented, she didn't notice the flash of annoyance that flickered over the chocolate girl's face.
"What is it James?" Alana asked, pausing the song that next song that came up.
"It's been a while since we've heard you sing anything," he began looking to her with hopeful eyes. She could see his question swirling in his sparkling eyes.
"I guess I could sing something," she answered with a sigh.
"Yay!" the boys cheered, eager for their friend to sing.
Pulling out the jack of her ear bud from her iPod, she set the device down and looked for the instrumental version of the song she'd decided to sing. Tapping the play button and turning up the volume she waited for it to start then sang:
My mouth is frozen so I can't even speak
What a disappointment, I had it perfectly
What I was going to bring up suddenly
Stood like a stone as you stood quietly
You're making it hard for me
All I can do is freeze
[Chorus:]
What I mean is, all I need is,
Just a little emotion
Cause all I see is you not feeling
And you're giving me nothing nice
I tried to do you right, why'd you have to go and turn to ice
I don't think you're knowing how hard this is for me
I'm not the type to say sorry constantly
So I swallowed my pride and I got on my knees
But still you just stood there as you stared at me
Your ego is getting old
How did you get so cold
[Chorus]
I'm looking at you looking at me, what can I do but say sorry
It's a little late but you know I just want you to be happy.
What I got to say to make you let me get away with it this time.
I know you're upset and that you're happy just to sit and hate me,
But I'll make a bet that you'll be better to forget about me,
Even better yet I'll let a little light melt the ice, ice baby!
My mouth is frozen so I can't even speak
I'm not the type to say sorry constantly
What I mean is all I need is
Just a little emotion
Cause all I see is you not feeling
And you're giving me nothing
What I mean is all I need is
Just a little emotion
Cause all I see is you not feeling
And you're giving me nothing nice
I tried to do you right, why'd you have to go
I tried to do you right, why'd you have to go and turn to ice
Everyone at the pool clapped and cheered once she finished singing. Alana smiled modestly, putting her iPod and ear buds back into her bag.
"You happy now?" she said looking to grinning James. "And quit smiling like that, it's kind of creepy."
"Hearing you sing makes him happy, actually is makes us all happy," Kendall added with a wide grin of his own, Carlos and James nodded like bobble heads in agreement.
Jo pursed her lips trying best to formulate some sort of comment to what she'd just heard. She didn't think that Alana would be such a good singer, actually Alana was better than good, she was fantastic not that Jo would say that to her.
"You should sing more often," Kendall said drawing Jo out of her thoughts.
"I might," Alana shrugged stuffing the rest of her stuff into her bag.
"Do you only sing?" Jo asked hoping to find some flaw in the girl.
"No I sing, write songs, plays, screen plays, and I play 6…10 instruments," Alana answered trying to remember how many instruments she could.
"10, I thought you said 12," Logan's voice suddenly came from behind James.
"I honestly don't remember, I keep picking up different ones," she frowned as she looked to the raven haired boy.
"Knowing you, that sounds totally believable," Logan replied. "No one saved me a seat."
Alana snorted and shook her head at the boy's pout.
"You can sit in my lap Logie," she offered putting her bag onto the table.
"I hope I don't crush your legs," he said sitting himself in her lap; his words were replied with a loud snort.
Kendall didn't know why but he felt a flush of jealous burning under his skin, in fact he was certain that it was beginning to boil in the pit of his stomach. He noticed that Jo had been clenching her jaw, gently he rubbed her back; she looked at him with a soft smile.
He managed to smile back, but when he looked back at Alana who was holding Logan as he sat in her lap, he couldn't understand why he hated the sight. He couldn't seem to put together why he was wishing that Alana was the girl sitting in his lap and babbling nonsense, despite knowing the fact that she never babbles nonsense.
The blond tried to push the feelings that were churning in him out of mind, unaware that the girl sitting next to him was trying to do the same thing. Neither, wanted to face the emotions that just might boil over.
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