So the 8th chapter starts with the song that I got the title from, it explains the way Kendall and Alana felt after they broke up and the moment before they got back together. Also sorry for the wait for this chapter and the next chapters coming up. I'm working on a final confrontation and some super good news. Not to mention I'm trying to create a name for the band that Alana is in, if anyone has any ideas PM me or leave a review. Any way enjoy the chapter! (Oh and the two songs are actually poems I wrote which screwed up and I don't feel like fixing them so oh well.
I scraped my knees while I was praying
And found a demon in my safest haven
Seems like it's getting harder to believe in anything
Than just to get lost in all my selfish thoughts
I wanna know what it'd be like
To find perfection in my pride
To see nothing in the light
I'll turn it off, in all my spite
In all my spite, I'll turn it off
And the worst part is
Before it gets any better
We're headed for a cliff
And in the free fall
I will realize I'm better off
When I hit the bottom
The tragedy, it seems unending
I'm watching everyone I looked up to break and bending
We're taking shortcuts and false solutions
Just to come out the hero
Well, I can see behind the curtain
(I can see it now)
The wheels are cranking, turning
It's all wrong, the way we're working
Towards a goal that's non-existent
It's not existent, but we just keep believing
And the worst part is
Before it gets any better
We're headed for a cliff
And in the free fall
I will realize I'm better off
When I hit the bottom
I wanna know what it'd be like
To find perfection in my pride
To see nothing in the light
I'll turn it off, in all my spite
In all my spite, I'll turn it off
Just turn it off
Again, again, again
And the worst part is
Before it gets any better
We're headed for a cliff
And in the free fall
I will realize I'm better off
When I hit the bottom (x2)
Alana sighed loudly in exasperation as the song ended and the screen on her laptop remained blank. She had nothing after sitting in her room for nearly 2 hours and blasting music non-stop.
"I need an idea," she said closing her laptop and shoving it and her ipod into her bag.
Getting up from her desk she walked past her brother Jason who was currently guzzling coffee and looking over a script. No doubt for some new TV show he was casting for.
"I'll be back, bye Jason," she said opening the door.
"Bye Ally, don't talk to strangers," her brother said over his shoulder to her.
The chocolate girl laughed softly as she shut the door behind herself and walked down the hall to the elevator. Maybe getting some fresh air would help her think.
Stepping out of the elevator she walked out into the lobby her mind was currently a thunderstorm of ideas but none of them were sticking to the walls of her head, none were use-able.
"What's with the thinking face?" a familiar voice brought her back to reality.
"Trying to write an 8 page scene for one of my classes and I can't think of anything," she groaned in answer resting her head on the blond's chest.
"Aww, you poor thing," he cooed wrapping his arms around her and kissing the top of her head.
"I know and the scene's due tomorrow," she replied pouting and wrapping her arms around Kendall. "I need ideas!"
Kendall did his best not to laugh at her dramatics, instead he let go of her and picked up the petite girl bridal style and carried her to the pool.
"You throw me in the pool, and I'll murder you," she said seriously, arms wrapped around his neck.
"You wouldn't kill me," he scoffed and sat down, her now in his lap on a lounge chair.
"I've been tempted… amongst other things," she smirked as Kendall wrapped his arms around her waist.
"Wait… what are those other things," the blond asked curiously, his chin resting on her shoulder.
"I can't tell you now there are children here… plus they speak Italian and are really nosy," she answered pointing at Carlos and James.
Kendall whined pressing his nose to her neck and snorting out hot hair, making the girl laugh.
"Haven't I told you to quite breathing down my neck," she said pushing him to lean back into the chair.
"Technically I was breathing on your collarbone that's different," he said in a know-it-all fashion.
She rolled her eyes and smacked his arm playfully, then stared out at the water, squinting her eyes as she receded into her own mind.
"What's she doing?" James asked looking to Alana curiously.
"It's her thinking face," Kendall answered poking her in the back to see if she'd respond… she didn't.
"What's she trying to think of?" Carlos asked also curious
"She's supposed to write a scene for a class of hers and she hasn't thought of anything," the blond answered the chocolate girl on his lap still in deep thought.
Before Carlos or James could say anything Alana groaned loudly falling back onto Kendall making him grunt at the sudden impact.
"My brain is empty," she said simply placing her palm over her eyes.
"It's not empty," Carlos interjected hoping to cheer her up "You always said James was the one with the empty head."
"Hey!" the sandy haired boy protested indignantly.
Carlos shrugged with a grin and Alana laughed softly, her hand still covering her eyes, the Latino smiled seeing his task complete.
"Where's Logan?" she asked still laying on Kendall's chest.
"Either he's with Camille or he's inventing a cure for what ever Kesha's got," James answered with serious look and a shrug.
"Do you know how funny that sounds James?" Alana asked with a grin spreading onto her face while she raised a brow at him.
"No, it just came to me… like a dream," he replied with his sparkling smile, to which the chocolate girl shook her head.
"This isn't helping me…" she pouted and sat up, the blond rubbed her back hoping to relax her a little.
"Why don't you sing part of the song you listening to last?" the blond suggested to her.
"Oh fine…" she sighed pulling out her iPod and found the song.
I scraped my knees while I was praying
And found a demon in my safest haven
Seems like it's getting harder to believe in anything
Than just to get lost in all my selfish thoughts
I wanna know what it'd be like
To find perfection in my pride
To see nothing in the light
I'll turn it off, in all my spite
In all my spite, I'll turn it off
And the worst part is
Before it gets any better
We're headed for a cliff
And in the free fall
I will realize I'm better off
When I hit the bottom
The tragedy, it seems unending
I'm watching everyone I looked up to break and bending
We're taking shortcuts and false solutions
Just to come out the hero
Her eyes widened then pulling her laptop out of her bag; she opened it and furiously began typing. The boys watched stunned at the speed of her fingers tapping against the keyboard.
"Oh my god…I think her hands are going to fall off," Logan's voice suddenly floated from behind Carlos and James who were startled by his sudden appearance.
"Dude… I thought Ally was the ninja," Kendall commented with a raised brow.
"Sorry I helping Camille run lines for her audition today," he replied still watching Alana's lightning fast fingers. "What is she typing?"
"A scene for her class, apparently she got an idea from that song by Paramore," James answered.
"Ignorance, The Only Exception….or Turn It Off?" the raven haired boy asked, his friend gave him curious shocked looks.
"She sings Paramore when we run sometimes," he clarified and they gained understanding looks.
"Oh…and it was the last one I think," the Latino said Alana still typing furiously. "How many pages does she have now?"
"6…At this speed she'll be done in about 5 minutes," Kendall answered looking over her shoulder and reading the words she typed. "This is pretty intense… I didn't think a Paramore song would inspire this."
"What is horror, action, or is it one of those drama/ mysteries?" James asked standing up and also looking over the girl's shoulder.
"It's a horror- romance, and one person reading over my shoulder at a time please, two makes my brain itch," Alana said managing to not loose her concentration.
James pouted and crossed his arms over his chest like a 5 year old boy being told that he couldn't be carried by his mother because he was too big for that.
"But I wanna read!" James whined, Carlos rolled his eyes and punched him. "Ally, Carlos just hit me!"
"Boys behave or I'll ground you both," she said almost absentmindedly, Logan and Kendall snorted amused.
Alana narrowed her eyes, sticking the tip of her tongue out of her mouth as she typed the last words of her assignment.
"Huzzah!" she yelled saving the assignment and closing the laptop, "now for band practice" she dug her phone of her bag and called her friend Andrew. "Alright, that's cool, just tell her to come here and I'll talk to you guys when you get here."
"So we finally get to meet those fancy kids from your school?" Kendall asked with an interested look on his face.
"If you all behave yourselves I'll even let you talk to them," she said getting off Kendall and pulling him off the lounge chair with ease. "Promise me you'll me good…pinky swear it."
"We promise," they said together and twisted their pinkies with hers all at once, which was a bit chaotic.
"Good… now follow me!" she announced dramatically grabbing the blond's hand and walking back into the lobby. "Andrew's actually been here before so he can lead them up to the apartment, while I set up the living room."
"Wait you had one of your fancy, artsy, creative friends over and didn't tell us?" Carlos asked with accusing eyes the others looked at her suspiciously.
"You guys were recording, and by the time you got back he was already gone," she said with a shrug as they all stepped out of the elevator.
"I still don't get why you haven't told us about him," Kendall said as they followed (him being dragged) her to her apartment.
The only girl in the group sighed and shook her head dropping Kendall's hand and opened the door to her apartment. Just as she thought her brother was gone, a note was on the kitchen counter saying he was filming and would be back late.
"Alright, now to get this living room ready," she sighed putting her bag onto the counter and began pushing the large sofa easily to the far wall of the living room. "So you're all just going to stand there?"
"Why, you're like Wonder Woman only shorter," Logan answered the others nodded.
Rolling her eyes she instructed them to get the amps and switch boards from her room, and to bring out her keyboard, guitar, and bass.
"Do you really need all this stuff?" Kendall asked setting down one of the amps.
"Yes, I do besides only 2 of those amps are mine, the other one is Andrew's and Derek's is industrial and too frickin enormous to transport normally," she answered hooking up all the amps to mixing boards, her switch board and key board.
Before the boys could respond a knock sounded on the door, stepping quickly to the door Alana opened it to her three friends. And the boys realized they look rather ordinary, a red headed girl just a few inches taller than Ally, a mocha skinned boy with cornrows, and a shaggy haired boy with bright blue eyes.
"Great you guys made it, come on it," she said stepping aside to let her friends into the apartment.
"Oh so these are the guys you're always talking about?" Andrew asked pointing at the four ex-hockey players.
"You talk about us?" Carlos asked the chocolate girl accusingly.
"Of course what else is there to talk about?" she replied smoothly helping Cassidy set up her drums and setting up the mikes. "Oh and before anyone pulls out name tags, Andrew, Cassidy, Derek, meet Kendall the blond, James the airhead, Carlos the weapon of mass destruction and Logan the boy genius who's helping me taking over the world."
"I'm not an airhead," James protested but was ignored by Alana.
"Kendall, James, Logan and Carlos meet Andrew the black version of me, Cassidy the red-head who stalks Ryan Sheckler, and Derek my white boy clone."
Derek pumped his fist in victory at the title she gave him while Andrew and Cassidy simply waved.
"Now everybody knows each other, can we get this practice started," Andrew said setting down his guitar case as did Derek.
"Yeah, just plug in and we'll start with the song we were working on yesterday," Alana said tuning her neon blue bass.
"Alright let's do this thing," Cassidy chirped from behind her drums.
Chuckling slightly the chocolate girl strummed the thick strings of her bass, followed by Cassidy on the drums in a steady beat, Derek and Andrew fell in with their guitars. Kendall shoved his friends onto the couch, while Alana stepped to the mike and began to sing.
Drip my eyes
In cyanide
Call me gorgeous
And make me smile
Paint my skin
With rainbow stripes
And unicorn skulls
Call me sexy
Make me grin
Drip my eyes
In cyanide
Poison my lungs
Till they burst
Oh look now
I've gone crazy
Call me pretty
Dye my hair pink
And cut it all off
Drip my eyes
In cyanide
Oh look
At what I've done
I blew a hole
Through the roof
Call me funny
Say I'm cute
Now hear my laugh
Draw pictures
On my clothes
Then I'll set them on fire
Poison my lungs
Till they burst
Find my heart
And rip it right out
Drip my eyes
In cyanide
Call me crazy
Call me gorgeous
Call me sexy
Say I'm a pretty girl
Watch me smile
And then
I'll blow up this place
When the song ended the boys applauded loudly, the band members humbly bowed, and Alana got an idea and handed her bass to Derek and then picked up her acoustic guitar and pulled a stool for her to sit on.
"Now this is a very special song, and everyone already knows who it's about," Alana commented.
Silence fell allowing the girl to softly pluck at the instrument, a softer drum beat was heard, Andrew pressed the keys of the key board adding another layer to the song, finally Derek came in on bass giving the song its heaviest layer.
Fell down the stairs again
And there you are
Picking me back up
I swear that's a halo behind you
No wait,
That's just the hall light
And that's when
I realized
That all I wanted was you
Sitting on my couch all alone
With no sounds
But your name in my head
And that's when
I realize
That all I wanted was you
There I was
Tripping over my life
And you caught me, again
I swear I saw
A halo behind your head
But that's just the street lights
And then I sit down
Home all alone and realize
That all I wanted was you
I've been driving around
In circles and drawing blanks
About what I want
But I looked at you
And realized
That all I wanted was you
When the song ended Kendall's face burned and his heart pounded behind his ribcage, he was sure that it would burst out of his chest if he didn't calm down. He didn't know why the song made his body so hot, maybe it was the fact that unlike the first song she ever wrote for him they were alone, but this…this was different.
"I like it, so who's this about?" he asked with a smirk.
"Oh I think you know," she replied cheekily, the blond responded with a grin.
After another hour of practicing the band packed up, helping Alana put away all of the equipment into her room, James was slightly miffed how everything seemed to fit into her room.
"Your room is a bottomless pit," he remarked with a pout.
"I know isn't it awesome," she said with a grin.
Her band mates left and agreed to practice at Cassidy's house next practice. Once they were gone and the living room put back in place, Kendall pushed his friends out of the apartment ignoring their complaints.
"I take it you want to be alone," she said as he turned the lock on the front door.
"Plus I want to thank you for the song you wrote me in a proper way," he replied with a suggestive wiggle of his eyes brows.
Before she could say anything the blond picked up her up by the back of her thighs and quickly carried her to her bedroom, once again locking the door behind them.
"And it might take me a while to get my thank you just right," he said huskily placing her on the bed and not wasting anytime straddled her.
"Take your time, I'm not going anywhere," she replied kissing his lips deeply.
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