Chapter 14 – the sweetest gift tasted of oranges

Author *hanging head in shame* note - Okay I know I'm a bitch, I know it. I make no excuses about the long delay, even though my laptop died before I could upload the next chapter. I kept hoping I could retrieve it so I wouldn't have to rewrite it, but I give up, I have FINALLY rewritten the chapter and uploaded it. I cannot say sorry enough exspesh to my cowriter who is probs really pissed at me taking this long, and miss vampressblack who is my best reviewer and only started reading just as my laptop died. I'm sorry to you all and hope my completely different from my original idea for the chapter makes up for it. This is my long overdue Christmas chapter and I sincerely hope you enjoy it. *HUGE LEMON WARNING* (though a lemon might make up for the delay, right I'm gonna shut up now, enjoy.

After Sirius' heartening confession Remus had to avoid him, he blushed whenever he thought of him and his member twitched whenever Sirius smiled. Though Moony might want to just jump on Sirius and ravish him, Remus still wished to wait. He had always given his partners 6 months before finally cementing their relationships. Six months seemed long enough for them to realise what a stupid idea it was to date a werewolf and run, and most did, even though he was now in his late thirties, Remus had only had sex with one person, a girl he met in Ireland whilst he was traveling after the war, and even then they did not stay together long as she could not deal with how rough moony could be if he got some control, so Remus always waited. No matter the person he would wait.

Though the waiting had never been so painful.

The waiting was never ending

A day felt like a year

Moony constantly begging and sending him mental images of what can only be politely described as Remus and Sirius making the beast with two backs was not helping.

But Remus waited

And waited

….. And waited. Even hugging Sirius required mountains of restraint, especially when Sirius felt his erection nudging into him. Remus would usually have to leave at this point for a very long very cold shower, ALONE, as he had to shout at moony in his head and even once or twice to a horny Sirius.

Before he thought the privacy of Grimmauld Place was sent to torture him (as it was still mainly just Remus and Sirius) Christmas began to draw nearer and Mr and Mrs Weasley arrived late the night before the kids arrived. This gave Remus a much needed distraction.

Sirius was in fits of anxiety as he had not heard from harry since he had written of his and Remus' new relationship

"Calm down Sirius, I'm sure he doesn't mind" said Remus sitting on Sirius' bed once again trying to quell his lover from pacing a hole through the floorboards.

"How you can be so sure, he never wrote back, 3 weeks and no reply"

"Because I know harry, he wouldn't care so long as you were happy, he probably thought he didn't need to reply"

"You might think that but I don't know that" growled Sirius almost maliciously still pacing. Then it hit Remus what part of the problem was, even though Sirius was his godfather, Remus knew harry a lot better, they had spent many hours talking during his time as a teacher at Hogwarts, Sirius on the other hand had only had snatched conversations during a week in summer and hastily written notes. Remus felt his heart weep as he wished they could trade places, at that moment Remus wished he had gone to Azkaban for those long years instead of Sirius so Sirius could have had a relationship with his godson, and raised him as James and Lily would have wanted.

Remus knew that Sirius needed something to ground him and knew exactly what to do.

"I'm sorry" Remus said simply. Sirius stopped and looked slightly confused.

"For what?"

"That it was you, that you knew about Peter, that you went to Azkaban, that you never got a chance to know harry the way I did, that you had to shoulder everything you knew about peter and what happened to James and Lily for all those years and the fact that I couldn't just love you straight away. I'm just sorry, when I know that if I had paid more attention back then or never believed for one second that you would betray Lily and James that things could have gone very differently. And I'm sorry for what I'm about to do"

During this Sirius had just stood watching him, almost seemingly to not recognise the man sitting before him. "Remus I don't hold anything against you, I never blamed you for anything, but what do you mean you're sorry for what your about to do?"

Remus said nothing he just stood looking Sirius in the eye and smiled sadly at the hollowness he saw in his stormy grey orbs, without warning he kissed him, forcing Sirius back into the wall and still pushing trying to pull Sirius as close as possible fisting his hair and biting his lip so hard he swear he could taste his blood. Sirius was shocked and tried to push him off "NO" he yelled when he was able to free his mouth, which was indeed bleeding "Moony stop it, I won't mate with you without Remus"

At this Remus did stop and smirked "It wasn't Moony Padfoot that was all me and that will be for you"

Sirius was surprised at this but had to ask "What will be for m…?" before he could finish someone knocked on his bedroom door.

Unknown to Sirius, Remus had heard everyone return from kings cross just before he kissed Sirius and knew harry would head straight up to see Sirius. Sirius answered the door and Remus smiled when harry almost leapt over the doorway to hug his godfather.

"I'll give you some time to catch up" Remus said leaving the room

"It's good to see you again Lupin" said Harry with a grin

"You too Harry" replied Remus. Whilst he was walking down the stairs he heard Harry ask Sirius why his lip was bleeding and could just imagine the blush that would have flushed his lovers face, smirking he went to the library.

Later that night Sirius appeared in Remus' bedroom doorway, looking misty eyed.

"Thank you" he said simply then kissed Remus gently on the lips before retiring to his own room.

The days till Christmas flew by, the house full of laughter and voices put a spark in Padfoot's eye that Remus only wish he could make himself. He knew of one way he could try but it had only been three months, he should wait. That's what he told himself, but he knew one thing strongly

He didn't want to.

Christmas day went by in a fly of colour and smiles, and by the end of the day everyone had trundled off to bed early exhausted by the excitement of the day, everyone that was except Remus and Sirius.

Remus was sitting in his room reading and eating an orange, when as usual Sirius came to say good night, he entered Remus' room and was a little shocked that Remus had ignored his entry, so he went and sat on the edge of Remus' bed and waited. Remus finished the line he was reading put his book to one side then sat up.

"Would you like some orange?" he asked Padfoot innocently

"Sure" he replied and went to take a segment but before he could grab it Remus grabbed it and put it between his teeth smirking and leaning forward. Sirius smirked also but took the bait and closed the gap between them biting into the segment and kissed Remus whilst the orange juice dripped down between them.

"Merry Christmas Padfoot" Remus whispered against Sirius lips before moving away and stood moving towards the door. Sirius, whose shoulders had visibly slumped with the obvious dismissal, got up and went to leave, but before he could walk through the door Remus shut it and leant against it.

"Stay, tonight stay with me" Remus whispered pleadingly

Sirius moved forwards and gently kissed his forehead "I can't, if I did I wouldn't be able to control myself"

Remus looked up "I don't want you to" he said with conviction. Sirius almost groaned just simply at the look in his loves eye.

"Are you sure? I don't think I would be able to stop myself again" Sirius asked searching Remus' blue orbs for any doubt, he saw none and saw his lover nod his head, and his eyes filled with lust. Sirius needed no other encouragement and crushed his lips against Remus' letting out the last three months of restraint.

Remus replied just as strongly and began to tear off Sirius' shirt, tonight was not about being gentle, tonight was about loving him with every atom in his body with all the intensity he could muster, without Moony, Moony would get his chance, tonight was for him and his needs.

Sirius groaned as Remus threw his shirt to the floor and bit his neck, his own hands he sent lower, one round Remus' back pulling him closer the other making quick work of Remus' trousers so he could stroke his already swollen member. Remus groaned and clawed his back burying his head again Sirius' shoulder whilst Sirius' hand began to rub harder and snake inside his boxers. He needed release and soon, three months of pent up passion was coursing through his veins. As if he sensed his urgent need Sirius stopped, causing Remus to bite him, and dragged him to the bed. Quickly stripping Remus of his remaining clothes he knelt on the floor between his legs and quickly wrapped his lips around Remus' length sucking hard and fast. Remus couldn't think straight and all he could do was wrap his hands into Sirius' hair pulling hard and bite his lip from screaming. It wasn't long before he felt himself release his seed into Sirius mouth and yelled out load in pure ecstasy.

Panting Remus pulled Sirius up and kissed him, trying to taste every corner of his being, then he stopped to catch his breath and felt Sirius own erection nudging him, Sirius was obviously trying to not get carried away.

"Fuck me" Remus said into Sirius ear before once again biting his neck

"I won't ahh…" Sirius stopped for a moment whilst Remus started to stroke his cock. "Remus I won't be able to stop and I won't be gentle, I don't want to hurt you"

Remus stopped and straddled Sirius lap so his newly re-erected cock brushed along his own. " I didn't say make love to me, there is time for that in the future, I said fuck me, and I meant it" pure lust was now in Remus' eyes and Sirius could no longer control himself, he quickly rolled onto the bed so Remus was under him and started to kiss him hard, instead of the usual gentle lick to ask entry to his lovers mouth he bit down on his lip and pulled it out of the way and thrust his tongue in to ravish his mouth, Remus whimpered against him but his moans were lost to Sirius as he kept attacking all his senses, stopping only briefly to make Remus lick his fingers, though he was unrestrained he still had enough control to prepare his lover first, though he did it very quickly. First slowly pushing one finger through Remus' tight ring of muscles then another and scissored them in and out, he did this only a few times before he stopped moving altogether.

"Remus, I'm sorry but I can't wait any longer" he whispered into Remus' ear before forcing himself up to the hilt inside of Remus, the feeling was bliss, he was so tight and couldn't stop, he knew he should wait but he kept thrusting harder. Remus was crying out, at first in pain but then Sirius shifted and electricity ran through his body and he began to groan wishing for Sirius to go faster and harder, moaning these words, Sirius was only too happy to obey, thrusting in with every muscle in his being, he then felt Remus clamp down around him, all but screaming his name, this sent him over the edge and cumming with more force than he had ever felt he collapsed on top of Remus, dripping with sweat and panting hard.

"That was worth the fucking wait" Sirius eventually managed to say

"Yes it was" Remus replied "Merry Christmas Padfoot"

Sirius crawled up the bed till he was lying next to his love and kissed him.

"You taste sweet" Sirius smirked "like oranges"

"You too Padfoot, the sweetest gift you have given me today tasted of oranges"