Ohkay so here's Chapter 4! Sorry it took me so long! Hope you guys like it! In the next chapter she is going to the Malfoy Manor! Yay! :)

They just had to have dinner with us. It didn't last that long and the food was pretty good. I had to sit next to Malfoy and he even asked me if I liked my room. Which I replied that I did. That was the only thing we talked about all night. I thought he would still be mad about before , but he wasn't. I was thankful for that because I had enough drama in my life already.

All I wanted to do was go upstairs and read a book or two. I wanted to go to my old house ,with my old parents, and just be Hermione. Not Violet. I wanted to go back to Hogwarts with Harry and Ron. I wanted to be the person people came to for help. I wanted to be in my old room on my bed ,and cry my eyes out for losing my best friends. Not even, they were my brothers. Then, I realized recently we don't get what we want. For that I had to change. I had to change so no one would ever see me like that again. I would never get close to anyone like that again. I lost all trust in everyone I cared about.

Thinking about all of this I asked if I could be excused.

"Violet dear, we didn't even have desert yet?" Said my new mother.

"Please mom, I just want to go to sleep. I don't feel well." I told her.

"Of course dear. Draco will you please show her where her room is again?" Said mother.

He nodded his head and followed me out the room. I was too dizzy to notice where we were going. I thought about all the times my mom and dad would ask questions about my years at Hogwarts. A new cut slashed into my heart when I realized this whole time they pretended to know nothing about magic. They probably knew how I was fighting Voldemort ,and this whole time they never gave me a tip or anything on how to save my life. I did that all by myself, alone. When they were there the whole time ,knowing what was going on. I realized then and there, I lost all respect for my parents and my friends. I was grateful that Draco left me alone to figure this all out. When I looked around I realized we were in the gardens. I didn't even realize the change in scenery. I walked towards a bench and sat down. I saw Draco standing by me.

"You, you can sit if you want." I told him.

"I'd rather stand than sit next to a Mudblood at heart." He said with no emotion at all.

I felt like crying. Already I was asking for comfort from someone. I was so stupid. I forgot all about my promise to myself. Well I wouldn't let it happen again. I promised myself that i would never show my old self to anyone else again. If so I would cause myself pain, to make myself listen. I would learn how Draco doesn't show any emotion. I would start being like him. Cold and Heartless. That way you don't get hurt. I felt like I understood him now. This is how I would survive. I felt like smiling and being happy. I didn't though, I showed no emotion. Now that made me happy. I wanted to go in my room and celebrate.

I got up and stared walking towards the mansion. My face blank and I walked with ignorance. Draco followed me. I spun around wanting to yell at him. I couldn't because that would show my old self. So what I really did was turn around and told him really softly not to follow me and leave me alone.

"Granger. Where do you think your going? You are going to get lost." He told me, almost yelling.

"What do you care? Let me be lost." I told him. With that I turned around and left him standing there in the gardens.

"I am lost" I whispered to myself. "I've been lost for a very long time."

What Hermione didn't know was that Draco was standing in the bushes and heard what she said. "I just don't understand." He thought.

With that, he walked out of the garden's and to the dinning room, where his parents were waiting for him to head home.

Meanwhile, Hermione was lost.

I looked around, I was in a hall way, that looked like it went on forever. I didn't even care. I just kept on walking. I could call a house elf if I wanted to go to my room but, right now I just wanted to be lost in my own house.

My own world.

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~Danii