Chapter 1: Happier
"Daphne, I have something to tell you" Harry looks at me with eyes full of sorrow. I know something is coming that I will not like. I know him well enough by now to know that he would be breaking my heart in to a million pieces.
"Don't" I say lifting my hands up in a stopping motion. "Please don't" I could feel my eyes start to get watery.
"Daph…I'm so sorry" he slowly grabs my hand, forcing me to look him in the eyes again. He stares at me with both sorrow and love and I know part of him does not want to do this. Part of me is hoping he will not say the next words even though I know he will.
"I'm going to marry Ginny" he says and I can see his eyes start to water. I know I hear the words but I can't fully comprehend them so I say the only thing I can come up with "what? I don't understand."
Harry sighs before slowly brushing a stray tear that had fell away from my face. "Please understand Daph. She wants to get back together now that the war is over. She is ready for a commitment and I would finally have the family that I've always wanted. I would be part of the Weasley's, a family I've always wished was my own." He says all of this and I know what he means, we've had a conversation about family before and he's told me multiple times how he wished the Weasley's were his family. I just never imagined he would go about things this way to make it official.
"What about us? I love you Harry. I've always been here for you even when she turned her back on you. Even when you dated her, you always came to talk to me with your problems, hell even problems you had with her!" I say to him not holding back my feelings. I'm not one to beg but he can't be serious right now. He can't be on the verge of throwing us away this easily.
Harry runs both hands through his hair, a habit he started doing 4th year when he was nervous and his hair desperately needed a hair cut.
"I can't do this with you anymore Daphne. I don't feel the way you think I do" he says and I can tell he is lying. He is biting his lip and refusing to look me in the eyes. There is more to this and I won't stop until I know exactly what is happening.
"Liar!" I shout and he flinches looking startled. I never shout. I was raised to be the future Lady Greengrass and shouting is unbecoming of a lady and I always said you get more done when you keep your emotions in check. Well clearly that is not working out for me tonight.
"Daph…" he tries to grab my arm and I pull away.
"If you wan't to break things off with me then tell me the truth Harry. Do not sit there and lie to me and tell me you don't love me. I know you better than you know yourself." I tell him no longer hiding my anger. "I DESERVE the truth after all these years" I say lowering my voice to an almost whisper.
Harry grabs the nearest item, which happened to be a book, and throws it at the door while letting out a low growl. I stare at him waiting for him to tell me the truth. His anger used to scare me but no longer does. He takes a deep breath then looks at me guiltily, he has always hated it when he loses his temper in front of me. He sits down in the chair and holds his face in his hands. I wait patiently like I've always waited for him. After a few minutes of silence he looks up at me, folding his hands under his chin and leaning on them.
"Ron found out about our relationship Daph. He found the last letter you wrote to me and confronted me about it. We had a long conversation and he said a few things that was made me realize I needed to make a decision. He said how if I stayed with you then I would lose the Weasley's forever. Can't you see? They are all the family I have and I can't lose them. I've already lost too many people close to me and I can't lose the only family I've ever known" he says through tears and I can hear the pain in his voice.
"You don't know that Harry. You don't know that you will lose them. Ron is an idiot he doesn't know how his family will react" I say sitting next to him and grabbing his hands.
"The thing is Daphne I don't think I could risk losing them. They are the parents and siblings I've always wanted. The first people to accept me for me. They would not accept me with anyone but Ginny, least of all a Slytherin" he says looking at me with pleading eyes to forgive him.
"What about me? What about us? You love ME Harry, you can't deny that" I say as I touch his face and he leans into my touch.
"You're right. I do love you Daphne. I really do" he says and my heart flutters hoping he will change his mind. "I just can't lose my family Daph. I've lost so many people in this war: my parents, Sirius, Remus, Tonks, Dumbledore, hell even Snape. I can't lose any more family" he says pleading with me to understand.
"So you choose them over me?" I say slowly realizing how our love story is about to end.
Harry slowly nods his head and says "I'm so so sorry Daph" and I let out a sob before he envelops me in a hug. The thing is, I can't even be mad at him. I've lost so much family in this war as well and I would give anything to have them back, but the difference between us is I don't know if I would give up Harry for them.
As I start to calm down I can tell he is also crying. I pull back and stare at him for a few seconds before kissing him. He is frozen for a few seconds before kissing back.
"Daphne…" he says as he slowly pull away trying to stop me.
"Please Harry, if this is my last night with you leave me with one last night to remember you. I know there is no tomorrow with you, that there is no happily ever after. Just give me one last night, one last memory, one last touch, one last love" I beg staring at him hoping he would give me one last memory of us. I slowly see his resolve breaking as he looks at my eyes then my lips before slowly kissing me.
He picks me up bridal style and takes me to his room and lays me on the bed not taking his lips away from me. We know each others bodies like no other person would, we were each other's firsts after all.
He kisses me with a passion that only he can give me. In one swift motion he takes my dress off and I unbutton his shirt before taking off his belt and pants. I could use magic but I don't want to take my hands off him, fearing that this is a dream and that he would disappear if I do.
Harry kisses every inch of my body leaving marks on me in a bid to claim me as his one last time. I reciprocate making sure there are hickeys all over his body sneakily doing this hoping she would notice one and know that his heart and body were taken by someone else. I kiss him fiercely on the lips and he slowly enters me. We make love that night twice, the first being passionate and wild letting all our emotions out. The second time it is slow and we never break eye contact trying to both portray the love we have for each other. Afterwards we hold each other one last time and I fall asleep in the arms of the only man I will ever love.
When the first rays of sunlight start to filter in through the window I slowly start to open my eyes. I am still in Harry's arms and feel something wet hitting my face. I look up and notice he is crying and I slowly wipe his tears away and kiss him. I then stand up and start to get dressed before I then look him in the eyes and say the hardest words I will ever say.
"I love you Harry. I know why you're doing this and I will let you go. I don't agree with you and I think part of me will always love you. I honestly don't think I can love someone the way I love you but I know you've made your decision and you're too hard headed for me to try to change your mind." I say with a small smile and notice he also smiled at that last part.
"I hope you'll be happy Harry. I really do, but the selfish part of me hopes you're not as happy as you were with me. I hope you're happy but don't be happier, I hope you learn to love her but not like you love me" I say as a tear falls down my cheeks. He starts to get up but I turn and walk out the door, heading to the floo and leaving his house.
Hey all! This is a story I have had stuck in my head for days nor and really wanted to write it. I've had writers block for Sober, so I'm hoping getting this story out will help. Here is the first chapter of Midnight Rain and the next one should be coming later this week :)
Happy Sunday!
-Lily