Petra always reminded her of fall.
Even though the nature of the season was depressing, she couldn't shake off the feelings that the ginger woman brought upon her when she joined the special operation squad.
Her laugh was magical, her smiles were like the rays of sunshine breaking through the sad reality they lived in.
At first Levi thought it bothered her. She was trying to ignore the change Petra brought, but her cold demeanor didn't stop the new subordinate from sticking to her side, offering help with anything she could.
"I know it shouldn't be important but it's comforting to have a woman as my superior officer. You, being humanity's strongest, was my biggest motivation to join the scouts."
That confession broke Levi's heart. It was when she realized she hoped Petra's adoration was coming from a different place.
The sun that was Petra's smile didn't hit the same after that.
Levi wasn't an open person. She never discussed her preferences nor experiences with anyone, and the only people aware of them were the ones who were a part of it.
She never had a need for sex nor love. If her body had needs, she could take care of it herself.
She noticed Petra's beauty and her eyes wandered to appreciate her body more than she wanted to admit to herself.
The real problem was the ache in her chest that the ginger started to cause every time they spent time together. It usually came out of nowhere. They could spend hours together in her office, filing paperwork, sipping tea and occasionally chatting, then suddenly that feeling came and Levi wanted to run away as far as she could. Petra was the kind of danger she never dealt with before.
There came a day when she decided to fuck it. She had to. Keeping her emotions deep and covered until she herself forgot about them was her specialty, after all.
Like an universe playing with her, the same evening she crossed paths with Petra in the showers. The pink on the short-haired girl's cheeks when she saw her topless were engraved in Levi's mind after that.
It took her a week of shifting from side to side in bed at night before she came to the conclusion that maybe, maybe , there was a chance of Petra reciprocating her feelings.
"Captain, let's finish for tonight. You look tired. Have you been sleeping well lately?" Petra asked in worry. Levi felt guilty for liking how much she cared about her well-being.
"Sure." she replied with a sigh and closed a folder of documents on her desk. Petra stood up and took it to put it back at its spot on the shelf nearby. Levi followed her with her eyes, feeling a wave of longing.
Even in this humble setting, Petra looked divine. Her moves are so delicate. Levi thought that all the ridiculous descriptions of princesses in books for children were about people like her. Even in battle Petra's technique was unique.
Before she realized, she was standing beside and when the ginger turned, she gasped in surprise and her back hit the wall behind her.
Their eyes met and Levi drowned in the gold of the woman's eyes.
They stood there, neither moving but both breathing shallowly, looking deep into each other's eyes.
Levi's hand rose up and she brushed her fingertips over Petra's soft cheek. Beautiful skin blushed when she put her other hand on the wall beside her head.
Her heart beat like crazy.
"Please tell me to stop." she whispered, feeling her heart clenching, awaiting rejection, disgust and tears.
Petra was holding her breath, a red color crawling onto her face,
"Don't…" she whimpered and Levi felt her heart sinking.
"Don't stop" Petra finished nervously, not moving an inch as if it would make her go away.
A spark appeared in her Captain's gray eyes. Her heartbeat pacing when she leaned in to place a kiss on the edge of Petra's lips. It was soft, nothing like anything she did in her usual manners. Too worried of scaring the sweet subordinate away with her burning feelings towards her.
Before she could move away, Petra grabbed her jacket and pulled her back to her lips, yearning for a proper kiss. For a moment, Levi's mind felt hazy. Petra's lips felt like honey, soft in a way that made her head spin. She reciprocated the kiss and moved closer until she pinned Petra's body to the wall with her own.
She couldn't get enough of her and when their lips parted for air she moved to leave soft kisses on her jaw and down her neck. That was until she felt Petra's hands touching the sides of her head. She got back to her senses and straightened up, clearing her throat awkwardly. The sight of Petra's fragile expression made her soften.
"I don't understand." the ginger said close to tears from all the confusion that she felt. "Can it be right? I never felt like this before."
Levi raised her hand and slowly put a strand of Petra's hair behind her ear.
"Do you hate it?"
"No, I… I want it but…why do you want me?"
Levi's eyebrows went up.
"Are you kidding?"
"There are so many men longing for you, I'm nothing special and I'm…a woman." she said under her breath, looking away in distress.
"Petra." Levi sighed and caressed her cheek with her palm. "Do you think I care for what other people think?"
"Usually, no…"
"I care about how you feel about me. And that's fucking scary. So don't you dare think of yourself as nothing but special." she said, leaning close, making their foreheads touch.
The night was cold and Levi waited impatiently for Petra to open the window to her quarters for her. She finally saw the ginger head peeking out of it and she moved instantly to climb the building and jump right in.
"I'm so sorry! I had to go to the bathroom."
"Better shit before going to bed than keeping it inside."
Petra tried to hide her embarrassment and she tugged on her sleeve.
Spending nights together became normal for them. The progress of the relationship they didn't put a name onto was slow and comfortable. Being openly there for each other was what fulfilled their hearts the most.
Levi usually didn't sleep in the same bed with another person but falling asleep with Petra on her side became one of her favorite parts of what was between them. She took off her boots and scooped surprised Petra off her feet to bring her to bed.
"It's cold, go under the sheets, right now."
"Yes, Captain." Petra giggled and pulled her to make her join her side. Levi slipped under the covers.
"Come here." she ordered and lifted the sheets. Petra's big golden eyes were piercing her for a moment before she moved to hide between her lover's arms. Levi embraced her and pulled her close. "You're freezing."
"That's why I'm lucky to have you!"
"Hmm. Since I'm leaving tomorrow you should get yourself warmer clothes."
She could feel Petra physically deflating after those words. The task she was assigned to made her leave the quarters for a week and it was the first time they had to part ways since the confession.
"Levi… don't forget about me when you're out there. Okay?" Petra asked timidly and Levi couldn't believe how ridiculous that was.
"I already miss you." she replied despite the embarrassment.
"Ah… good. I'll be waiting for your return with a new tea blend from the city."
Levi hummed thinking about the idea.
"You know how to keep me excited."
Petra fell silent and after a moment Levi felt her finger drawing circles on the skin of her neck. A wave of heat went through her body. She knew Petra enough to know she was trying to say something, so she waited patiently, giving her space to gather her thoughts.
"I'm… sorry I'm not a man…"
"Huh?" Levi was so thrown out by her words that she sat up to look at her. Petra looked concerned and embarrassed. "What in hell are you talking about?"
The ginger covered her face with her hands before also sitting up, even though she couldn't look her lover in the eyes.
"I don't know how to make a woman feel good. I don't have the… Capacity?"
The confusion didn't leave Levi's face but her body relaxed.
"You want to make me feel good?" she asked in a calmer tone. A nod came as a response to her words. It soothed her nerves.
"That's a stupid thing for you to say because," she paused while crawling her way above her body. She leaned down to look Petra's in the eyes. "There are different ways of how people get satisfied. And I'm more than fond of the body you have."
Petra's face was red, but there was still an uncertainty in the way she looked at her.
"What would satisfy you?" she asked shyly, staring at Levi's serious face.
"I want to see you tremble under my touch. I want to hear your pleasure. I will fuck you and two fingers is all I need."
Petra gaped at her in shock, a deep blush on her cheeks visible even in the moonlight covering them. Levi couldn't stop a smile at this pure sight.
"But only if you let me." she added, cupping her cheek in her palm.
Petra let out a shallow breath and inched closer to kiss her. Her arms embraced the slim figure of her lover, pulling her down with her.
Levi wasn't in a rush. She wanted to savor every second of their first time. Her hands moved down Petra's sides, sensually gripping and letting go of her while she dared to explore her mouth with her tongue. Petra's breath quickened and she pulled her closer by throwing her legs over her hips. Levi groaned in a low voice, now regretting she wasn't better prepared for this unexpected night.
The heat between them was just what they needed during a cold night like this one. Levis' hand wandered down from her side and between her legs, not venturing too far.
"Did you do it yourself, thinking of me?" She asked, leaning to the woman's ear. A soft bite on her earlobe made Petra shiver. "I certainly did."
"Captain…" Petra breathed out and covered her face with her hand, embarrassed by her words. "Don't say such things…"
Levi couldn't help but smirk. The view of her blush was her absolute favorite. Her fingers reached her heat, slowly mapping the shape of her folds through the material of her pants.
"Is the reality of it better?" She teased her and moved to kiss her neck. With the steady stroking of her fingers, she could feel Petra getting wet, material between them getting damp with her excitement. She moved the collar of her shirt down, uncovering her arm and fixed the sheets to still protect her from the cold. Every freckle on her pale skin deserved a kiss and Levi didn't mind taking her time with it. Her finger pushed on Petra's core, making the woman moan. The sound of it was more lewd than Levi expected and she could feel her own insides clenching at the sound.
She took a shaky breath and looked Petra's in the eyes.
"Are you a virgin?"
"N-no. But I don't have much experience."
"Tell me if it's too rough." Levi replied and raised her hand only to slide it under the waistband of the woman's pants. Petra pulled her closer and hid her face in her chest when she finally touched her directly. Levi's fingers drowned in her arousal and she rolled her thumb over her sensitive bud.
"Ahh! Captain Levi!" Petra squirmed and hugged her tighter, digging fingernails into her back.
As much as Levi wanted to make fun of the fact she called her by her title in bed, she was too turned on to focus on that. She didn't remember the last time her mind was so lustful. She dug her fingers deep into her core and moved them inside, hooking the end of them, searching for Petra's sweet spot.
It was very obvious when she did, concluding from the gasp that followed. Petra's hands were lost on her back and she groaned when the ginger started to kiss her chest. Too focused on pleasuring her, she didn't expect it at all. She pulled Petra's pants down with her other hand until one of her legs was freed under the covers and moved to position herself between them. She grabbed Petra by her jaw and brought her lips to her own with passion that even she didn't expect from herself.
Petra let out a deep moan when her captain pushed her fingers deep inside her with the force of her hips on her hand. The act was turning Levi on, making her moves faster and more intense with each minute that passed. She moved to suck on Petra's neck, desperate to leave as many marks for the next day as she could.
Petra whined in pleasure, reaching her peak but Levi didn't stop working on her pulsing insides, although she slowed down the movements. She moved her head up just enough to look at her subordinate's undone face when she was recovering from her bliss. The ginger opened her eyes when she took her hands off her.
That wasn't for long because without question, she gestured her to turn around, again fixing the sheets over them so the cold of the night wouldn't ruin her comfort. Petra obeyed instantly, even though her movements were slow due to her state. Once her lover's fingers plunged right back to her slit, she hugged the pillow.
Levi's hand wandered under her shirt to massage her breast then moved to teasing her nipple. She noticed Petra hiding her face in the pillow.
If only she had her equipment prepared, she'd fuck her senseless, not letting her body forget about her for the whole duration of her absence. At least she could do that to her mind without it.
She pinched Petra's nipple, earning a small shake of her body. The woman's juices covered her whole hand at that point.
Levi leaned down and in a rush move moved the material of her shirt down, uncovering her nape. Petra arched her body, moving her head up with a sound of surprise and right after that closed her mouth shut, trying to suppress a moan from the way Levi kissed and bit her skin.
She came again, dripping wet on the sheets.
They met in the morning in the dining area. Levi left Petra's room before the woman even woke up, to not raise suspicion. Fortunately, she managed to get a few hours of sleep despite that.
Petra looked dreamy, a bit dazed despite her usual neat look. She blushed when their eyes met. Levi wondered if anyone else was able to see the small change in the way she was walking. Maybe she was too rough with her after all.
There was a hidden longing in their eyes when they looked at each other from the other sides of the room.
As the small group of scouts rode their horses through the lands between walls, Levi's mind was far away. She thought of seeing Petra's naked body in full glory as soon as the days would get warmer again. All the ways she was about to stretch and bend it-
"Hey! Shorty, I'm talking to you!"
Levi frowned, thrown off from her daydream and looked to Hange riding at her side.
"What's occupying your mind more than my new discoveries?" He asked grumpily.
"Literally everything." Levi replied, looking back on the horizon in front of her.