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This is what happened in after Joey went to Paris including her correspondence with her friends and how things built up to the finale.
Chapter 1:
The Real Thing .
It's 5 o'clock afternoon in Paris, I wonder what happened between Dawson and Pacey .I tricked them to meet .I want them to become friends again ,maybe Pacey gave Dawson the money and they reconciled or maybe things got worse .I left them both without goodbyes ,I finally went to Paris.
Things went crazy last spring ,Pacey lost everything including Dawson's money invested in that Medical stock .Dawson's dream to shoot his script was crushed and the bitter horrible confrontation they had together was one of the worst events in my life. Although Pacey apologized Dawson was devastated and did not accept it .I started thinking that I shouldn't have asked Pacey to shave his beard ,maybe it was a luck charm as he mentioned .After I dumped him at the Harley's party , I didn't hear from him or knew anything about him .I just saw that reporter coming out from his apartment one night after I closed the café . I didn't try to contact him ,I felt his pain during our last dance ,the sighs ,the silence and the looks .It was like a closure ,I thought he didn't want anything to do with me . Honestly I did not understand my feelings back then ,during our night in K-mart I felt horrible that he was going to sleep with that girl ,i have no explanation to that feeling .I wanted to see his face badly ,I don't know what happened to me when I finished shaving his beard and looked into his face ,as if he just came back from a very long trip and then he kissed me and of course Pacey being Pacey, poured out his heart .I was surprised ,I thought Pacey got over me and stopped loving me .He even didn't want to see me when he came back from his summer job on the Dean's boat .He dated my roommate -after having my blessing – but still what could I have done other than that .I myself ran after Dawson only few weeks after we broke up .And I had no claim over him .Anything I would have said or done would be just like what Dawson did to me and him during our Jr.& Sr. year .I wanted him to be happy .
Back to K-mart night .I jumped into his sleeping bag and kissed him .Next day I went to see him and we agreed to think about getting back together and I was happy and smitten .We went on dates and i even worked for his firm one day during which I got extremely jealous from that reporter and then we made out like crazy and after a passionate kiss in my workplace I was going to spend the night with him and I had plans to stay in his bed .Then Eddy showed up that same night and again I was confused .Though I told Eddy I moved on ,I was not happy about ending things with him WHY ? please I have no answer for that .During Harley's dance I remembered how my heart was broken during Sr.Prom .I saw Patrick and that other guy fighting over Harley and then I couldn't take it anymore ,I can't go through this again regardless of how much I loved Pacey .I liked Eddy too even bordering on loving him so I ran to him.
Do I love Pacey? My only answer would be Pacey's love is what a woman feels for a man ,yes he is my man in the back of my mind I am his lady .I feel safe and loved when I am with him and the scariest thing ,I know he is the one who I am supposed to be with .The father of my children and my life partner . But how can a 19 years old girl accept that .How can I trust him with my heart again .I still have dreams ,I want to pursue .Our love was based on a history of slow build up and then a dream on a boat .How can I forget those summer lazy nights on that boat or these ports or Disney land or those odd jobs or adventures or lying in his arms feeling safe. It is more than love , you can love anyone but what I felt or still feel for Pacey is something beyond love . I was crushed when we broke up .
I couldn't explain how did I feel when he gave me that envelope full of money to give to Dawson
Only Pacey can do this. Only him can do this outrageous, unexpected gestures for his friend.
I was worried when I saw him on the couch, miserable and hopeless, watching his soap operas but I knew he will get up on his feet again .He is used to life tests and loss. He is smart and resourceful and he succeeds in almost everything he puts his mind on.
He just needed to believe in himself and knows his qualities. So my story with Pacey will continue but not now.
Did I love Eddy?
Yes, enough to have sex with him but not enough to escape to Europe with him or to feel shattered after we broke up.
Do I love Dawson? Yes, he is my childhood friend, my soulmate and the dreamer brother I never hadn't.
Our romantic story ended the day we had sex ,that was the last step in our saga. The last of a series what ifs that destroyed all our romantic prospects and kept us going in circles hurting ourselves and others.
We don't work as lovers .I knew that as for Dawson I don't know how does think about us ,But we didn't talk for almost a year and it is ok .
After me and Eddy broke up, I went back home and we spoke for the first time after a long period of Radio silence. We talked about losing each other and me scared to grow up. Then he said one true thing "sometimes you should lose someone completely to know what do they really mean to you ".
That night we talked and talked and just when we were leaving his house ,we found pacey with the horrible news .The boys told each other a lot of painful stuff .I was concerned with Dawson .Dawson doesn't know life troubles and agonies apart from losing his dad .He was a dreamer with parents who can make most of his wishes come true on the other hands ,pacey was used to that kind of life situations.
It was a disastrous confrontation.
I went back to college and then summer came ,I went back home and it was like our Sr. year.
The two boys crossed with each other's and I am in between .
I decided this won't happen or continue .I will find a way for Dawson to shoot his script .And things between him and pacey must go back to normal.
I will start with Dawsons movie !
Chapter 2
We all decided to help Dawson to shoot his movie with 10 dollars and a dream .
Jen and Jack got the equipment. I took care of the cast Audrey as Ma.Jacobs
Patrik as Pacey Junior and Harley as myself .
Dawson will be played by George ( Dawson Junior ).Gale sent SOS to Todd who came asap to assist .Pacey did not show up even after I saw him at Doug's .He had this belief that he will destroy everything and that nothing will be ever the same between us (the triangle he meant) ,However Asperger's usual he surprised me with the money he collected.His spirit also was high that day as Kristie Livingstone flirted with him and gave him her number .
I decided that these boys need me out of their lives for a while .I wanted them to sort out things without me in between ,regardless of how I felt for Pacey or how much I will miss my friendship with Dawson.They need to focus on rebuilding their friendship and pursuing their dreams or passions meaning to succeed in professional and maybe live life .
As for me I need to learn to grow up and to focus on overcoming my fears to stop being 15 years old scared girl.
I flew to Paris and set them up hoping they will find away to forget the past sour 3 years.
Just when I was wondering what happened I got this email from Dawson
To :Jpotter
From:Dleery
Subject :Joey Potter amateur peace maker
Hey Jo,
I called the B and Bessie told me you flew to Paris.
I will not talk about that now ,but I wanted to tell you that your plan sort of worked . I met Pacey and I gotta tell you once he saw me he figured it all out. He knows you very well BTW ,when I asked him about your whereabouts he said he didn't know but assumed you are not coming and he even told me exactly what was on your mind while you were setting this plan .He gave me the money .Imagine Joe he went to every local Business asking them to help me. How does he do this ??? . I think this will be a new start between me and him. I am happy we spoke and cleared it all.He promised he will give me the rest of the money back .I don't doubt he could .
I will continue shooting our story Joe ,The 4 of us
I will update you with events of coming weeks.I miss you .Enjoy Paris ,enjoy your dream .
love Dawson .
It worked ,my plan worked .Pacey and Dawson will get closer again and with me out of the picture ,they will lean on each other again .
I will reply to Dawson.
From:JPotter
To:DLeery,
Subject :Wonderful news
Hey Dawson,
You really made my day .
I am glad you and Pacey worked things out and I am glad now you have some funds to complete your project.
I am sorry I flew without saying goodbye,I just wanted to go and leave you guys to sort things out .It would be much easier if I am not caught between you .I had no doubt Pacey will help and of course he did something no one would think about.But this is how much he cares about you .I think losing you as a friend was very hard on him as it was on you .The past 3 years were worst for him and you.
Now I am in Paris pursuing my dream .The moment I saw Eiffel Tower.I realized that I had another dream came true .I am sure you will reach your dreams soon and be a big Hollywood man.
take care Dawson and keep me updated .
love
Joey .
2 weeks passed and nothing from Pacey .I wanted to contact him,but I thought I should give him some time to figure out what he will do with his life .So I was going to give him one more week and then shoot him an e-mail. However he sent me a msg one Friday night.
From :Pwitter
to Jpotter
Subject :Thank you
Dear Joey :
Thank you for arranging this encounter with Dawson .Things are getting better between me and him.I actually spend some time on the set and enjoy watching our history.
I am happy you had another dream come true ,but I never had a doubt you will achieve all your dreams .I wish that you are happy above all anything .I want you to know that you are always loved .
take care potter
sincerely Pacey .
I didn't know what to figure out from this msg. I replied
From :Jpotter
To:Pwitter
Subject: You are welcome Witter.
Hey Pace,
I am glad you and Dawson are getting closer .And yes can you imagine I am in Paris.There is a Disney land here ,I am planing to visit it .Di you think they have same fireworks like the one in Orlando ?? .Pacey I don't mean to interfere,but what are you going to do ? Are you going back to Boston ?Did you find a job ?
Pacey you are a smart genius who can succeed in anything-except for ball room dancing - you need to believe in yourself .
I have no doubt you will get back on your feet in no time.
Pacey I will wait for you next msg impatiently.
with love
Joey
next day he send me an e-mail
From :Pwitter
To :Jpotter
Subject: Pacey Witter calling in life
Jo!
Don't worry about me .I took this job as a chef in the restaurant we last saw each other .The owner hired me as an assistant cook but after seeing my cooking skills ,he gave me the Sous chef position.
I am modifying the menu now and as you know cooking is my passion.I am always forever grateful to Brecker. I am not leaving Capeside. Why should I do ? It has everything I need the waters to sail in and the restaurants to cook since it's a touristic town ,restaurant business will always thrive there .To be honest I am surrounded by reminders of my humble achievements.The B .The restoration of true love and Buzz remember Buzz. To be honest leaving Capeside wasn't a priority for me .you know Potter what is my real dream ? My real dream is to find true love yes that's what I am looking for .I would leave Capeside If my true love was not there.I want to find love again to make the girl I love happy and I want a family potter .
I have to tell you this Jo,This unattainable notion is my dream and that's what really make me try hard to succeed in life.I am still healing Jo and I don't know how long will it take me to forget or stop .I will not reveal my feelings for anyone even you .But I believe that someday I will be with that girl my true love.
meanwhile,I will be home cause Jo I am satisfied and content for now .
love
Pacey .
I felt that Pacey found peace . He is doing something he loves and he pinpointed his dream .
I don't know if I am still or will be his true love.But all I feel now is that my story with him isn't over !