Fandom: Victorious
Title: Point of View
Chapter Thirteen: Somebody To Tell Me
Point of View: Cat Valentine
West Express Penthouse Suit
"Talk about what, Jade?"
"HIV, you know my status, Cat."
"Yes, our entire lives. Honey." I stroke her face kissing her cheek and knowing how hard this conversation is for her. 'I love and respect you, so I need to tell you something. You've been on this journey with me, so you understand the basics. Cat, I need you to understand the risk you are taking being intimate with me. I take my health seriously and regularly go to the doctors."
"I know, Jade. I go with you most of the time; Your viral load was still undetectable the last time you went. Undetectable means untransmittable."
"It does; however, the last time I went to was six months ago. I'm sick right now, Cat. Despite ART, bacterial pneumonia may be the first manifestation of underlying HIV infection and can occur at any stage of HIV disease and CD4 count. I don't know my latest viral load count until after the holidays. If it is high, it means the chances of passing HIV increase."
"HIV can be found in vaginal fluid and menstrual blood. The risk of female-to-female sexual transmission is scarce, with only a handful of reported cases; however, transmission is possible through fluids and shared sex toys."
"Jade. I understand the risk, and I am willing to take it. I know the risk increases if you have sex with Noah, and he has sex with me after, and I promise we will use a condom and be extra careful."
"Are you sure, Cat?"
"Yes, I am sure. I am 100% committed to this act, I love you, and I want this, Jade."
She looks down, stroking my face, and nods before leaning down to kiss me. Deeply full of passion and tenderness. Her fingers were amazingly soft as they slid all over my body, from my cheek tenderly running down my sides, touching my thighs as her kisses covered my breasts. I moaned and wiggled under her hot and loving touch. Until she touches me down there, I let out a large gasp squealing with excitement and anticipation. "Do you feel this spot, Cat?" Her fingers rubbed a susceptible area inside my vagina. "Y~es." "Oh, my god. What is it, Jade?"
"This is called your Clitoris or Clit. Right behind it is your G-spot. These two are where your arousal will most likely happen, the most sensitive spots on a female body, and some of the most pleasure you will ever have, baby."
Jade rubs my spot faster, making me moan louder and cry out in pleasure, grabbing her shoulders and burying my face into her chest as she increases the pressure. The sounds of her fingers are slippery as she circles my clit, kissing my labia all over, forcing my legs open wider. "Ooh, Jade. Ooh feels so good. Yes, baby. Right there. Oh, God." My lips part as I gasp deeply, feeling her stick two fingers inside me. "It's okay, Cat. If you want to kiss my breasts, or suck on my neck, anything which helps you feel more comfortable."
"I've always wanted to do this with you, Jade. I've been so scared to ask."
"You never have to be scared to ask me anything, Cat. Ever."
She kisses me deeply her tongue swirls around inside, sending me over the edge. I gently kiss her shoulder down her chest, then up again, hearing her moan and feeling her cry into my tenderness. I kiss her neck, sucking on it as she advises me. Her hair falls over her shoulder as her fingers and mouth work to please me. I brush it away, kissing her neck, licking a little, and giggling at how funny my rough tongue feels against her tender slick skin. Nervously I cup my hands under her breasts; they feel so full and heavy in my delicate hands.
Her breast rings glitter, and I take the opportunity to touch them; she shivers, and I feel her laugh a little her breath tickles me down there. I worry I am hurting her, but she grinds her nipples against my fingers, moaning into my vagina, so I know she likes when I touch them.
Tentatively I massage them feeling her body twist and shiver under my touch, which feels powerful knowing I can evoke such emotions. I feel her nipples harden under the touch of my fingers. I kissed slowly down her chest after finishing with her neck. To her collarbone, where I lick and suck, grinding my body against her touch, allowing her deeper access; my legs part wider as I moan into her neck. I shake a little gripping her shoulders, unsure of what is happening. My body tightens as she sucks on my labia and flicks her tongue against my throbbing center. She sucks on my clit for fifteen minutes, driving me wild. "AAAAAAH! ARGGGGGG!"
I can't take it; she's making me feel sensations I have never felt. "OH, NO, NO, NOOOOO, Ja~DEY, what is happening?" My body is so tight. I'm dizzy; I can't see straight; all I see is bright white heat which has consumed my entire body in its claws. My mouth is dry from screaming. My opening feels vast, wet, and incredibly hot—a smoldering of sparks and fireworks, electric tingles of pleasure, followed by shocks and new sensations.
All rising and building like thunderstorms. Without warning, my chest squeezes so tight that air cannot enter my lungs. My eyes feel as if they are rolling back, and my body arches rising in flames of pleasure. I feel myself squirt a little; the fluid runs down my thighs, shocking me into grabbing her shoulders; the tension coils my entire body like a snake-eating prey. I can't even moan all I can do is bury myself in her grasp.
Making me buck, thrash, and shudder under Jade's touch, she stops and crawls up to me, kissing me profoundly, holding my body close as I press my breasts and her thighs to my hips.
When I settle down a little, she smiles and wipes my tears off my cheeks. "How was your first oral sex experience, Cat? It brought you to an orgasm. Are you okay?" I nod, biting my lower lip, still feeling tingling sparks electrifying my body. "Do you want to try giving me oral, Cat?" "I don't know if I will be any good, Jade. I've never done anything like this before."
"You don't have to be nervous, Cat. I will love anything you do to me because I know it's done with love and tenderness."
"I would like to try."
"You don't have to, Cat. I don't want to make you uncomfortable." "You didn't, Jade. I don't want to disappoint you or make you regret agreeing to do this for me."
"I won't, Cat; I know you aren't an except. I agreed to teach you so you can become comfortable and excited about sex. It's an amazing feeling women shouldn't be made to feel ashamed about their sexual desires."
"Thank You, Jade. I-I think I am ready. Can you help me a little? Show me?" she smiles once again, kissing me. "It's okay to look, Cat." She reached down and took my left hand, guiding it toward her private area. "It's okay to touch."
She lifts the covers off our bodies, giving me a look as she lies on her back. I change positions crawling on top of her nervously. I move down the bed as she spreads her legs. I touch her stomach, kissing it lightly and licking her navel ring, making her shiver.
"Why am I so nervous, Jade? It's not like I don't own one of these things." We both laugh a little. She strokes my hair. "Because you know their sensitivity and care about my comfort level." I crawl down, overwhelmed a bit; everything is resting on my next move. It was anxiety and nervousness, but it was all masked by adrenaline, and it was just helping me to get focused. Oh, wow, I was not prepared for this. "Oh, what a pretty vagina, Jade." "Thank You, Cat. I keep it trimmed and shaved because I feel pride in my appearance, even if it's parts most people will never see. I know it's there, and I need it to be as pretty as my visible features."
"I'm sorry, was that corny? I am so nervous." "No, Cat. It was sweet. Thank You. I take time to clean myself up, so it's wonderful when someone notices and lets me know it's appreciated." "You can smell it, Cat; the female form is nothing short of a work of art that I feel a great sense of awe and admiration for, don't be shy." I feel heat rush to my face, but I bury my face inside her legs and sniff. It's hard to describe, but to me, it has a strong but pleasant, earthy smell. It's the most intoxicating smell in the world. It's a mixture of the scent of sweat and then something else. I can't pinpoint the other fragrance, but it's pleasant. Robust and earthy, with an almost soapy smell.
Letting go of my nerves as I listen to the music and the steady hum of life from the outside world. I finally lick my lips face to face with her beautiful throbbing pink heaven begging to be touched. Everything about her was perfect; as I got closer, I could feel the heat rising from inside. Knowing her sensitivity, I resisted the urge to drive my tongue inside. Instead, I ran my nails over her slit and kissed along the outside of her labia. Barely touching her slit but with enough pressure to make her wiggle.
"Mmm, Cat. Perfect." I move closer, planting smaller butterfly kisses across her slit. I barely hear her over the beating of my heart and the blood rushing into my ears.
"Yes, baby. You're doing amazing."
Her response encourages me. I lick her lips slowly at first, gagging her reaction, which is powerful; she spreads her legs, moaning, running her hands through my hair, down my back, rubbing circles along the edge of my spine, making me shake. She lands on my butt and squeezes it lightly. She was slapping it even lighter.
Happy and confident in my abilities, I push the tip of my tongue into her center. It's warm, and her walls clench tightly around my tongue. I travel from the bottom, teasing her until I reach the top. With each pass from bottom to top and top to bottom, I gain more speed and confidence. I am adding more pressure, slipping further inside.
I sit between her legs for a minute and watch her; she's gorgeous. I place my hands on her thighs, pushing them wider, watching as she smiles at me. I feel my smile spread wider as she points her knees to the ceiling wiggling her butt so she gets into a better position. Wide open now, she grins at me, awaiting my next move.
"Does that feel good?" "Do you like it?" She whimpers and breathes out wonderfully. "Oh, yes, Cat. Very Much. I'm so excited to be together finally. Thank You for trusting me. I loved it when you slid into me the first time like that. I want that feeling over and over."
"Oh, Ooh." She gasped, clutching the sheets as I moved my tongue deeper inside, flicking it against her walls and finding her clit, which I could feel swelling as I kissed it, sucking on it as she had done to me. I held her hips down, pressing myself into her sweetness, licking her deeply, teasing her, diving into her, and recurrently pulling away.
I took a moment to get some air into my lungs before cupping her butt checks into my hands, loving how round and firm they felt inside my hands. I squeeze them and massage them, making her squeal. Her slickness coats my hands as she drips gently. I lick her; she moans as my tongue licks her inner walls and follows to the outside. I am catching a few unshaven hairs on the way, which make her jump.
When my fingertips find her clit, I feel her tighten, and I know she's close. Realizing how near she is by the way she's panting and crying out my name, I push two fingers inside, pushing her over the edge; the extra length mixed with my tongue closing in around her throbbing clit, her muscles trap my fingers, squeezing them as her back arches she bolts upright gasping and crying tears sliding out of her eyes. Her eyes stare widely at me, and beautifully wild, Azure waves of pleasure spill out of her pupils. Her scream is followed by her orgasm taking over her body. I copy her movements and crawl on top of her, holding her.
I rearrange the pillows and lay beside her gathering her in my arms and pulling her torso closer, spooning her, draping one arm over her breasts, holding her close. She seems content, so I let her rest for a few minutes, knowing she's fatigued. She smiles as her body relaxes after five minutes of spasms.
"It's okay, Jade. Take your time. I enjoy holding you." I kiss her neck as I feel her hand's caress mine. "I've been waiting for this moment forever. I love every second of it. I just needed somebody to tell me it would be okay, and you've made me feel so safe and desired. I love how you've driven all my confusion and doubts out the window and given me confidence. Thank You."
Sitting up, she caresses my cheeks. I can see she's still flushed. "All of this is to make you smile, Cat. You have the most beautiful smile I have ever seen." "Thank You, Jade. Most days, I don't feel beautiful." "Well, you are, Cat. Never forget it." "Hearing you talk about me, Jade. It makes me feel so alive. You are so passionate; you radiate an attitude of ambition and enthusiasm."
She smiles as she reaches over the bed and pulls the dildo out of the package. "Cat, I want you to watch me, so you know how to clean it, prep it." I sit up cross-legged, watching as she sprays a disinfection spray she bought on it, wipes it with a special cloth, and takes out another bottle of gel-like substance. "Always wash it with soap and water after every use, Cat." I nod, tracing my nails over her hands. "What's this stuff, Jade?" "Lubrication, or Lube." She spreads it across the dildo. "Make sure you use it whenever you have sex, female or male. It will help ease the discomfort and pain."
"Promise. I don't like pain."
"Ah, some pain is good."
"No, Jade. No pain is good. Ever."
She smirks and laughs as she pulls out a condom. "I want you to wear this Cat." "How do you use it?" "I'll show you how to place it on a penis and inside of you." I watch as Jade shows me both ways, grateful, I have such a beautiful woman to call my best friend.
I was lying back down after the demonstration, and once the condom was secure inside me, which felt cold and strange. I open my legs wide as possible for her. She attaches the harness to herself and positions herself above me. "You ready?" "As much as I can be, just go slow." "I will promise." She pushes the tip inside of me. I squeak, gasping as the pain tears through my lips.
"Should I stop?"
"No."
She pushes slowly, inch by inch. "God, it hurts." "I know, honey. I am so sorry." She continues to move my body reacts. My legs ache and tremble as my back arches. Her hands rest on my shoulders, pulling my chest, so it's against hers. "Try to relax, Cat; the tenser you are, honey, the more it will hurt."
She pushes, stopping to give me time as my muscles stretch, making me groan. "Does it always hurt this bad, Jadey?" "Yeah, the first few times until you are stretched, but it will get easier, and you will feel pleasure." "I'm easing in slowly, only about two inches in right now. Keep breathing. Sing to yourself if it helps."
Singing seems impossible, but it may distract me. I take a deep breath and close my eyes. An old Irish folk song my mom often sings comes to mind.
Believe Me, if all those endearing young charms
which I gaze on so fondly today
were to change by tomorrow and fleet in my arms
like fairy gifts fading away
Thou wouldst still be adored
as this moment thou art.
"I love when you sing, Cat." Jade thrusts her hips forward, taking the strap-on deeper inside. I cry out, and tears fall. My breathing is ragged, but I know I need to calm myself, so I keep singing softly.
"Let thy loveliness fade as it will
and around the dear ruin each wish of my heart
would entwine itself verdantly still
It is not while beauty and youth are their own
and thy cheek unprofaned by a tear
that the enthusiasm and faith of a soul can be known
to which time will but make thee dear
er
oh,oh the heart that has loved never truly forgets
but as truly loves on to the close
as the sunflower turns on her God as He sets
the exact look that she gave when He rose."
"It feels enormous, Jade." "It's not, Cat. I got a small one knowing you would be tender and very tight." She kisses me deeply. "I love hearing you sing, Cat. You sound like my mom, which I know is strange talking about her when we are having sex, but I love her voice."
"I'll sing for you anytime, Jadey. Ow."
Pushing inside of me fully, I scream out, "AHHH." She grabs my waist holding my hips, and goes deeper. "You're very tight, Cat. I'm sorry. I know it hurts. Tell me when you need to stop." She groans as she thrusts her hips. I watch as she slides inside of me. "I'm almost there, Cat."
"Ahh, Jade."
"It feels."
Tears stream down my cheeks as she holds me, kissing my breasts. The feeling of her mouth against my heated breasts feels fantastic. Somehow it feels cold against my wild arousal. It's the most intimate feeling raw no one has ever seen or touched me there before until now. "your hymen is resisting. It's normal for a virgin, Cat. I'm trying not to hurt you more than necessary."
"I know. I trust you."
"Keep singing, Cat. It relaxes you somehow, strangely enough." "Because when I am signing, I can close my eyes and focus on the vision of my song. Not what is happening." "So, close your eyes, sweetie. Sing whatever your heart contends because the most painful part is coming up."
She pressed her nipples against mine, rubbing them together, creating a heated friction that nearly sent me over the edge. I close my eyes, think of which song I should sing, and settle on another old Irish folk song my mom always sings, one I know her mom used to sing.
"You'll remember me when the west wind moves
Among the fields of barley
You can tell the sun in his jealous sky
When we walked in fields of gold.
So, she took her love to gaze for awhile
Among the fields of barley
In his arms, she fell as her hair came down
Among the fields of gold.
Will you stay with me? Will you be my love
Among the fields of barley
And you can tell the sun in his jealous sky
When we walked in fields of gold.
I never made promises lightly.
And there have been some that I've broken
But I swear in the days still left
We will walk in fields of gold
We'll walk in fields of gold.'
Jade thrusts once more, shredding my virginity. I can feel myself tearing. I scream against her shoulder. My body jerks; she holds me, kissing my neck as she slides fully inside me. I'm shaking; the pain is unbearable tears keep falling in salty waves, which she wipes away, kissing my cheeks. "Cat, you are going to be okay. I know the pain seems unquenchable."
"It isn't. I promise."
She pulls out my breathing fast and painfully. I watch her as she wipes the blood off the dildo. My blood. My virginity. She cleans it and lubes it back up. I watch as it bops up and down, still attached to her. It calms my hypertension. Somehow I find myself focusing on how sexy she looks wearing it. She holds me after kissing my neck and shoulders, rubbing my thighs until I am ready to continue.
She edges back inside of me. "Ugh, ugh." "Close your eyes, honey. I'm not going to start until you can picture yourself somewhere else." I follow her instructions feeling her hands caressing my sides and my tender butt. When I close my eyes, I can picture rolling, fertile fields all rich and lush, lovely with all the shades of green leading to rugged cliffs plunging straight down into the sea, such as the Cliffs of Moher and Slieve League. Coasts with colorful harbor towns tucked in safely—Peaty bogland with mountains popping up here and there out west.
I sing softly as I press the vibration button. The toy hums to life as she plunges inside. Jade is kissing my breasts, massaging them softly like a cat kneading a blanket.
"I never made promises lightly
And there have been some that I've broken
But I swear in the days still left
We will walk in fields of gold.
We'll walk in fields of gold.
Suddenly I am hot and comfortable even. My muscles pulsate as she moves in and out of me back and forth. Wow, it's incredible. I feel fluid start to form." Faster, Jade." I breathe out, taking a break from singing. "Are you sure?" "Yes, I can take it. I want it." She starts to move faster, creating a beautiful rhythm. I'm crying as I sing softly, closing my eyes and allowing myself to picture roaring seas crashing along stunning coastlines and seeing a woman on top of the mountains playing the flute. I'm moaning in between bars.
"Many years have passed since those summer days
Among the fields of barley
See the children run as the sun goes down
As you lie in fields of gold.
You'll remember me when the west wind moves
Among the fields of barley
You can tell the sun in his jealous sky
When we walked in fields of gold.
When we walked in fields of gold.
When we walked in fields of gold."
Ten minutes become twenty; she fucks me until I feel the build-up. Jade mumbles moaning deeply. "I can feel every movement, Cat. It feels like you are fucking me." We kiss tenderly, becoming more heated as our hands skim each other's bodies. Jade's admission of the look of pureness and lust on her face is enough to make me plunge into the deepest seas; the orgasm washes over me the way the waves fly over the beaches carrying away pieces of the shore with those powerful waves each time they go.
Laying there in her arms, I listen to the hum of her heart as she sings softly. Her voice is magic to me, deep and rich like the strokes of her inside my walls.
"Come, stop your crying
It'll be all right
Just take my hand
Hold it tight
I will protect you
From all around you
I will be here
Don't you cry
For one so small
You seem so strong
My arms will hold you
Keep you safe and warm
This bond between us
It can't be broken
I will be here
Don't you cry?"
Taking the harness of Jade's body, I slipped the underwear onto my waist and crawled on top of her. She moans, driving down slightly, her body sliding over mine, and I kiss along her shoulders to her chest. I kiss her repeatedly, moving from her lips to her neck, to her eyes, and back to those gorgeous full tasty lips over and over.
My mouth closes over one nipple, sucking, and she screams from the feeling of it all. I'm slowly licking around her nipple, playing with the ring, catching my tongue, tugging a little, and closing my warm mouth over it. She moans instantly.
"It's time to return the pleasure you gave me, my love, and make you feel my love." it feels so good; I love tasting her salty sweetness, slowly licking and sucking, opening wide, sucking as much of her breast into my mouth as I can. My hips start to buck, pushing against her, and I move my hand down between her legs.
"Cat." she breathes my name, excites me, and looks back at my face. "Please."
"Please… Please, touch me… Please…"
I need no second request. My fingers trail along the vulva, gently, slowly, softly, slipping between wet lips, opening her. She gasps, and her breathing grows faster, panting. I tease and lick and suck until I can feel her tightening, then I slide the dildo in with one swift movement shocking her. She sighs as I do.
The strap-on pressed right up against her clit, and she was already so close to cumming. I feel her walls grabbing onto the strap-on, so I lay on top of Jade, sucking on her left nipple as I fuck her intensely. Jade's hips were pounding fiercely into mine, and she started moaning as she gasped out.
"I'm going to cum! Mmm, Cat, Cat!…..fuck me harder and faster. I stopped playing with Jade's nipple and fuck her long and deeper, trying to meet my orgasm. Don't stop – please don't stop."
Jade reached up for my neck and pulled me down, holding our bodies together as she started to cum. Her legs tightly entwined around my back and kept us close.
My climax was building more and more as I fucked Jade. I felt Jade squeeze, clawing at the dildo, and my thrusts also brought her climax. She started moaning louder and louder, and I knew she was cumming so I began to fuck harder, getting her to finish faster. "Happy Birthday, Baby."
"Merry Christmas to me."
"And to me, baby." Jade closes her eyes, moaning as I thrust deeper, licking my tongue over her breasts, and she sings softly. Her orgasm is coming slowly in waves. She doesn't squirt much, but her pleasure is evident all over her trembling body and relaxed face.
Because you'll be in my heart
Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forevermore
Oh, you'll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You'll be here in my heart always
Don't listen to them
'Cause what do they know?
We need each other
To have, to hold
They'll see in time
I know (I know)
I know those lyrics are accurate no matter where life takes us after today; these moments we shared tonight will forever bond us for life. I can't think of anyone I would want to be connected closer to, so I lean down, pulling out and giving her time to gather her thoughts, emotions, and bodily functions as I kiss her, touching her and rolling with her.
"I love you, Jade. From this day on. Now and forevermore. You'll be in my heart."
"You have a beautiful heart, Cat. I am honored and thankful to be in your heart, to touch your body, and to kiss your amazing lips. Thank You for taking the time to tend to my feelings on your birthday."
"Our birthday, baby." I pull the covers over our bodies, tossing the toy aside and holding her, laying my head on her chest. "Guess, I know what they mean by sweet sixteen, now." We both laugh, sharing another tender kiss.
Fields of Gold- Songwriters: Gordon Matthew Sumner.
You'll Be in My Heart lyrics -Songwriters: Phil Collins.
"Believe Me, if All Those Endearing Young Charms" is a popular song written by the Irish poet Thomas Moore.