"Edward, honey, we can't keep doing this, you know that, right?" I pouted, sitting on Edward's lap naked. We had just had sex for the thousandth time.

Jasper and I arrived at the Cullens not even three months ago and Edward and I hit it off immediately. Not even two days after I claimed his bedroom, Edward stole my heart and my body. Our minds were connected, he knew what I needed. I knew what he needed. We were like minded, both young and eager.

I knew however that our relationship was on a clock. I had recently had a vision that Maria was joining our coven. I didn't know how or when, but it was inevitable. Her insatiable lust towards my Jasper put me on the edge. If she joins and I seem unloyal, she will snatch him from right under me.

"Why not just let fate run its course? You and I are obviously mates, Alice. Jasper was just some vessel to bring you to me. He will have his mate soon."

"How are you so sure that Maria is Jasper's mate?" I growled.

"It's possible she isn't, but she will take your spot without a doubt. He will not hurt as much as you think he will."

Edward knew that I worried about breaking Jasper's heart. Despite the past three months, his slips, his attitude, his ignorance, I still wanted the best for him.

"Jasper will have a happy end, Alice. You don't need to worry about him."

"And if he leaves?"

"Then, he leaves. You realize there is nothing for him here without you. He will leave the moment you confess our relationship. That is a trade you will have to take."

I pouted and closed my eyes. This was not something I wanted. I wanted to keep both Jasper and Edward.

"You can't. You know this. It is better for you to confess and break things peacefully. Maybe, he will continue to keep contact with you. Who knows?"

"He won't. I know he won't." I sniffled. I did not want to give Jasper up so soon. If I can keep doing what I've been doing, he won't have an idea. If I keep-

"Alice, that's a dangerous game. He's violent, he will hurt you if he finds out."

"Jasper would never hurt me."

Edward exhaled hard. He was clearly upset that I wasn't willing to give in so easily. I wanted to keep Jasper for as long as I could. We hadn't truly been together for long, it had only been a little over a year between us.

"Then you have to do this." Edward sat up and placed me on the bedding.

He whispered so low that I could barely hear him despite being right in front of him.

"You need to sabotage him."

"Huh?" I exclaimed. Sabotage Jasper? Intentionally? If he was asking me to hurt him, I wouldn't dare.

"His bloodlust. He is struggling now, but eventually he will get better. The reason why we are able to continue our affair so easily is because of his control."

I flinched. This is cruelty! Sabotage Jasper's greatest insecurity? I couldn't. No, I wouldn't.

"You must! We have to actively bring him into situations where he will slip. You and I are this family's main sensors for this type of thing. They will not bat an eye if we bring him to a bloodbath. If we stunt his growth, Carlisle will never allow him at school. He will never catch us."

"That's not- That's too cruel, Edward." I whispered softly.

"Is it? Then are you willing to let Jasper go instead? He will never come back, he will never call you, he will remember you as a dirty liar, a traitor. Which do you wish?"

A sob caught in my throat as my face plummeted into my hands. Edward put his arms around me and traced a comforting pattern into my skin.

"Okay." I answered. I will do this. I will keep Jasper at all costs.

XXXXXX

Edward and I brought Jasper hunting. It had been exactly one month since he last slipped. I kept getting glimpses of Maria in my visions, but she still hadn't arrived. Edward convinced me to stunt Jasper's growth today.

We brought him into a hunting ground, particularly close to a campsite with a lone hunter. He was old and decrepit. We decided he'd be a fine prey for Jasper's sake. We led him to the forest and crept up on the camper. We slit his hands in a mist of quickness and silence. The moment Jasper got a whiff, he was done.

His eyes glowed with hunger and he immediately blitzed for the old man. In a count of less than ten seconds, the man was nothing but a stain on his tent. Jasper was ravenous. It disgusted me. I could not lie. But, I could still remember how Jasper was when he wasn't like this. He was an absolute gentleman, the sweetest man, I could call a lover.

He did everything for me. Everything and anything. If I asked for the moon and the stars, Jasper would find a way to take them for me.

After the entire ordeal, Jasper suffered in silence. He hung his head in shame and I locked himself in our bedroom by himself. He even refused to speak to me. I drove my guilt into a black hole of emotions every time I was near him.

Like Edward said, Carlisle, who had considered taking Jasper to school, had immediately changed his mind.

Afterwards, however, I was overwhelmed with guilt. I almost gave in and told Jasper everything. That I had purposely led him to kill that old man. That I had been betraying him every step of the way.

Edward stopped me. I had been shaking with guilt and he calmed me. Swearing that everything would be alright. That I would heal overtime.

I did. Jasper had mistaken my guilt, my sadness as a result of his own. And with that, he tried his hardest to cheer me up, masking his insecurity and depression in order to make me happy. I was a vile, vile woman. Selfish, too fucking selfish.

A few months later, it happened. Maria had appeared at our front door. I had almost completely forgotten her, but I was still filled with rage at the sight of her. Jasper had too many scars from her, too many terrible memories. But, with those terrible memories, came the good ones. I knew Jasper did not completely despise Maria, in fact, he had been rather friendly with her.

She was drop dead gorgeous, making me fill with jealousy. Even Edward, who I had wrapped around my finger for the last year, was dropping glances at her. She was voluptuous and toned.

Jasper sensed my jealousy and throughout our conversation with her, he held me firmly in his arms. I held his hand like a lifeline, refusing to let go. He comforted me at every chance, even kissing me in front of her in a rare act of public display. I felt immediate superiority over her, as she narrowed her eyes at our kiss.

She had spoken to us about her desire to become better. She had apparently lost her entire army in the South, and had wanted a way to a better life, away from violence. She had found Peter and Charlotte and thus tracked down where Jasper was.

She still, however, did not entail why she wanted to be with Jasper of all people. I had already known of course, that she was attracted to my mate and wanted him above all else.

We had a vote and her stunning and charismatic appearance charmed everybody. Jasper had been shaky on his vote. He felt pity for her, but I firmly voted no and stared at Jasper to do the same. Eventually, he did. However, that wasn't enough.

Carlisle and Esme were enamored by her sob story, and voted her in, effectively nullifying Jasper and I's votes. Rose was indifferent and refused to vote. Emmett voted yes, the idiot.

It didn't matter what Edward said. If our patriarch said yes on a tie, then she was allowed in.

She broke into tears at her acceptance and I could sense that she wanted to hug Jasper. I firmly wound my arms around him and didn't let go, instead, glaring at her for even trying it.

That entire week, I refused to see Edward and I refused to leave Jasper's embrace. My worst fears were coming true. I hated her, I hated how Jasper didn't hate her. I envisioned her head on a spike.

Jasper sensed my overwhelming jealousy and gave me what I needed. As far as I knew, he did not pay much mind to Maria and fully gave me all of his attention. We passionately made love any and every time we were together.

My lust, damned lust. It always gave in however. That week had quickly ended and I was back to Edward's room. I loved Jasper but Edward had claimed me since day one. Our abilities matched to a tee, he knew how I wanted it. Hard, rough, physical.

My biggest mistake. Letting Jasper go for even a second, let him bond with Maria. They were now the two outcasts of the Cullens. Both, struggling with their bloodlust. They bonded faster than I expected.

Edward tried to convince me that this is the best case, that Jasper falling in love, fuck, I hated even thinking of it. My Jasper? Falling in love with that wicked wench? I refused to believe that.

If anything, Jasper had convinced me to stay calm. He asked me if he had ever wavered in front of me. If he had ever looked at another woman in my company. Now, that I had thought about it. No, he hadn't. He told me to trust him. And I did.

I just did not trust her.

Two months, Jasper had not slipped. It was time again for the sabotage. This time it was much easier. I had believed that this was a necessary evil. That I had to let Jasper suffer for a little bit and help us in the end.

Jasper slipping had an adverse effect that Edward and I had not conceived. He was growing even closer with Maria. The day after his slip, I walked into the living room to see the two hugging on the couch. How dare she comfort him? How dare she even touch him with how much she's hurt him?

I pulled her away and snarled at her. I clawed at her face and left a permanent scar down her cheek. Jasper disliked that I did that. It only caused a rift in our relationship. Carlisle grounded me and canceled all my credit cards.

Again, I caught Maria and Jasper, talking alone in the woods. They were closer than ever. I wanted to hurt her. They were getting too close. I had a vision, Jasper and Maria were sitting in the woods after a hunt.

Maria was begging for forgiveness. She had asked Jasper to forgive her for how much trauma she caused him. She was on the verge of tears as Jasper put his arms around her and comforted her with his ability. Maria blinked her wet eyes and stared at Jasper. Her eyes roamed to his lips and they kissed softly and chastely.

I saw every second. I was going to kill Maria. I wasn't sure how, but I knew Edward and I could both take her. I was absolute with my plan.

Jasper did not say anything to me about his kiss. He hid it from me. For the first time, he hid something from me. I was angry at him and he had to know that I saw it. If he wouldn't apologize, then I would punish him. In the coming days, I refused all sex with him. I only visited Edward and as we made love, I spoke to him about my plan to murder Maria. We would take her out to hunt as normal and ambush her in a far forest.

We took her to a lake almost ten miles away from our original destination. Maria was nervous, she was on decent terms with Edward who managed to convince her to come with us. I fake apologized to her about the scar, but I felt nothing but victory. And soon, I'd be feeling much more than that. I wanted to destroy her, I wanted to bathe in her ashes.

I had kept the matches in my pockets the entire time. We were to quickly snap her head and throw her into a vast forest fire. She would never be traced, and the entire family will chalk her death up to an accident.

Edward was the only person who could get close enough to her. I simply stood guard a few meters away. Once he pounces, I will too.

Edward made a split decision and grabbed Maria's shoulders. At his sudden movement, I blitzed forward with my arms reaching out to grab her head. No, what?! She turned in a second and was able to push Edward back a few feet, buffering the window before I could snap her head. With this time, she blitzed to the west and I kept on her tail. If she makes it to the house, it's all over. I was always known as the fastest Cullen and I was slowly gaining on her.

Edward was right behind me as he hopped from branch to branch, his fangs out and ready to tear.

I made it behind her and reached for her collar, clawing at her marble skin as she barely left my grasp. Edward leaped from the top branch and caught her hand as he fell to the ground.

Maria roared in anguish as her arm ripped off, but she was still sprinting with no sign of slowing down. She was now five miles within the house.

She screamed for help, her body shifting as she struggled to maintain balance without her right arm. I knew these woods like the back of my hand. Soon, she was going to hit a heavily jungled area with vines and remnants of trees laying everywhere. I took an immediate left and avoided the area.

Maria kept running but I had soon caught up with her as she pushed past the vines and overgrowth around her. I threw my entire body into her side, effectively knocking her onto her knees.

"Edward!" I screamed, as Maria bit her lower lip and her glare changed. Where was this idiot? Maria took her left arm and striked me in my rib cage before wildly whipping her head towards me like a voracious beast. She fought like an animal. I tried to restrain her, but her unpredictable and erratic movements were throwing me off. She headbutted me and bit into my shoulder, eliciting a scream of pain.

"Edward!" I screamed again, she was killing me! Was I this weak, that I couldn't kill an armless woman?

She drove her knee up again at my ribcage and pushed me off of her as I felt a crackle in my waist. She nearly ripped my upper half off with her fangs alone. She bolted through the woods and took a left out of the overgrown area. That bitch!

I glanced into the future to see Edward was actually racing towards the house. He was planning on changing the story to make it seem like Maria attacked us! It was the smartest plan.

I held my stomach together and limped out of the forest. Until I saw the house in a clearing. I smiled as I watched Edward arrive just before Maria. My smile, however, was ephemeral.

Jasper appeared and charged directly towards Edward, sprinting at him like a buffalo. Edward was caught off guard as Jasper slammed into him, sending him soaring over to me.

Edward roared in pain as he gripped his shoulder. I looked up to see Jasper holding Edward's arm in his hand.

"No, Jasper, don't listen to her." I clambered towards him, my hand still over my ribs. He didn't glance up at me. He merely lowered to his knees and helped Maria up.

XXXXXX

"Alice, well, you're in one piece."

"What happened? Where's Jasper? Edward? Where am I?" I mumbled, as I stared around at an unfamiliar area. This was not the house. This wasn't anywhere I knew.

"Calm, Alice. You're in Denali."

"Where's Jasper?!" I screamed. I glanced into my visions and my heart broke. He was in Forks. Maria was naked on all fours on OUR bed. Her arm had been reattached. Jasper was pounding into from behind, a salacious grin on both of their faces.

No. No, no, no.

I whimpered and screamed at the top of my lungs. Carlisle attempted to quiet me but my screams quickly softened and turned into moans of anguish.

I looked in my visions again to see them kissing, Jasper bucking his hips as he held her close to him. Their lips locked as Maria ran her hands through his hair.

"No, Jasper…" I moaned, falling onto the floor at my knees. This can't be real. No, it can't be. Edward and I were sure, we had to kill her. We killed her in that clearing, right? There's no way, we failed?

Wake up. Wake up, Alice! I banged my head against the wooden floor, until I could feel my head crack.

Carlisle pulled me away and I looked again. Jasper was kissing her. He said, "I love you." No, no.

I screamed until my lungs could not take another ounce of breath. A few other men charged into the room to hold me down and shut me up. I can't. Jasper…

They took me to another room entirely and muzzled me so I could no longer scream. My eyes were wet with tears that wouldn't drop. I looked again and again and again into Jasper's future.

It had to be a joke, a sick joke. Jasper and Maria were having sex in our room.

"Where's Edward?" I said through a muffled scream. They unbuckled the muzzle and allowed me to speak, again, I repeated, "Where is Edward?"

"Edward is dead, Alice."

My eyes widened in shock. What?

"What did you say?" I muttered, no emotion in my voice.

"Jasper ripped him apart for trying to hurt his mate."

"His mate? He didn't hurt-"

"His mate, Maria."

No, no. I won't accept this. I screamed and kicked as Carlisle and Eleazar held me down to the bed and pulled the cover over my eyes.

XXXXX

Carlisle POV

"What do we do? Carlisle, she's extremely dangerous. I can't check on her anymore. She lashes out at anyone who gets close. If we unmuzzle her, she will scream until her vocal chords shatter."

"I know."

I hated to do it, but Alice was no longer sane. At least for now. She had lost both Jasper and Edward in a bizarre twist.

"Maybe, Aro can fix her." I sighed.

"Will she be okay?"

"I'm not sure."