Prologue – Tharn

"What's wrong with you?" I asked the old friend standing in front of me with annoyance in my voice. You are here so early."

"Well, there's nothing to do in the dormitory." The friend replied with a smile on his face trying to be sweet. "If you don't have a man to give you a butt to screw, just say it." I could only sigh as I watched him jump over the metal railings that lined the building and I watched as he approached me and hooked his arm around my neck with his hand on my shoulder. I could feel the strength he held when he started to drag me towards the canteen and he was still dragging me when we made our way to the front to find something for breakfast. Ai'Lhong has been a friend of mine since high school and is still struggling with the same story as my own. That man does not know when to quit. "Hey man tell me seriously why do you really want to live in the dorms?" He asked me with a look of seriousness written all over his face. "I haven't seen you wanting to live there before?" Why did it seem like he was trying to talk me out of this. "Just think about living in the dorms. Just think about all that sleeping in the dorm– and the fact that it's near and you can go back at any time."

"I'm lazy. It's true." I tell him. I don't want to spend the time in my car. I would rather use it to practice or study. "I've lived in the dorms for a while anyway." I said before putting my bag beside the stool. "Besides, my roommate is okay."

"That kid from Sports science program?!"

"Um." I think I said too much. I walked to the front and ordered from the aunt standing at the hot plate. I ordered the same thing most days. As I was waiting for my food to be prepared I stood there silently playing with my mobile phone and thinking about my roommate. At first, I wasn't sure if it was a good idea to live in the dorms. Frankly, I love cleanness. I can bear anything except dirty and messy things. What I told my friends was true in a sense. I am too lazy to run back and forth between my house and university so I decided to live in the dorms, it gave me more opportunities to practice. Did I tell you that I started to study the drums in high school? I wanted to study music when I started at university.

When I am living in the dorm I can be close to the teaching building, which means I can practice more. The dorms are clean enough and as I said I am very satisfied with my roommate. When I first found out that he studied sports I was nervous. Was he going to be okay? Was he going to be messy? As I watched him over time, I realised he was okay. The best thing about him is that no matter how tired he is when he gets back to the dorm the first thing he does is take a bath. Another thing that I cannot deny is my roommate is very handsome. Type's skin is darker than I expected, it's different from my mixed race white skin, but he is definitely good looking. The most prominent part of him is his eyes. He told me he is from the southern parts of Thailand but not the southernmost part. He seemed to be from the Surat Thani area so his eyes are vivid and I couldn't help but notice his eyelashes which any girl would be jealous of. He studying sports so he has the body of an athlete and is amazing eye candy. Because...

"Oh Tharn" Lhong interrupts my train of thought. "Why are we eating at the same shop every morning?" He complained as we walked along the road as I saw all of the seniors with juniors laughing and joking. My words choke me at the back of my throat as I couldn't help but notice my ex-boyfriend with a bass bag on his shoulders. Yes, I know what you're thinking. My ex is a man.

"Um." I answer not knowing how to answer him or where to look. I ended up looking down at my cell phone. I didn't want to let Lhong know what I saw because I genuinely didn't want to talk about it. We had a bad break up. I collected my breakfast and made my way back to where Lhong was sitting, as I made my way back I could see him staring at my ex.

"It looks like your ex-boyfriend is going to try to reconcile." He told me.

"Nonsense." I replied briefly as I sat to eat. I watched as Lhong pointed at me and laughed, and he started to get lost in his criticism of me.

"It's boring to say that you should be careful." Lhong continued on his rant. "Even ex-boyfriends have to fight for a while. That way you know if it's truly love." Lhong had his own theories of love and what it should be like to fall in love. "You will find the one that wants to fight for you one day. I'm not going to be surprised when that happens." Lhong turned back to his breakfast before his head shot back up to look at me. "Oh, be careful of your roommate too." He warns as I look at him with confusion written all over my face. "He stays with you all the time so just be careful of your ex-boyfriends tearing him up." He laughs as you can see the thoughts running through his head.

"He's normal." I reply quickly.

"Huh?" Lhong whispered as I look up at him.

"My roommate is a straight man." If you hadn't figured out by now or were still questioning it. Yes, I'm gay. But all of a sudden, my friend lost his voice and laughed.

"But not that the talented Ai'Tharn can't turn a straight guy?"

"..." I sighed heavily, because dealing with straight men, and the final result was more trouble than it was worth. There is one other thing that is the most important; you could be beaten black and blue. But the most terrible thing is, I may make a straight man no longer want to be with women. But I don't want to be responsible for that. "You know I don't play with the straight men." I shrugged, and then continued to eat, if not for my friend's tongue blossoming, raising his head and asking.

"I heard your roommate say that he hates gay men." I was in a daze and shook my head. Surely nowadays that still can't be the attitude, especially of people my own age. I heard what Lhong said and tell myself that I have to still acting normally. I haven't showed too much gayness in front of Type, unsure of what acting with gayness is. I've vowed never to get involved with the straight man again. So, I absolutely will not mess with Type for sure.

"As long as he doesn't know, there's no problem." I said and looked at Lhong with indifference. I forced myself to cling to music in my mind, but I can't deny that there may be accidents in my room with me. I also want to control myself, but what can I do? I don't want to complicate things. Although I'm not sure, but now a guy who hates gay just lives in the same dorm with a gay guy. How is this going to turn out?