Romantic
Amelia Shepard was a lot of things, but she would never call herself a romantic. Romantics tended not to last long in the Alliance, and their numbers amongst N7s were even more dismal. It was hard to romanticize the worst-case scenarios, everything she was trained for, and being expected to choose who would die so more could live beat her down to the point where even finding little things to look forward to was getting harder. That's why turning to fraternization surprised her so. And when fraternization turned to an actual, genuine, using the l-word relationship? Why, that was about as romantic as she'd gotten in years.
She loved Kaidan and Ashley. The talks they shared in the middle of the night about Earth years ago, the way they immediately clicked as a ground squad, the hours spent exploring the Citadel together, even the aforementioned little things like making each other try shitty alien beer in Chora's Den or taking notes on the most authentic Earth food spots in the Wards. They had a bond the rest of the crew didn't understand. Commander Shepard didn't treat them any differently from the crew when it came to missions, but Amelia definitely preferred their company and came to love life aboard the Normandy. Eventually that love spread to one man in particular, born of those late-night chats and impromptu food dates. Private walks on the Citadel. Huddled together in a bunk watching a vid on a small omni-tool screen. Amelia already up hours before her shift, figuring if she couldn't sleep she might as well get some paperwork done, and finding herself with company. The soldier became the romantic.
Which was how Amelia found herself smooshed into Kaidan's bunk on the lower level, fingers entwined in his shirt, enjoying the few moments alone before Ashley came looking for some pre-mission destressing. She had already almost gotten her head bitten off by Wrex trying to simply talk to him about the mission. He had to understand why krogan clones weren't going to help cure the genophage, especially when created by an indoctrinated madman like Saren. He had to understand why going to Virmire was necessary, why destroying the factory was even more so. Emotions ran too hot, especially once Ashley got involved. To avoid anyone getting shot Amelia ordered him into confinement until they reached planet side. Aside from worrying about the general wellbeing of her ground squad, which was a full-time job by itself, all that was left was trying to relax so her friends wouldn't yell at her for going into a mission already wired. She lived her life wired, finding it near impossible to relax, but saving herself the fight with her crew was worth it. Saving herself her friendships was worth it.
She laid with her head on his chest, one hand on his shoulder and the other playing with his shirt, legs splayed out, hair falling out of its messy ponytail to tickle his face. His arm was curled around her waist, his free hand playing with those fallen strands. Both were in rumpled fatigues ready to be swapped for armor. Both had circles under their eyes, Amelia's forever more pronounced since she inherited leadership. Both were covered in bruises and healing wounds and scars. Both had no greater concerns than staying in that moment in time forever.
"You think everyone will be able to handle it?" Amelia asked. She caught herself from saying tomorrow, since she'd come to accept that by the same time tomorrow she might be dead.
Kaidan smiled into her hair. "You have a good crew, Amelia. They can handle it. And Wrex will come around. He respects you too much. So does Ash. She'll keep an eye on him. It'll be okay. You'll be okay."
Amelia had more doubts to voice, more insecurities in her newfound leadership to sort through. Kaidan was the only person she trusted completely to say those thoughts without fear of them leaking to the entire Normandy crew. She had to share them now before the mission, before they could affect her ability to command a ground team. Just as she was about to open her mouth, still smooshed into Kaidan's chest, the door to the bunk room swooshed open and a storm rolled in.
"What vid are we watching?" Ashley blew in, her personal vid collection on her omni tool already connecting to a tablet in her free hand.
Amelia and Kaidan tried to detach themselves from each other before Ashley noticed, resulting in the both of them ending up on the floor in a mess of limbs and military issue blanket. Their limbs were still partially entwined, Kaidan's head propped up on the metal supports, Amelia's wrapped up in her arms in an awkward angle under Kaidan's shoulder.
Ashley froze mid-step. From the beginning she suspected there was something more going on with the two of them. She just didn't think it would take Virmire to culminate things. Still. Good for them. "What's going on here, Skipper?"
"Oh, um, nothing. Nothing's going on, Ash. Just, uh..."
Kaidan never bothered attempting to offer an explanation. He gave a valiant effort to detangle himself and perched on the edge of the bunk, lending Amelia a hand so she could pull herself to her feet.
"Riiiiiight." Ashley put one arm around Amelia's shoulders and pulled her towards the door. Amelia reached behind her for Kaidan's arm. He took it, forming a chain. "I'm assuming neither of you put any thought into this, so I went ahead and picked one out. You two procure the snacks. I'll pull up the vid."
They were alone again as Ashley detoured into the common area, most likely for the last time in days, leaving them near the kitchens. As Kaidan moved towards the drawers Amelia stuck to his side. Ashley would be a few minutes yet. After all, Amelia was a romantic now. She had to act the part. And by this point, she had to admit, it wasn't an act anymore. Amelia loved her best friends, the first she'd ever truly had, and beyond that she had Kaidan. She had family.